"So it's as easy as that?" John asked as I sat in the Garrison with Finn, John and Arthur. Arthur was explaining about his 'ladies experience' in London. I did feel quite awkward sitting there and Finn seemed to be loving it. 

"Easy as that, John boy. London, you wouldn't believe it." Arthur explained before he turned to face Finn. "Finn, stick your head in a bucket." Arthur instructed and Finn shook his head.

"No." He grinned happily, he wanted to know about this women. 

"The women, John boy, the women I've got this one, she's a dancer, right? She can do things with her..." Arthur explained and I realised this was getting a bit to adult for Finn. I coughed and Arthur groaned loudly. "If Finn would just piss off I'd explain a little bit better." Arthur stated pointedly and Finn smirked. 

"Well, if it's so good, why are you here?" Finn asked him and I just laughed a little as Arthur held up his pint. 

"A decent pint. The cockney's can't get that right." Arthur joked and we all laughed.

"He misses us, Finn, that's what it is." John interjected and I nodded my head but Arthur just shrugged us off. Then Isaiah and Michael walked in but I could not help but notice the bruises on their hands.

"Here they are, look, junior Peaky boys." I grinned at them happily. Arthur also noticed that the boys had been in a fight. 

"What's happened to you? You been scrapping?" Arthur asked and the boys looked down at their knuckles, to examine their bruises.

 "Some idiots at the Marquis of Lorne. Tried to stop me and Isaiah from drinking, but it's all right. We fought them off. Arthur, we had to stand our ground and we did." Michael explained and I had a feeling as to why they were not allowed to drink. Some people did not like black people which I found ridiculous. I mean they are people like everyone else, but some people believe them to be different and impure. 

"The Marquis, eh? Where's your dad?" Arthur asked as him, John and I all stood up. I made sure my gun was fully loaded before I placed it back in my boot. 

"Preaching." Isaiah answered and all of us nodded our heads. 

"Right. Don't nick any of me chips, Finn!" I warned Finn and he just smirked at me, so in response. I attempted to fit them all in my mouth, I was such a lady. 

"Where are you going?" Michael asked as John and I walked out, I was covering my mouth as I ate my chips. 

"We won't be long." Arthur reassured as we all walked out. I looked at the boys as I finally finished the chips.

"Are we going to kill them?" I asked and they looked at me as if I was an alien or something. 

"You know we will, we have too." John stated and I was trying to prepare myself for it. But I promised myself to never take a life again with my own hands and that was what I was going to do. 

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"Let's just be quick and get this over with." I stated as I walked into The Marquis with John and Arthur. They had already beaten up the guy who called Isaiah the n word. They threw him in and I walked over to the cash register. I took the money as Arthur smashed whiskey bottles and John poured it over the man show as crying. 

The bartender was in shock. He was just sitting there in shock, I was going to make sure that nothing happened to him because he was innocent, he looked innocent.

John began pouring whiskey over the man's body and down the bar. We were going to burn this place to the ground. 

This was a hard thing to do, it was hard being a Peaky Blinder but I signed up for this and this man did do something really bad. I knew I had to keep my mouth shut. John light the tooth pick that was in his mouth before he threw it onto the drenched bar.

"Lets go." I instructed before we all walked out of the bar, leaving the guy in there alone. All I could hear was him scream as I walked out. I slyly wiped away a tear from my cheek so the brothers would not see. They would tell me to stop if they knew it made me upset. 

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"Ey-up." I heard Isaiah shout as Arthur, John and I all walked passed Isaiah and Michael.

"You didn't have to do that for me." Michael stated and I shook my head.

"We didn't do it for you, Michael." I shouted before Arthur continued what I was away to say.

"We did it for the good name of the company." Arthur added and the young Peaky Blinders smirked happily. 

"None of this happened, all right?" John warned before he turned around to face Arthur and I. They were walking to the Garrison but I decided to go and see Tommy because it had been too long since I had seen him. I missed him, my mother was busy looking after Roma so I could have some time to myself.

My mother and I were getting on really good. My dad kept on insisting that she came home but she was just ignoring the letters. I was worried as to what the repercussions what be to that. My father was not one to take things lightly lets just say. 

"I am going to go and see if Tommy is back yet." I stated and John looked at me confused. 

"He is seeing the horse." He replied and I was confused.

"Doesn't that women not live far out?" I asked them trying to get to the bottom of all of this. 

"Yes she does." John answered and I had a feeling of undoubted spreading around me body. It was haunting me. 

"He went all that way." I whispered upset. 

"Look don't fucking read too much into it." Arthur explained and I just sighed. I did not know what to think, was he cheating on me? Maybe I was just reading too much into the situation and all he wanted to do was see the horse. 

"I am going to go wait for him, see you boys tomorrow." I replied as I smiled at them before I walked out. Tommy had some explaining to do. 

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"Did you fuck her?" I asked Tommy as he walked into office. The mood was dark and dim and I scowled at him as I drew my cigarette. Tommy looked at me strange as he sat down on his chair at his desk. 

"What are you talking about?" He asked me as he lit himself a cigarette. I stared at him, squinting my eyes a little. 

"You have that look." I stated and it was true. I just knew inside of me. 

"I did not fuck her." Tommy replied sternly and I looked at him for a while before I decided to believe him. 

"But you wanted to." I challenged as I stubbed the cigarette on the ashtray before I threw it in. Tommy stayed silent and I pouted at him upset. "Tommy you have been so distance after I said no for the now." I explained and Tommy stayed still and silent. 

"I have not been." He argued. 

"You still love me?" I asked very mousy because I was nervous that it was going to be a no. 

"Of course." He answered and I just sighed. 

"Then why am I feeling like this? Like you can walk away from me at any moment? I should not be feeling like this Tommy." I explained and Tommy shrugged his shoulders confused.

"I do not know." Tommy stated and I hated how cold he was being. I wanted to know how I could fix it or how we could fix it. 

"Speak to me." I sighed running my hands through my perfect hair. 

"What do you want me to say?" Tommy asked me and I just nodded my head. 

"I want you to promise that you did not fuck her Tommy. Promise that you will never cheat on me." I explained bluntly and sternly. Tommy took a drag from his cigarette before he replied. 

"I promise." He reassured and all I could do was believe him. So far he had given me no reason to doubt him but I just could not help but feel something looming in the background. 

"If you ever cheat on me I will leave her with Roma. You will never see her again." "You know that right?" I asked him sternly but Tommy knew how serious I was being. He knew the lengths I would go to and he did not want to lose his daughter nor the love of his life. 

"I know." Tommy stated and I just sighed, I think I might say yes to marrying him. I think. I am trying to imagine my life with him and how good it would be. 

"Do you have the ring with you?" I asked him trying to conceal how I was feeling because he could read my like a book. 

"I always carry it." Tommy answered as he placed the ring on the table. I looked down at it and my decision was final. 

"Yes." I stated bluntly, I was ready to marry him. I really was. 

"Yes what?" Tommy asked confused and I just rolled my eyes. I grinned at him ectastically. 

"Yes I will marry you." I smiled at him and Tommy's face just it up. He stubbed his cigarette out before he smirked at me. 

"Give me your hand." Tommy instructed and I gave him my hand. He slowly slid the ring on my wedding ring finger. I looked down at it in awe, it was just as beautiful as I remembered. 

"Come here." I grinned before we leaned over the desk and started to kiss. Out of the corner of my eye I saw a piece of paper that had Grace's address on it. Why would he still keep that?

I should not be thinking like this, he choose me and me only. I needed to believe that. I did believe that. We slowly pulled away and I smiled at him.

"You scare me sometimes." I whispered as I walked around to him. I sat down on his knee. "I am scared that you will leave me." I continued and Tommy just shook his head.

"I told you, I will never hurt you or leave you." Tommy reassured and I nodded my head before we started to kiss again.

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oh tommy, tommy, tommy. what has he done? he lied to her!

tell me what you think will happen in the comments down below.

mrs n o'brien xx