Isn't it crazy that someone who used to be such a big part of your life, can be gone in one second? You just vanished Taehyung. I really hope we will meet each other again, because everywhere I look, I am reminded of your face...damn your gorgeous face...

16th of December

07:45

''Jiminie''.

''What is it Tae ?''.

''Can we talk ?''.

''No!'' Jimin answered and placed his hands on his ears.

''We didn't talk at all yesterday. You returned to our  appartment around three. And you instantly fell asleep'' Taehyung complained.

''I was exhausted. I had so many clients yesterday''.

''I was tired too. I just wanted to tell you something'' Taehyung spoke and started swirling with his fingers.

''What was so important that you couldn't wait for a little while longer?''.

''I haven't slept at all actually''.

''Didn't the pill help? Don't worry. We will tell Seokjin to change them and...''.

''Seokjin said that the pill could  help me sleep. Not certainly but possibly. But as I have told you before being next to you made me feel comfortable. That's why I have been sleeping easily next to you'' Taehyung confessed.

''So what's the difference now?''.

''I am sort of ...uncomfortable''.

Jimin's heart instantly shattered. He wasn't expecting Taehyung to say something like that. He thought that the boy grew to like him in a friendly way and if he could guess, more than friendly. Yet, Jimin would never admit the fact that he was practically drooling all over Taehyung, when he saw him walking out of the bathroom. And under no circumstances would Taehyung confess to the brunet what he did yesterday.

''What do you mean uncomfortable? Did I do something?''.

''Well...''.

''Oh my God! Did I kick you out of the bed? I am sorry. It's just that sometimes, very rarely, I have these nightmares and...'' he looked at Taehyung's eyes which gaze made him realize that this wasn't the reason.

''Ooops...So what did I do?''.

''Don't you think for a minute that I will leave the nightmares' conversation unspoken''.

''It's really nothing though''.

''Back to the topic...how am I suppose to say this?...Do you think that we are too clingy with each other?'' Taehyung claimed after lots of thinking.

''I-I thought that you loved being clingy with people''.

''I love it, yes, but...I have been working as whore...''.

''Don't call yourself that! I thought that we have already established the fact that this wasn't the real you. It was your last resort''.

''But it was me. It was my mouth that said yes, my body that got exploited, my mother that needed the money. My point is that after all this sex games and exploitation my body is kinda immune to ...love. None of my clients made me feel loved or asked me what I liked. I know that my job was to please them but...All I am trying to say that it's been too long that somebody's physical appearance attracted me. People's touches always seemed  like I was doing my job. I haven't had sex outside of ''Lotus'' since I started working there...''.

''Your conclusion Tae?'' Jimin asked his eyes still puffy.

''Yesterday while we were sleeping you ,unintentionally, touched my...''.

''That escalated quickly. Why do I not remember that ?''.

''You were sleeping you dumbass! We always intertwine our legs or sleep on each other's chest but I don't know how your hand ended up there. I am not lying! I swear!''.

''You are lying !'' the brunet said, his cheeks had now turned into an evident shade of red.

''Why would I lie?'' Taehyung wondered.

''I am so sorry! I didn't mean it. I didn't know... That's so embarrassing! And I was the one talking about personal space...''.

''I mean it's alright now''.

''Wait! What do you mean it's alright now? Wasn't it before?''.

The red-haired immediately looked down, realizing that he somehow exposed himself.

''It was just weird, you know having your hand there''.

''Well it's not like I am touching people's dicks all the time'' Jimin whined.

''I didn't say that!'' Taehyung almost yelled with his deep voice.

''Oh my God! That's why you have been in the bathroom! What were you doing in the bathroom?'' Jimin asked with his eyes wide open.

''No, no...I didn't do what you think'' Taehyung spoke and hid his face with his hands.

''I cannot believe this. Do you perhaps like me or something?'' Jimin questioned.

''You were the one with his hand on my dick mister. Perhaps you are the one who likes me''.

''I have never had a relationship with a man. Sexual at least. And I didn't touch you deliberately'' Jimin remarked.

''But you like men!''.

''You like men too!''.

''Did you masturbate with the thought of me in your head?'' Jimin asked and jumped from the bed.

''Don't you say that!'' Taehyung yelled and ran to Jimin's side.

Jimin tried to escape Taehyung's strong grip, but his efforts were meaningless. Taehyung hugged his waist and they both fell back on the bed.

''Okay, personal space is really out of the question'' Taehyung said with a huge smile.

''Taehyung, I think we have to set some boundaries'' Jimin spoke and gently pushed the red-haired away from him.

''Boundaries ?''.

''Yes, like rules. I mean clearly you have been manipulated by all these men and women that you probably don't even understand what love is right now. That's why you are attracted to me''.

''Yes, but Jiminie...''.

''And look at me on the other hand. I haven't had sex in a while. Hell, I have never been with a man. I am not saying that you aren't handsome or something. I am just saying that we both need to figure out what we want in life, don't you think?'' Jimin continued.

''I hate that you always play the mature one'' Taehyung complained.

''I am just trying to find a way to ...''.

''There's no need for boundaries Jimin. I respect what you are saying honestly but don't talk to me about personal space when we have cuddled like a thousand times, I have kissed your cheek, we have been sleeping together for a month and yesterday you cupped my...''.

''You are taking it too far Tae'' Jimin hissed.

''Why are we always fighting? We have tons of problems already! Can we just appreciate the time we spend together?'' Taehyung replied.

''If we both want to spend time with each other Tae, we have to solve our problems''.

12:12

''Taehyung! Tae!'' Jimin yelled from the kitchen to the boy.

''What is it?''.

''Open the shutters!'' Jimin spoke to his friend and giggled.

''Alright?'' Taehyung said with a weird look in his eyes.

The moment he opened the shutters, he saw the beautiful, assymetric snowflakes falling on their appartment windows. Each snowflake had its own scheme, its peculiar design. Taehyung was just in awe by the extraordinary spectacle, ignoring Jimin's soft gaze towards his figure.

''By the way Taehyung...'' Jimin said and interrupted the red-haired's thoughts.

''Yes?''.

''Do you own a tuxedo by any chance?''.

20th of December

''I just love dreamcatchers''.

''That's the weirdest shit I have ever heard Taehyung''.

''You said random facts. That's what I called a random fact''.

''What else?'' Jimin asked.

''I love silver rings. The ones with markings''.

''I like necklaces too''.

''See, we have a lot in common'' the red-haired commented.

He grew to love Jimin's peculiarities day by day.