How do you say goodbye when your heart still wants to hold on?

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As his lips meets mine, it seems like the world around me is melting away.

The fragrance of vanilla that is radiating from him is intoxicating- I clench my eyes shut, feeling his warm breathe touch me like a summer breeze.

The deliciousness I have always wanted to taste since last time is finally here, the euphoric feeling I have always dreamt of is finally here, the happy end I have always thought of is here and I can't seem to control my insides due to the extreme excitement.

He entangles one of his hand in my hair and the other presses against my back, slowly deepening the kiss.

But the minute I feel my control losing away, he huffs and breaks the kiss- probably feeling the eyes of our or now his seniors and my elder brother.

No kidding, Jungkook is quite protective of a brother that now I am bewildered- how didn't he object?

"These love birds oof.." Jin mutters and claps as the warmth slowly creeps up and covers my cheeks.

"I knew about your feelings, it was you who always remained confused," Jimin chuckles and snaps his fingers in my direction as more of the blush follows behind.

And then everything becomes silent. Wanting Jungkook to say something, I raise my eyebrows at him but he remains calm with a simple smile on his face.

"I am happy, no objections."

Oh my lord..

"Let's leave, these two needs to talk. But remember, come straight to the clinic."

Oh, how can I explain my happiness, the most awaited thing has occurred and there is no way I can keep calm.

Taehyung smirks, bringing me back to reality.

"So what Jimin said is true, huh?" He smugly asks as I bite the insides of my cheek.

As more blush dominates my face, the more his smirk widens and becomes sharper.

"Actually-"

"You know what," He interrupts while bringing me closer to his body as I look in his eyes. "We would have become a couple sooner, only if your little brain there retained the memory of our conversation."

Again? What conversation does he keeps on talking about?

"What conversation? I don't remember any."

"Well, that's exactly the reason too," He shrugs.

"Okay, open up now."

And as the words of our meeting in that unusual place started coming out of his lips, my insides started twisting with joy.

He loves me, since that long?

"Yeah, so only if you remembered-"

But I hug him tightly, bringing his head in the junction of my neck and head. He doesn't take much time to adjust himself comfortably and snuggles more.

"I have always thought of you as a boy out of my league, never thought that you can also return my feelings back. I can't express my happiness anymore."

"I love you so much, Tae."

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And now I am standing in the clinic after mine and Taehyung's long hour discussions.

Sitting on the chair with these strange instruments piercing the skin of my hand and a large web tightly clutching my head.

Jin looks quite busy while staring at the monitors as he changes the settings of the machine in order to erase my memories related to organization. Forgetting everything about the missions, the people and each second spent here- all of these includes years of my life.

It actually feels so bad, it upsets me the most that the life I have been living till now will be removed once and for all with no traces left behind and that part of my life will be as hollow and dark as a black hole.

Along with the memories of Taehyung, everything will just vanish off. The words, the kiss and the precious moments we shared together, everything will be erased.

Although I am still going to meet everyone during my normal days but there always will be that empty feeling inside my heart, I swear I will be torturing myself the most when I go back to my normal self.

"Hey, how is it going?"

Jimin emerges beside me and snaps me back to reality while poking his elbow in my stomach. My eyes lands on his depressed face with his smile that he is deliberately trying to keep.

"Yeah, good I guess," I nod, not wanting to act like I have failed his desperate attempt- I keep my face straight with unnoticeable emotions.

"Be happy, afterall you will get to live normally back there."

I remain silent, his attempt fails again, with my expressions stiff. I don't want him to feel bad but what he said now is actually not true.

"Yeah.."

"Goeun, will meet soon alright?" He pats my shoulder as well as my covered head.

"What the hell is this? A fish net? Indeed, you are a fish."

"Shut it," I can't help but chuckle. His habit of hilarious comparisons never stops even when the situation is tense.

"Everything is set, stand back everyone."

Jin announces as everyone glances at me for the last time, the last time when I am still an agent. Each of them starts tearing up and with the looks Dohee and Boram is giving me, it actually feels like I am about to die.

"You ready, Goeun?" Jin asks while raising his eyebrows. I shake my head and close my eyes, elevating my hand, I throw him a thumbs up.

"Alright! One."

Okay, Goeun. Take a deep breathe.

I actually hope that it is not that painful as others say.

I hope it is just a rumour.

"Two."

"Wait!"

I open my eyes with a jerk the second I hear Taehyung's scream. His face looks baffled, almost like he just remembered something and is dying to share with me.

"Just one second please," With that, he runs towards me without even waiting for Jin's approval. It can be dangerous, but this boy never cares.

"Don't be afraid," He instantly attaches our foreheads and glances deep in my eyes. I keep my eyes open, this is the only way I can remember that I had once shared such a beautiful moment with this wonderful human. In the coming time when I will be studying like a normal student, he may glance and look at me from far, but I will doubt if he is a pervert or somthing- that somehow worries or is comical to me.

"Stay safe, don't unnecessarily call for danger alright."

Just able to nod my head, I smile but soon it becomes neutral. "Same for you."

"We will meet soon, I promise." Poking my nose with his, he intertwines our hands and leaves a kiss on my hand.

"Taehyung, come over," Namjoon orders with his strict voice even though I can sense the vulnerability.

"I promise too."

Soon after, he runs away as my eyes keeps on looking at his figure which is shaking- he never glances at me again. Standing in the front row yet with his back towards me and his hands covering his face.

Jungkook pats his shoulder with his own tears cascading down his cheeks but the smile remains prominent on his lips.

"Three."

Jin presses the button as my eyes seems to be captured by darkness. With a last shaky breathe, I smile and wave at them for the last time.

"Goodbye, you all."