When I said I loved you, I didn't say  that out of habit. I meant everything I said. I wanted to reassure you that everything would be alright. I wanted to remind you that you were the best thing that ever happened to me. And that even if you forgot about me, I was still breathing for you...

[warning, mature content]

13:34

Trying to forget the stressful week that had just passed Jimin decided to smoke a cigarette. For one last time. Well...Second last time. He brought it close to his lips, the little angel on his shoulder pulling it from his grip. Yet Jimin knew that inside his appartment he had someone who could help him eliminate his stress more effectively than a cancer stick. A cancer stick that had condemned Taehyung's mother to the hospital. He threw the cigarette away, his hands trembling from the doubt. He had managed to quit it once. 

He could do it twice.

00:08

''Jimin, I have to admit that I am extremely impressed''.

''It was just dancing. This doesn't mean that my flexibility is still the same'' the brunet admitted. The heavy rain that was pouring outside had caused a power cut in the entire area. Taehyung helped Jimin to light up the candles they had in the house and since they had nothing to do they decided to play a game of random facts.

''Okay, favourite song'' Jimin asked when it was his turn.

''Easy....'' he began to think. The tune was stuck in his head, yet Taehyung was unable to remember the title. Despite searching between the deepest cabinets of his mind, he couldn't remember.

''Relax, take your time. Mine is Californication''.

''I will remember it I assure you'' Taehyung said, clearly frustrated.

''Hey, no worries. We' ve got all the time in the world. Basically our entire life'' Jimin mumbled and stood up from the sofa.

''If this was an implication that we will always be together, I am in'' Taehyung chuckled and saw that Jimin was pouring his favourite white wine inside two highball glasses.

''I brought some strawberries from the patisserie yesterday, bring them too'' Taehyung told the older. 

He began to observe  the candles. It was the first time he saw a house with so many candles. Every single on of them had a different scent, yet somehow all the aroma complimented with each other. Cinammon, vanilla, strawberry and lavender. Jimin seemed like a perfectionist to his eyes, having placed the candles in order. He loved being the aesthetically pleasing type of guy. The red, green and orange colours were creating a huge contrast with the dark, black veil of the sky.

''Why did you bring strawberries? No that I am complaining'' Jimin finally spoke and sat next to his boyfriend.

''I baked my first tart today and the chef gave me these to practice food decoration at home. Of course I won't do that'' Taehyung murmured with a huge grin and grabbed a strawberry from the plate.

''Tae...'' Jimin whined, his smile quickly being replaced with a smirk when he observed his lover's mouth around the tempting, red fruit. 

His luscious, scarlett lips were gently sucking the hull of the strawberry until it got cut. Taehyung bit the fruit, cutting it in two pieces and brought the carpus in his sinful mouth, swallowing it whole. The red syrop began to paint his lips and he licked it gently, biting his bottom lip from the pleasure. 

''It's not like cake decorating is my thing anyway''.

Jimin tried to come back to reality, when a small idea appeared in his mind.

''Next question'' Jimin said with a slight smile. ''What's the best sex you've ever had?''.

''What?'' the red-haired inquired, dumbfounded.

''Don't pretend you haven't heard me'' Jimin answered and drank his wine in one gulp.

''I-I cannot answer'' Taehyung finally replied.

''That's not it'' Jimin complained.

''It's just that my first time with a girl was really awkward, for the both of us. Afterwards it was meaningless sex here and there. And then I started working. I don't want to remember things, but all I know is that nobody ever cared about my pleasure. Despite my needs and my desires, I was never given a blowjob or even do the preliminary. With the boys I was always getting fucked and with the girls I had just to act all soft or violent. So, I have tested all positions I guess. Nonetheless, I cannot remember enjoying sex or someone actually caring for me''.

Jimin wasn't expecting this answer from the boy. Taehyung was an incitement himself. The way he was sucking the stem, only brought vivid imagery to Jimin's head. He was a man who hadn't received pleasure for so long and the having one of the most gorgeous human beings next to him wasn't making his job any easier.

But after hearing Taehyung's complains, he changed his mind. For the first time in his life, he decided to give first and take later, thing which was really improbable with Kim Taehyung. Not that he was blaming the boy or anything.

''Nobody ever asked you?''.

''No, no that I recollect''.

''That sucks'' Jimin spoke exasperately.

''I am not even going to make a dirty joke here'' Taehyung remarked and brought the blanket around him.

''Well, in this case Taehyung I think that somebody has to teach you how it's done'' Jimin smirked and looked at Taehyung who was completely unaware of what was happening.

''What are you doing ?'' Taehyung asked surprised when he saw the brunet moving his body on top of him.

''Listen to me Tae. For the first time , I am asking you to forget. Forget everything and concentrate on us. If you feel uncomfortable with what I am about to do, please interrupt me. I promise all I want is to make you happy and I don't need anything in return, really. Just please, don't expect anything extraordinary cause I haven't done this...I am used to being the receiver so you might...''.

''Love, what the hell are you talking about?'' Taehyung inquired and cupped the older's face with his hands.

''Let me show you'' was the last line that came from Jimin's mouth, until their lips collided.

Taehyung allowed Jimin to dominate the kiss, not really aware of his boyfriend's upcoming plans. He felt the blanket that was covering his body being lifted and his eyes opened widely when he felt Jimin's hand softly caressing his chest. Jimin's fingers began to create shapes on his chest, while the brunet's tongue started marking the younger's defined collarbones.

Despite the little inconvenience he felt, a little moan escaped Taehyung's lips, a sign that brought a small smile to Jimin's face, who continued giving pleasure to the boy.

His hand slowly moved down on the red haired's pants and with a swift movement he unbuttoned Taehyung's trousers. He lifted his gaze to see the boy's reaction, with fear that he might feel violated or exploited like all the other times. Yet Taehyung was smiling. It was the first time that someone was so gentle with him, the first time someone thought of his needs first.

Jimin gently touched Taehyung's evident bulge, his eyes still stuck on Taehyung's expression. The boy was biting his bottom lip, trying to muffle his moans.

Jimin was a first timer. He was always the receiver and never the giver. He knew what he liked and how he liked it, but performing oral sex to a man, and mostly  a person that he was in love with, was a whole different situation.

With his teeth he grabbed Taehyung's waistband and brought it down at a slow pace.

Taehyung's attempts to silence the little voices in his head  were nothing but fruitful, but he wasn't going to let Jimin think for a moment that he was doing something disturbing. 

''Taehyung, I can sense your uncomfortability. If you want me to stop just say so''.

''No. I want you to please me...It's just that I have never been this cherished all my life and I feel a little weird'' he admitted.

''I am not them. I am not him. I am Jimin, your Jimin. I am doing this to show you that you are worthy of all the love in the world. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I mean it Tae...''.

''Jiminie...''.

''Also, I can see that you are already hard for me so shall I continue?''.

''Yes, yes please'' Taehyung didn't have time to react when he sensed a pair of plump lips around his member.

He grabbed Jimin's hair with his hands, feeling the vibration of Jimin's mouth on his dick. Jimin's tongue was doing its magic, his gaze still on Taehyung's sculptured face. The man was flying on seventh heaven as his lover tried to deepthroat him. Taehyung squeezed his eyes tightly and gently thrusted inside Jimin's mouth creating more friction. Jimin was smiling  through the procedure, knowing that he was making Taehyung feel the pleasure he'd never had.

''Jimin-ah...you can stop now...I-I am going to...'' Taehyung tried to say and softly attempted to push Jimin away from him. He didn't know if Jimin wanted him to finish in his mouth.

Jimin forcefully grabbed the man's hips and brought him closer to him, showing to his boyfriend that he didn't mind.

Taehyung couldn't control the overstimulation and came inside Jimin's mouth. The brunet swallowed the liquid and brought a neat towel to clean Taehyung.
The older sat down on the floor, a constant smile on his face knowing that he pleased the boy. Jimin licked his lips, now that he knew how to satisfy Taehyung.

 The red haired lifted Jimin's chin and softly pecked his lips. Their foreheads rested on each other's and Taehyung broke the silence that was beginning to form.

''Thank you Jiminie. I will never forget that''.

''There's nothing to thank me for. I told you...One problem at a time''.