I wanted to be with you...it was as simple as complicated as that...Fuck...Kim Taehyung, you are so freaking special...

Janyuary 3rd

04:33

''Taehyung!'' Jimin yelled from the living room.

''Jiminie, I am okay, don't worry'' Taehyung replied to the concerned brunet.

''How is your headache going? Seriously though, I think we should visit a doctor Taehyung...'' Jimin went to touch the boy's forehead but Taehyung pushed his hand away.

''No! I don't want to go to a doctor ever again. I am tired of going to hospitals and I am tired of feeling exhausted...'' Taehyung's voice was barely audible.

''Let's go and sleep for a little, it will help you'' Jimin tried to reassure the red-haired.

''I cannot sleep, don't you understand?'' Taehyung whispered-yelled and placed his hand on his hair.

''But you said you were feeling extremely tired and...''.

''You will never understand!'' Taehyung shouted and stood up.

''Make me understand then, I am trying to help you'' Jimin claimed and hugged the boy.

''Let me go Jiminie''.

''I don't think so'' he spoke and engulfed him even tighter.

''Jiminie...'' Taehyung whispered and tried to untangle their bodies. Jimin gently pushed Taehyung backwards and they fell onto the bed.

''Listen to me, cause I am going to say this only once. Kim Taehyung, I like you so damn much, and do you know why? It's because you are so special, so more perfect than the others...''.

''I am nowhere near perfect''.

''And why is that? Because you have insomnia? Bullshit...''.

''Nice way of comforting people Jiminie''.

''Wait, I can do it...I will try to be more romantic. You see, Kim Taehyung, you carry so much love in your heart but you don't give some to yourself''.

''What do you mean?'' the red-haired inquired.

''All you care for is your mother, the bills, how the world's perception is for you...Damn...you care about me, more than you care about yourself. This is our issue here, we depend on each other's welfare. You cannot rely on someone else to bring you happiness...''.

''I despised myself Jiminie...''.

''Fuck... my words have the exact opposite effect of what I wanted to achieve in the first place'' Jimin spoke with an evident frustration.

''I used past tense, you handsome idiot. The thing is that I love what I am becoming due to you. If you aren't next to me, I don't know how I would have ended up''.

''Why do you always have to be so gorgeous?'' Jimin mumbled and pressed his lips on Taehyung's.

It was from these moments that if people had a chance could relive again and again. It was from those times that characters experience in movies and books, you know, when the world stops and people stop moving and the only vivid form of life is you and your soulmate.

Taehyung couldn't believe how, out of all the people in the world, was the lucky one to have this pair of lips pressed on his right now. It was from these kisses that instead of making you breathless, were providing you with more oxygen. In other words, Jimin's kisses brought life to Taehyung.

''You make me look forward to tomorrow, cause I will wake up next to you. I don't care if you are going to be grumpy or cheerful, it will still be you'' Taehyung mumbled when their lips disconnected, much to Jimin's dismay.

''What if I don't wake up next to you once?'' Jimin asked.

''Don't say that! Why would you think of that?'' Taehyung questioned the boy, worriedly.

''Just hypothetically. Wait...I was supposed to talk to you about your insomnia and look what we are talking about...'' Jimin realised and cracked a smile.

''You want to stop talking? I can do that'' Taehyung smirked and cupped Jimin's face with his hands, bringing it closer to his, kissing his soft lips yet again.

Oxygen, life.

''This is a great way to start our new year'' Jimin commented.

''Yeah, and apparently it has treated my headache as well''.

04:58

''Jiminie...''.

''Umm...''.

''What is your biggest fear?'' Taehyung asked.

''Blood''.

''I mean emotionally, you dumbass''.

''Oh...perhaps memories, I guess''.

''Not following you'' Taehyung replied.

''Well, in your entire life you are creating a lot of memories, right? And sometimes you create these memories with one person that you love too much...''.

''Still not following''.

''What's the way to keep your mouth shut?''.

''You can easily kiss me''.

''But then I won't be able to talk either'' Jimin remarked.

''I have another way, but I should probably not mention it...''.

''Tae! You have a way to make every moment dirty...What was I saying?'' Jimin sighed.

''About memories...''.

''Right. So what if the person you have created so many, beautiful memories becomes eventually a memory?'' Jimin asked.

''So you are basically scared of the death of a loved one?''.

''Yeah, you can say it that way. I have experienced this fear when my parents died. I don't want to relive it ever again''.

''I know I couldn't handle your death. Since you asked me that question earlier I cannot get it out of my head...''.

''Why does somebody have to die?''.

''We were just talking about it and I continued it''.

''What's your fear ?''.

''Snakes''.

''Emotionally Taehyung. Focus'' Jimin smiled.

''Pistanthrophobia''.

''You just made this up'' Jimin teased him.

''It exists...It's the fear of trusting other people or making new relationships''.

''That's why you don't open up to me?''.

''I have told you everything ...I think''.

''You revealed that your boss exploited you sexually a week ago'' Jimin scolded him.

''I...''.

''Speaking of that, I really want to kill this person. Like I mentally and physically despise him''.

''We didn't finish the procedure. He just had some fun and left''.

''You say it like it's something simple Tae''.

''I had become immune Jiminie. I don't know how I would react if...''.

''Don't you think of that right now. Everything will happen when fate has scheduled it'' Jimin replied.

''I am feeling so much better right now. It must have been something transient''.

''Can you describe it to me? Did it feel like a mere headache'' Jimin questioned.

'' It was like a throbbing pain around my skalp. I could feel pressure on my forehead, kinda like a more intense migraine''.

''Promise me, we will visit a doctor''.

''Fine, I promise''.

''See? It wasn't that difficult, you handsome idiot''.

''Jiminie...I think that we should try to sleep. I believe that estazolams will help tonight''.

''Without cuddles? I doubt it'' Jimin mumbled and wrapped his legs around Taehyung's waist and placed his head on the red-haired's shoulder.

''How do you manage to be the big spoon and the small spoon simultaneously?'' Taehyung wondered.

''It's a way of making the person you hug safe, while you feel safe yourself''.

And yes, the pills worked that night. The hugs helped as well...