A/N: It's my birthday present to you guys. Enjoy. 

Henry spend the next few days locking himself inside the house. He could hear banging at the front door but chose to ignore the call. Henry could hear the desperate plea from Alex's voice asking what is going on with him but he can't answer him nor he can explain about himself either.

The images scares him most especially seeing the creepy tall dark towers made his heart thumping rapidly in his chest.

He didn't see June since then and the shadow keeps appearing in his room each time he opened his eyes.

It was the night of Alex's New Years Eve party that made Henry finally stood out from the bed and headed to the door. Outside on his doorsteps, a box with a white bow on the corner was placed on the floor. The snow had fallen on top of it since Henry has been ignoring it for hours. He recalled Cash rang on his doorbell saying a car is sent by Alex to fetch him and asks if he should be worried if anything was wrong with him. Henry remembered replying from behind the door for Cash to leave him be and a exasperated sigh escaped him.

"It would be here whether you want to come or not. I sincerely hope you do." Cash told him. Henry didn't reply, he didn't want to give false hope to Cash or especially Alex but somehow he feels he owed Alex for the promises he had made so he summoned up all his courage to face him tonight.

He took the box inside his apartment before placing it on his bed. He pulled out the white ribbon that tied around the square shaped revealing the sets of suits that Alex had sent him with a half black laced mask with red ruby stones on the sides with two black strings attached on the end.

Inside the box there was a piece of paper folded in half with the iPhone Henry had left inside Alex's apartment already sets up with sim card and almost fully charged.

He unfold the letter to reveal Alex's handwriting for the first time Henry had witnessed.

Henry,

I don't know what happened on the day you left me in the loft, feeling confused myself if I did something wrong. But I hope all is well and I hoped to see you at the party tonight.

Alex

Henry's vision blurred by the tears when he read the letter Alex had written for him. He pulled out the black satin suit with white undershirt that was folded inside perfectly. He put on the suit eventually dreading how the night would go. The suit fits him perfectly with three breasted button down vest underneath and the shoe is in perfect size for Henry, already shined and ready for him to wear.

He stood by the front mirror in his bathroom watching himself in this expensive suit. He remembers the time of his life where he could afford this such luxury before everything went down. His hand stroked down the lapel before taking another deep breath and headed out of the apartment.

Henry saw the car is waiting for him as Cash promised him and by the look of the driver, he was glad Henry showed up when he saw him coming up from the stairs.

The moment the car stopped by the entrance, Henry could hear the music blasting from inside of the building with a guard that stood outside holding an iPad in his hand checking each and everyone's invitation.

"Name?" The guard asks and Henry was about to answer when an arm clung around his turning his head to the side to see Nora wearing the red ruffles dress Alex had picked for her with a mask covered half of her face.

"It's Nora Holleren and Henry Hanover-Stuart." She says and the guard released the red tie for them to enter. "VIP access for both." He says pressing a red rose bud sticker over their shoulders. Henry furrows his eyebrows but chose to ignore him when Nora pulled him inside.

"Are you alright? Alex says you ran off with no explanation." Nora asks next to him as they walked inside to see the whole ballroom is decorated with a carnival theme. There were trapeze flying above their heads and couple of fire spitter on the side with few jester entertaining the guest with their tricks.

"I'm fine." Henry says briefly clearing his throat before Nora stopped him. "Henry I didn't mean to say those words to you. If you care for him, I'm glad but I don't want either of you got hurt. You know my intention is right?" Nora says holding Henry's hand in her gloved hand.

Henry nodded with a soft smile on his face before he got distracted by a trapeze flying above his head and flipping into the air.

They walked further into the party finding themselves sitting at the bar stool ordering drinks for the night. Nora was telling Henry how much this party meant for Alex since it was always the start of the New Year that Alex tries to forget how much he misses June.

Or the fact that it was another year Alex had wasted in not finding her.

"You came!" Alex screaming high pitch voice breaks them from their conversation when Henry saw him stumbling wearing his exact same suit except in white with a tall hat and white gold mask in his hand.

"I'm so glad you came." Alex high pitched scream and his alcohol breath indicating that he is drunk out of his wits.

"Glad you're having fun." Henry says which Alex didn't hear him and continued to pull him by his wrist towards the dance floor.

"You looks so hot in those suits I picked up for you." Alex whispered in Henry's ear before letting his hand wrapped along his waist. Henry felt his other hand tangled in between Alex's fingers closing their distance together.

"Alex." Henry starts but Alex hushed him before closing their hips together. "Just enjoy the lights." He says and Henry smirked at his drunk choice of words. "You mean night?" Henry asks but Alex shook his head at him licking his lower lips.

"No. Lights!" He says pushing Henry's chin up to let him see the colorful shimmering lights above him. The ceiling was covered in red fabric when the light bounced from the top sending shimmers of small but intricate lights across the room.

Alex was right, it was beautiful and Henry was mesmerized by the view when Alex stepped closer running his nose over Henry's neck.

"You always smell so good. Sometimes I can smell you in my dream." Alex says running his tip of nose over Henry's strained neck. Henry swallowed his throat when he felt Alex's brushing his lips over his skin. A moan escaped Alex lips and Henry could feel Alex pulling him tighter closing their hips together.

"Alex." Henry called his name but somehow his mind drifted towards Alex's tight gripped over his waist that made him uncomfortable.

"You're drunk Alex." Henry says pushing his hand away but Alex won't budge. He continued to rub his hips over Henry pelvis with his hand gripped tightly over Henry's waist. The slow song kept playing on the background and Henry swore he heard chimed or probably was it chains?

"I might be but you're still handsome as hell." Alex says whispering words in Henry's ear somehow making Henry uncomfortable when Alex pushes his lips further into Henry's neck. "Alex stop." Henry pushed but Alex continued kissing his neck somehow brought back bad memories of him in Broadmoor. 

"Alex please stop this." Henry begged trying to get away from his grip but Alex was stronger. He keeps pushing Alex's shoulder away but Alex continued to grip Henry's hip tighter but later Henry flinched when Alex squeeze his palm over Henry's ass.

Henry yelped at his gesture but chose to push him harshly on his chest before his hand accidentally slapped Alex across the cheek. The sound travels loudly between them and he can see how disappointed Alex was at his gesture. "This isn't you." Henry mutters.

Henry wasn't surprised to see Alex's eyes had changed from lazy drunken gaze to a sudden furrowed with fury burning from behind his eyes. He could feel Alex's is flaring with anger when Henry slapped him but Alex crossed the line when he forced himself into him. So instead of letting his gaze sent guilt in Henry's heart, he left the dance floor with Alex standing frozen with the crowd circling around him.

"Are you okay? What's wrong?" Nora asks after Henry found her at one of the VIP tables drinking her glass of cosmo.

Henry was trying not to look weak by crying beside her but he couldn't say anything to her either or she will have Alex's neck for doing such thing to him. "N-Nothing. Some guy came on to me in the bathroom." He lied sipping into his drink which then turned his face cringed at the sweet taste of alcohol on his tongue.

Henry lost counts on how many drinks he had with Nora trying to forget what had happened between him and Alex. He didn't see him again after he left and his eyes does searched him through the crowd only failed to spot him.

Henry watched as Nora was on her instagram uploading pictures of her tonight while drinking when he noticed the clock on her phone signed almost midnight. "I'm knackered. I think I'm gonna leave." He was already decided to leave the party when Nora stopped him.

"Don't leave me here! I don't know where Alex is. Please stay." Nora begged clutching on Henry's wrist when he told her he wanted to go home. Henry sighed deeply before exhaling and nodded at her when he spotted Alex walking through the crowd towards one of the room covered by the red curtain.

"I'll get you more drinks." Henry said and Nora smiles letting his wrist free when Henry followed Alex's footsteps behind the close curtain.

The moment Henry slipped through the entrance, he was confused by the hallway with each sides covered with closed red curtain. They are probably three room on each sides when Henry peeped through each curtain to find it empty love chair in the middle.

Henry wonders where Alex had gone or what these room meant to anyone at the party. He sighed turning on his heels before headed out when he hears soft moan coming from the end of the room.

Henry contemplate for a while whether or not he should peek behind the curtain when his curiosity beat him. He stepped closer and he could hear the moan getting louder by each steps. He didn't want to make any sound and decides to peep the curtain gently to see what's behind the curtain.

The horror flashes through Henry's eyes when he peeled the curtain to see Alex in one of the same love chair with a black haired guy right in between his spread legs. Henry could feel his heart tug deeply in his stomach by the sight of the guy was sucking Alex's cock while Alex's calloused hand gripped over the guy's hair. His head tilted back with his eyes closed and his mouth fell apart writhing at the guy's action.

Henry remembered when Alex was all over him a while ago and telling him earlier how much he loves his smell or the fact how hot he looks in the suit he had bought for him. Henry thought, for a second, all might have distant feelings that sparks inside of him for Henry and finally showed him the humanity that still exist in his heart. But now, Alex is pleasuring himself by this man and Henry somehow felt a pang of betrayal on his account.

He could feel the tears started to form in his eyes when Alex's head tilted back down and their eyes are locked at the exact moment when he came in the guy's mouth. His eyes blazing at the shock of seeing Henry behind the slit curtain when Henry realized he was exposed.

"Henry?" Alex muttered under his breath but Henry immediately shut the curtain closed and fled from the room in tears.

.

Alex couldn't believe Henry had slapped him twice this week with no repercussions. Before, any sight of men disprove him or even the thought of hurting him would had Alex sent them over the bridge or buried them deep in the ground with no remorse.

But tonight, when Henry slapped him across the face, for a second, he thought of wanting to hurt him. His men are already edging to the gun in their holster when he gave them a hold look. He wanted to kill Henry himself right then and there but the moment Henry's eyes waters running through the crowd in tears, Alex finally realized what he just did.

"This isn't you." Henry's words kept replaying over and over inside his mind that made him ran back to the VIP lounge hidden in the back to drown himself in alcohol where Cash found him.

"Something wrong? Why aren't you out there dancing? You love this party and had the whole year planning it." Cash came by his side tapping the counter for his drink when the bartender slides him his scotch glass.

"Fuck off!" Alex shut him off before gulping his drink to the bottom and later snatched the champagne from behind the counter. He knows Cash knew everything that happened and asks him obvious question just to spite him. 

"Miguel's here. Want me to send him to the room?" He asks seeing Alex refused to talk. He shot his head up at him with a raised brow, "Fuck no!" Alex says taking the champagne bottle by the rim before left the bar stool only to be stopped by Miguel that was right there standing behind him. 

"Too late." Cash whispered next to his ear before taking his drink and left. Alex glared back at him with his jaw clenched in frustration. 

"Hey Alex." Miguel greeted him and Alex sighed longly at his presence knowing he won't be able to escape him for the rest of the night.

He met Miguel few years ago when he went to one of the strip club and found him rather enticing in that forbidden dance. But later found out how clingy he was or the fact he can't shake him off since their encounter. Alex didn't mind him at all knowing he was there only to satisfy him and from his experience, he was not disappointed by his performance.

"Oh, hey Miguel." Alex says trying to walk past him but Miguel had his palm over Alex's chest pushing him back before running the rest of his fingers all over Alex's suit.

"What's wrong? You look tense." Miguel whispered hovering his lips over Alex's neck. His height barely reaching Alex's shoulder so he had to stand on his toes to reach him. He purposely grabbed Alex's hand placing it around his lower thigh after he hiked up his leg around Alex's. He could feel Alex is finally relaxed his tense shoulder when his both hand grabbed Miguel's waist and lowered his face towards him.

Miguel had his hand wrapped around Alex's neck before pressing his lips deeply leaving him breathless. "Wanna me to help you eased up a bit?" Miguel whispered and Alex acted like a moth drawn to a flame nodding at him letting Miguel pulled him by his wrist headed towards the back room.

Miguel let Alex followed him through the crowd on the dance floor before they walked in to their favorite cubicle at the end. He shoved Alex by his chest and smiled when Alex smirked at him. "What's got you so tense tonight?" Miguel asks letting his fingers fiddling with Alex's curls before Alex smacked his hand off from touching him.

"None of your fucking business. Get to it." Alex shoved him down from straddling him on the chair. Miguel looked defeated at Alex treating him this harshly but he never took in mind when he knew Alex favors him the most among all of his affairs. He knows how much Alex denying him, he would always finds his way to please him.

He didn't mind the roughness either since it was his kink. Alex rough calloused hand and his strong grip turned him on much more than a soft love making act.

He didn't waste time when Alex popped open his pants button and let Miguel do the rest. The moment his lips wrapped around his half hard cock, Alex moaned tilting his head back. He wasn't sure why but at that moment, his thoughts went back to Henry and his betrayed gaze with his pending tears in his eyes flooded back into his mind.

Somehow the thought drifted from Henry's despair gaze towards Henry's eyes that Alex finds it attracting. The way his hazel brown-green eyes looking back at him that carries secrets that Alex yet to unravel. The way his eyelashes creating shadows on his cheek when he stood under the light in Nora's shop or the way his eyes glistened when his thoughts messing with him.

He still remember the frightened look Henry had the day he ran off from Alex's apartment that still lingers in his mind in finding out what happened. 

But the one thing that Alex loves the most is how Henry's lips is a perfect thickness with a small mole rested right on his upper lips that Alex finds it sexy. The way the curved smiled formed when Alex teased him or when Henry blushed creating soft pinkish shades on his cheek.

He didn't even realized when his thoughts wanders at the image of Henry looking up at him imagining him sucking his hardened cock instead of Miguel right now. He felt himself hardened at the thought of Henry's luscious lips wrapped around his thick hardened cock.

"There ya go." Miguel comments on Alex finally hardened self. Alex didn't reply, not wanting to break the imagination of having Henry between his legs instead of Miguel.

"Fuck, Hen." Alex whispered thinking it was not that loud for Miguel to hear but he was wrong.

"Who?" Miguel asks clearly didn't hear it well when Alex finally returned his gaze down at him. "No one! Continue." Alex says grabbing the top of his head to continue finished him off. his hand stayed gripping into Miguel's hair with his head tilted back against the couch feeling his lower half tightened.

He moaned feeling his coming to the edge with Henry's soft voice echoing in his mind when he felt Miguel had gone faster. He can't help letting a guttural grunt escaped his throat before releasing his cum down Miguel's throat.

His head flipped back in the room when his gaze locked with Henry standing behind the slightly opened curtain with his eyes glistening looking back at Alex. He wanted to stop him when Henry fled from the scene.

"Hen, wait." He tried to catch him but failed when Miguel is still kneeling between his legs and his pants still unbuttoned with his limp cock flailing out from his underwear.

"Fuck!" Alex pushed Miguel away from his leg before fixing his pants back, "What's the rush?" He asks wiping the corner of his lips with his finger looking at Alex rushing to dress himself.

"Nothing." Alex told him before zipping up his pants and ran out of the room to chase Henry.

Alex ran out of the back room and was faced with the crowd on the dance floor counting the seconds to midnight when he spotted Henry ran out towards the exit. He followed him as he pushed past the crowd and the girls started to block him and wanted to pull Alex to do their countdown together.

Alex declined their offer and ran again to chase Henry when he finally stepped outside to the cold winter and saw Henry was walking fast on the sidewalk.

"Henry, wait!" Alex yelled noticed Henry heard him calling when his head turned around before he pushed his legs faster but Alex was quicker on his feet when he grabbed him by his elbow flipping him back to face him. "I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to creep around like that. I didn't mean too." Henry starts apologizing with his gaze low on the ground.

Alex could feel his heart stammering at the sight of Henry apologetic gaze sent him confused out of his wits.

"What were you doing in there anyway?" Alex asks thinking Henry might be hooking up with someone that would explained his presence there.

"I was- I g-got lost." Henry lied knowing how Alex can actually sense him lying to his face but he didn't say anything else except staring back at him. They stood there for a while in silence when Henry finally realized how awkward the situation is right now. 

"I have to go. Happy New Year Alex." Henry wished when he heard the countdown finally over and fireworks began to pop in the midnight sky above them. Lights of blue, red and yellow colored their faces and Alex could see the lights flashes on Henry's pale skin before he turned away with that broken smile on his lips.

"Why are you so upset?" Alex asks stopping Henry from running away again. They stood few feet away from each other on the sidewalk with no one in sight and further away from the entrance for anyone to see him. At this point, Alex doesn't care for any threats that would come as long as he got to talk to Henry.

"I wasn't." Henry whispered still letting his back faced Alex.

"You are. Don't lie to me." He replied still stood firm on the ground behind him. Henry sighed desperately with his head tilt gazing at the colorful sky above him.

"Do you ever wish that your life is different than this one?" Henry asks.

"What the fuck are you talking about?" He asks clueless.

"I never wish for this kind of life. I just wish I could be someone else for a change." Henry add but he could hear the exasperated sigh coming from Alex that still standing right behind him.

"I have no fucking idea what are you talking about Henry."

"Christ you're thick as it gets." Henry turned abruptly charging himself towards clueless Alex before he grabbed his head in his hand and crashed their lips together.

Alex was stunt to feel Henry's cold lips pressing over his own. He could feel Henry's trembling cold fingers brushing over his ears down to his neck when he felt his own lips returned the kiss equally.

Alex was surprised by the deepened kiss but somehow he felt right doing so and was about to favors more when Henry abruptly pulled away from him. Alex was shock to see the tears that formed in Henry's eyes when he finally realized what he just did. "Forgive me." Henry whispered with the guilty look flashes on his face.

Alex watched as Henry pulled away from him apologetically before he turned away leaving him standing all alone in the sidewalk. He watched as Henry walked faster to get away from him and witnessed how he disappeared in the dark streets right before his eyes.