third person pov

' uh oh '

Not long after Rose pressed her lips to Mattheo's, she made her way back to her dorm with guilt deep inside—it felt as if she had cheated on someone. The walk down the steps was not supposed to be as long as she made it from a slow pace.

How long had they all been looking for her?

She didn't know.

Inside their shared dorm Whitman stood with Blaise, having just arrived back to see if she came to the room yet. The latter stood by the door with arms crossed, speaking clearly. "She left here almost a hour ago? Maybe we need to go tell Snape or just Mcgongall? Mcgongall helped us last year"

Whitman shook his head, "No no—we can't make her feel like she's in trouble"

The sound of the doorknob clicking made them both turn, letting out breath's of pure relief when Rose walked through. She quickly shut the door before looking over at them but not at the same time, her eyes anywhere but their own.

Without a second to waste Rose crossed the room before either of them could grab her, picking up her pace until she reached the bathroom and slammed the door shut.

Whitman ran a hand through his hair while speaking quietly to Blaise, "Can you go find Theo and Draco? Tell them she's back? Maybe ask the elves for some food?"

Blaise nodded and swiped his jacket off his bed, he headed for the door but paused. "Just make sure she knows I'm not mad—I don't want her to think I'm mad for running away"

"Yeah" Whitman promised before Blaise slipped out of the room. After, he headed towards the bathroom and took a deep breath before attempting to open it with no avail.

"Ro" He called, "Can I come in?"

On the other side of the door Rose rested her back against the wood with guilt nipping at her brain, not only was the heavy weight of usual remorse from her blow up present but the fact she had kissed Mattheo. As soon as the moment passed it all felt wrong and discomforting. Rose didn't understand why, it was just kissing and she did indeed enjoy the matter while it was happening.

Draco had been her first kiss when they were kids but being so young it was of course not a true one. So Rose would consider Whitman to be owner of that title because she still didn't know if anyone would ever be able to measure up to him and the way it made a million sparks go off inside. Even after kissing Whitman and the high wore off, it still felt right and safe and like something sacred.

Now though, she just felt nothing short of awful.

Whitman dropped his forehead against the door, "We don't have to talk—I just want to come in and see you" Still, the door didn't open and the only thing he could hear was her ragged breathing on the other side. "Please Ro it's me—you don't have to shut me out"

Rose wiped her face out roughly before peeling her back off the wood, reaching an unsteady hand out to the lock. She hesitated, "Whit?"

He swallowed thickly, sounding quiet. "I'm here"

And then Whitman heard the faint sound of the lock being turned, making him lift his forehead up. Rose pushed her hesitation down and pulled the door open, letting Whitman see that familiar pained face staring back at his own version.

"I'm sorry" Rose mumbled, "I don't want to—"

She was cut off by him pulling her in close and Rose slowly reached up, wounding her arms around his neck with strain from their height difference.

"You are not to blame," Whitman began while weaving his fingers through her hair, "Tell me what you need—words or distractions or just silent company. Whatever you need I'm here for"

This came easy for them, Whitman knew what it was like to blow up with regret in a way and he also knew how to handle her like this.

"Company—maybe some distraction. I don't want to talk about what happened" Rose mumbled. Whitman nodded against her before sliding his hands down and hitching her legs up to wrap around his waist before he carried Rose to her bed.

He kicked off his shoes and laid back against the headboard, holding her tightly. "Let me take off your shoes"

"No—I don't want to move" Rose stated while hugging him tightly, earning a light laugh out of him and a nod as his hands rested on her spine. "I really am sorry for being distant to you the past few days"

"It's about Orion, isn't it?"

"Yeah. It is"

Whitman sighed heavily and toyed with the tips of her hair, "I know you loved him but I truthfully can't remember any good time with that man. I hated him for how he treated you" He paused, "I'm sorry love but I just can't miss someone who harmed you. I can't do it"

He bit his tongue to keep down the urge to say he wished he would've killed Orion a long time ago, and with the given opportunity he would have taken out her grandfather with no remorse. Rose would miss Orion or maybe she'd find out and hate Whitman for what he had done but she'd be one step closer to safety—that was the only thing that mattered to him.

"I—I understand" Rose buried her head completely into his neck, wondering how he was capable of radiating so much heat. "It killed me to be closed off to you but I think I just didn't want to be alone in my suffering over him"

"As long as I'm still breathing you'll never be alone in anything," He assured, thankful to hear her breathing slow down. "I see you, okay?"

"I know" She pressed her lips to his neck, making him close his eyes with a different type of pain—a heartfelt one. "Tell me about your day?"

"Yeah Ro"

He began to recall his day, giving even the most minuscule details he knew she loved and positively sure she was the only person who cared to hear about such things. Every so often Rose would mumble a witty response that would make him stop and smile or laugh.

It wasn't too long before she drifted into a slumber and fell silent. When she did Whitman carefully moved her off his waist before slipping off her shoes and tucking her under the comforter. Just as he finished the door closed with Draco and Theo tumbling in loud enough to make her stir awake.

As the two rushed to the bed Theo didn't hesitate to slip past the curtains but Draco did. Whitman glared at Theo as he stepped into view and Rose turned on her side to the Nott boy with sleepy eyes.

"Hey love" Theo started with a soft voice, just like Whitman he knew what she needed. Rose held a hand out to him, one he gladly took with a relieved smile before climbing in next to her.

And then Draco finally pushed by the curtains with Nyx, it was such a confusing situation—he didn't know if she wanted him there or not.

Nyx started rapidly moving in his hands upon seeing Rose buried under the comforter, anxious to be back. Draco sat Nyx down and felt his lips turn up as the snake slithered at an insanely fast pace to Rose and curled up by her cheek.

The Black shot Draco a grateful look with a sad twist to her gut, she wished to tell him how much she yearned to have him stay there. It wouldn't matter how close to her Whitman and Theo were in that moment, a part would always be missing without him.

The dorm door swung open, Blaise waltzing in with a yell and a tray of food. "I brought muffins! Can you believe they only had muffins?!"

Theo laughed under his breath, a full smile coming onto his face because he spotted the twitch to her lips as he pushed her hair back.

That night when everyone went to sleep, Theo stayed up and told her every detail of how she made his life better and whole again each time it felt broken. There never a ounce of anger of spite in his voice, nothing but pure love.

*

The next morning Rose slipped out of the death grip Theo and Whitman both had her in, she was sure to cast a silencing charm as she slipped past the curtains—not wanting anyone to wake up from her hectic morning routine.

As she bent down to grab clothes from her trunk, the faint sound of water running in the bathroom filled her ears. She got to her feet after grabbing some mary Janes and pushed the bathroom door open, "Blaise!"

From behind the curtain Blaise yelped before responding as the door slammed, "Come to join me at the crack of dawn?"

Rose smiled to herself as she dropped the uniform onto the counter and started to throw Whitman's sweater over her head, "I could if you want me to"

Blaise peaked his head from the curtains with a grin, "Really now?"

"In your wildest dreams" Rose said with a pointed look.

He shut the curtain back with laughter, "Oh you have no idea"

She joined his laughter while slipping her pants off and grabbing some sheer tights before pulling them up, "On another note—I'm going to buy some pot from Fred if you want to come?"

"I would have to curse you if you didn't invite me" Blaise lathered his hair up with a satisfied hum, "He's been giving me the eyes, know what I mean?"

Rose continued putting on her uniform and looking at it oddly in the mirror while responding, "What of Luna? Did you tell her yesterday about your—"

Blaise cut her off and turned the water off at the same time, "Luna supports my sexual fluidity—I clearly have great taste"

"I told you she would" Rose yawned out before adjusting her tie in the mirror.

His hand popped out the side of the curtain, "Towel me"

She walked over to the tall metal rack filled with towels, swatting his hand away as it started frantically moving around in a rush. After she grabbed one, Rose shoved it into his palm with force. "Fucks sake Blaise—I hate being rushed"

He began to ramble about everything he had wished to tell here yesterday but couldn't, and Rose listened patiently as she brushed her teeth—she always listened everything Blaise had to say.

When he got out with the towel draped around his waist he paused his conversation, giving her a smile from where she leaned against the counter. "This'll have to continue on our walk—I can't let your innocent little eyes see the grandness that is Blaise Zabini"

"Oh how ever will I live?" Rose teased as she pushed off the counter, getting stopped by him grabbing her chin to swipe his thumb on the side of her lips.

"Toothpaste" Blaise announced as he showed her before sucking it off.

Rose shoved by him with eye roll and a smile, "You're disgusting"

"But you love it!" He called after her, holding his towel up.

*

After swiping up Nyx and letting the snake climb up Rose's robe sleeve, the latter and Blaise made their way to Gryffindor tower.

They now stood in front the portrait, Sir Cadogan who had been silenced by Rose's death threats, waiting patiently for Fred.

Five minutes passed before the portrait swung open and Fred Weasley stepped out in half of his uniform, missing his robe and red tie.

"Oof," Fred began as he dusted the front of his shirt off and faced them, a smile working onto his features at the two leaned against the railing together. "My two favorite snakes? What a pleasant surprise"

Rose raised her eyebrows, glancing over at Blaise who smirked toward the red head. "I have to share that place now?"

Fred reached into his back pocket, his lips twitching at Blaise's wandering eyes. "I have a weak spot for Zabini—it's a known fact"

"Is it?" Blaise questioned, "I wonder how your girlfriend feels about that"

The Weasley rolled his tongue over his teeth with a nod as he held out the small bag of pot to Rose before putting his arm Blaise's left shoulder, leaning his hip into the railing.

Fred spoke as Rose pocketed the bag and pulled out her pouch to fish around for galleons, "And what about yours?"

"I don't do titles Fred," Blaise said as he looked over the boys face, "But you're welcome to let me know when you end that little fling of yours"

"Ah I'd end that little fling for you right now" Fred taunted with eyes subconsciously darting to Blaise's lips for a moment, "If only I were into men"

Rose blinked as she looked between the two with unbreakable tension, the galleons in her hand heavy. "Freddie that was like—the gayest sentence I've ever heard"

Fred rolled his eyes, "Was not"

"That's literally like saying 'I'd date you if you were a girl' " Rose stated, looking at him as if he was stupid. "Accept your fate darling"

Fred's face fell, seeming in deep thought with confusion as Blaise patted his cheek with a satisfied smirk.

"I'm completely fine with being your sexual awakening"

"But—" Fred started but stopped as Blaise pulled away from him, Rose holding out the galleons.

Fred slowly reached out and took the money, his eyes staying on Blaise the whole time.

"Pleasure doing business with you Freddie but we must be off" Rose said while looping her arm into Blaise's and turning them around without a second thought, descending down the steps to leave Fred Weasley frozen.

"What do you think?" Rose asked Blaise as they paused at the end of the staircase because it begun to move, "Gay?"

Blaise nodded, "Gay"

"Definitely" Rose affirmed before they shared a smile with a laugh.

As they moved down the steps the two almost made it to the last staircase without interruption until getting stopped by Cedric Diggory stepping by them before he paused with a smile. "Ello' Rose—Zabini"

"Cedric!" Rose grinned, "My first Cupid project!"

When Rose had manipulated Cho into staying away from Whitman, she balanced the scales by talking up Cedric into actually asking the girl out. Now, Cho Chang and Cedric Diggory were officially an infamous Hogwarts couple much to her meddling. In her defense, she did a great thing for Cho—Rose gave the girl who she truly wanted.

Cedric laughed to himself before holding his arm out dramatically, "Escort to the great hall?"

Rose quirked a brow at his dramatics, it suited the boy well. Before she could speak Blaise rolled his eyes with a scowl, "She has one—thank you very much"

"Walk with us though?"

Cedric was unbothered by Blaise's attitude, nodding and beginning to walk down with them. "So what has Cupid been up lately? Any match making in her own life?"

"Please" Rose laughed, swatting her free arm as Nyx tried to move out from under the sleeve. "I'd rather listen to nine inch nails on repeat then deal with love"

"What's that?" Cedric asked before getting waved off, Blaise muttering an 'idiot' under his breath as the three stepped onto the first floor corridor.

"Anyways—are you sure you're up to walking to the Slytherin table?" Rose wondered aloud, a playful taunt to her voice.

He replied seamlessly as they entered the great hall which was already full and buzzing, "Hmm....I don't know Rose—sounds a tad scary"

Rose grinned up at him as they slowly walked to the Slytherin table, "They are vicious little creatures, must be careful to not get to close"

Blaise held her arm tighter, he always had an awful gut feeling about Cedric after Nyx attempted to bite the Hufflepuff during first year when he offered Rose a helping hand.

Cedric spoke in a fake serious tone, "Is that so? Are we sure it's safe territory for me then?"

She let another laugh escape her lips at his sarcasm, "Don't worry puff, I won't let them bite"

He smiled that famous smile, "Ah! Rose Black, my protector!"

Blaise scoffed and Rose simply shook her head while spotting their friend group staring at them with disgust, all seeming to match Blaise's displeasure.

"Seems my snakes have spotted us"

Cedric looked in the direction of my her line, "They seemed shocked, don't they?"

She smirked up at him, "Not everyday a girl gets escorted to the Slytherins table with the legendary pretty boy of Hogwarts, is it?"

"I'm pretty sure your friend Whitman holds that title with the ladies these days" Cedric taunted with a matching smirk as they arrived to her group, "This is where I leave you"

Cedric bowed, forcing laughter out of Rose as she curtsied back at him the best she could from Blaise holding her arm tightly.

"Thank you for the escort, it was a pleasing affair"

He put his hand out onto her shoulder, earning scowls from the boys looking at him. "Do let me know when you need one again"

Rose waved him off with an eye roll before turning to finally face her friends, she unhooked herself from Blaise while ignoring their questioning looks. She shoved herself down with a groan in between Whitman and Theo as Blaise dropped on the other side of Theo.

Her head turned to find Mattheo sitting alone and appearing peaceful, "Done trying to recruit Riddle to our little club?"

"Let me tell you something—I do not fuck with that boy" Theo wrapped his arm around her waist with a scoff, "Fuck him"

"Agreed," Draco began, "I refuse to consider him family"

Whitman let out a sound of agreement, "If Blaise wants to be his friend he can do it elsewhere"

"Oi!" Blaise butted in while grabbing a muffin.

Theo began to pour her coffee with his free hand as he spoke, "Even if I didn't think he was fucking pussy—I accidentally touched him the other day and had that vision I told you about Ro"

"Just because you're a seer doesn't mean every vision is right" Rose bargained, "Your mother told us that when they first started"

Draco shrugged slightly, "I don't know Black, Theo's weird visions have always been right"

Whitman grasped onto Rose and Theo, shaking them slightly. "You posess the sight Theodore Nott!"

Rose giggled at him mocking Professor Trelawney, "Anyways—can we all act normal today? Bully each other as usual despite last night?"

"As you wish," Whitman stated, "Care to explain how you went from smiling at Diggory to groaning?"

"This has been my mood today thank you very much! Cedric just so happened to make me laugh enough I forgot about my decision to be a grumpy bitch" Rose paused after, letting Nyx crawl out of her sleeve. She smiled down at the snake as she leaned up and grabbed a carrot before wiggling it by Nyx's face—who glad ate it whole.

Draco scoffed, "Slumming it with Diggory now are you?"

Whitman gasped, putting his hand over his heart, "She is not slumming it with anyone!"

Blaise chuckled, "If I was a woman I'd slum it with him"

Rose pointed her thumb at Blaise, "He has a point, but as you all know he's too much like his house for me—I like my boys with more angst"

Aka, you arsehole.

Blaise scoffed while smiling, "More like you like your boys to be messed up in the head"

Whitman began cutting a hole in a croissant, grabbing the cinnamon butter to put in the middle while Rose spoke. "Then what do you consider these three?"

Blaise nodded at the three boys around them with a laugh, "These guys? They're all the perfect type for you" He paused and lifted his chin, "I'm the only one in this group with mental stability"

"Questionable" Theo butted in, pinching Rose's side out of boredom.

Draco watched them with a blank stare before speaking with a icy tone, "Care to explain why you were with Diggory?"

"Me and Blaise went to buy pot from Fred as you all know from our note and we ran into Cedric on the way down...Wait! Why am I even explaining myself? I owe none of you answers" She paused to look between Theo, "Neither of you as well"

Theo, Whitman, and Draco all scoff at her in sync—making Blaise's smile reappear. "Merlin have mercy on me" Rose muttered before becoming chipper, "On another note...tomorrow is Halloween!"

"I'm so fucking glad we aren't doing costumes this year" Blaise said cheerfully before getting a glare from Theo, everyone knew the adoration Rose held for forcing them all into costumes.

Rose groaned as Theo assumed she would, passing Nyx to Whitman before going to pull her hair up into a bun. "It is completely ridiculous that we aren't doing costumes! That is a big part of the—"

She was cut off by a obnoxiously loud gasp emitting from Whitman who yelled out his words, "There are hickeys all over your neck!"

Draco and Blaise both choke on their water as Rose threw a hand over Whitman's mouth. "Say it a little louder, I don't think the Ravenclaws heard you!"

Theo felt every muscle in his body tense as he grabbed her head and turned it to himself, feeling every morsel of happiness drain at the sight. "Did someone do this to you last night? In the state of mind you were in?"

She swatted him away with a nipping feeling in her gut, "It's fine! It's no one's fault but mine so you can't just go beat whoever did it up—I know you're already planning it in your head!"

Blaise grinned as he leaned toward Theo who was deep in thought—trying to figure out who so he could do the complete opposite of what she told him not to do, "Did little Rose finally get her first kiss out of the way? I'm like a proud hot dad"

Whitman was frowning, genuinely frowning like she had just murdered his favorite person. "You really...kissed someone?"

Rose didn't understand why he was looking at her like that or why she wanted to apologize profusely, "Whit it wasn't like that and I just—it was just a kiss"

So was it just a kiss with us too? Whitman wanted to ask but didn't, he kept his mouth shut.

"Then tell us what how you got those, because I'd love to know" Draco said, his usual mirth absent and completely replaced by a colder tone than before.

Blaise chuckled, feeling like stirring things up as much as possible. He knew how each of his best friends felt and often it made him feel like Merlin, after all he held the knowledge of what their hearts wanted. "Considering we are all only friends we each other—I say you spill"

"It was stupid, okay?!" Rose attested.

Draco slammed his hand down on the table, making Rose look at him with wide-eyes. "Well? Tell us"

"You are all most definitely on your periods! Moody little bastards, the lot of you!"

Theo tightened his arm around her, "You don't have to tell us anything if you don't want to but it's not right that someone did that with how you were last night"

Blaise glared at him, "Not fair! You know she will tell you later if she doesn't tell us!"

"I just—" Rose didn't know what to do, her mind was scrambled. "All I did was kiss someone last night, is that so hard for you to believe Draco?"

"With a swollen lip and hickeys going down your neck? Yes it utterly is" Draco spat.

"Why do you care so much?!"

Draco stood up, knocking his water goblet over. "I don't give a shit what you do Rosie, go on and be a whore! See if I lose a lick of sleep at night!"

Rose was utterly shocked by his outburst, for someone claiming to not care he seemed to be very angry. Theo stood up too, gaining attention from the people around. "Talk to her like that again"

Draco scoffed, grabbing his bag and quickly exiting as Rose looked over at Blaise who was only smiling widely at everything around him.

Theo sat down and pushed away the need to throw up with motion sickness at all the emotions in him, "Ro don't listen to him—it's not your fault"

She shook her head and stood, "No! I'm going to go put his arse in it's place!"

"Yes!" Blaise cheered, raising his goblet up. "Go do it!"

She yanked her bag up off the ground and exited the great hall without another word, oddly enough repeating Draco's actions.

Quickly, Rose realized her neck was still on full display and yanked the wand out of her hair—finding herself wondering into the old classroom their group five made a hangout spot in the beginning of second year by transfiguring the desks into couches and pillows.

When she walked in, Rose found Draco sitting on the couch with his hands in his platinum hair. Instantly she turned around upon realizing her anger would only worsen everything, but as she became ready to open the door and exit Draco called her name.

"Rosie"

She simply stood with her back turned to him, unresponsive and hoping he would get the clue to continue his words before she left.

"I—I didn't mean any of that"

He truly didn't, Draco had a way of using his words to hurt with the most capacity when he himself was pained.

Rose turned around quickly and dropped her bag to the floor, "What? Now we're alone you want to be nice to me? News flash—screw you"

She watched his solemn expression switch back to an icy glare as he stood and stormed across the room until their faces were inches apart. "No, Fuck you Rosie. You treat me like shit anytime anyone is around but the minute we're alone you have no damn problem being even touched by me!"

Rose scoffed at him, "Me? How do you not recognize your own actions?! Did you hear how you just treated me in front of our friends?"

"Because all you care about is yourself! You're selfish! You must realize that!"

She began to poke his chest harshly with each word, "Un-fucking-believable! I've done nothing but be there for you even when you've been an insufferable twat from the moment we stepped foot into this school!"

Draco's nostrils flared and their heavy breathing made their chest touch as he grabbed Rose's wrist harshly to make her stop poking him, "You are so fucking ignorant!"

Rose attempted to yank her wrist free but his grip only tightened in response. With a new plan she went to push him away, getting herself pushed against wooden door instead. She scowled as she placed her free hand on his shoulder and leaned up so close to his face that their noses almost touched, "And you, Draco Malfoy, are nothing but cruel, egotistical and so high up on your mighty horse you can't even see that you're to blame for the end of this friendship"

Draco placed his free hand on the wood by her head, becoming that much more intimidating at his towering height. "Call me one more fucking thing Rosie, I dare you"

She's was so blinded from anger that she didn't take into account their position as she leaned her face up even further to the point that their lips almost brush—staring into his piercing blue eyes as she spoke with disgust. "Piece of shit"

Draco sneered at her, "You're such a fucking bitch"

"Cunt"

"Selfish"

"Imbecile"

"Ignorant"

"Repulsive"

Draco pushed his nose harsh against hers, "Say one more word—please"

Rose smirked with a new thought, "Why? Do you like being degraded Draco?"

Their lips were less than a centimeter away as he whispered harshly, "I hate you Rosie, I hate you so much"

She whispered back, "I hate you more"

"No no" He paused with venom, "You cannot even fanthom how much hate I hold for you"

"Is that it Draco?" Rose taunted, sliding her hand onto his chest. "Or is it that you just cannot handle the idea of someone else's lips touching mine?"

Draco's eyes shut, his voice sounding angry and pained all at once. "Shut up"

"What?" Rose asked, her sliding up. "Too much to think of some guys mouth on mine?"

"Shut up!" Draco barked.

Rose bit her lip with a smile, "Seems I hit a nerve"

His eyes snapped to her own, a threatening look held inside as he took a deep breath. Just as his gaze fell down to her lips a knock on the door sounded.

They shared a long look before Draco released her wrist and pushed off the wood, Rose immediately went to straighten her robes out at the same time before stepping away.

She grasped onto the door handle and opened it to reveal a tense looking Theo. He stepped in and let his eyes take her over to assure she was fine before turning to Draco, "Whatever the fuck is wrong with you has to end now"

Draco scoffed loudly, bumping Theo and Rose's shoulders as he pushed past them and exited the room. Theo shook his head before speaking without his threatening tone, "Ro"

She kept her eyes averted from his, wondering if his heart would break like hers from the betrayal she felt from simply kissing someone else that wasn't him.

"I'm sorry" Rose muttered.

"Ro baby look at me," She shook her head until his hand slid onto her shoulder and he waited until she met his gaze to speak. "You do not apologize for the things you do when your in a different state of mind and I can't—I can't control you"

She appreciated him for the validation but also felt a glimmer of hope at the anger she saw hiding behind his eyes, "I love you—really love you"

"I love you infinitely," Theo began as he grabbed both sides of her face and tucked her hair back with that threatening tone returning after, "But if he ever—ever talks to like that again I'll bury him six feet under"

Rose slid her freezing hands atop his burning ones, "But he's our—your best friend"

Theo's stepped closer, his thumbs running down her cheek bones. "That seems to slip my mind when he's disrespecting you"

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A/N: hello loves! sorry abt not getting this out yesterday—i had a lot happening out of the blue <3

—yes theo is a seerer is the rewrite because i said so! CANON!

—sorry for the sappy beginning of the chapter but it had to be done

—I'm sure if you read the og it was probably hard to read the moment with cedric because i know i felt sick

—rose feeling guilty abt the kiss is perfectly reasonable and has nothing to do with mattheo

—IM SO EXCITED FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER EKKKK!!!!!

xx

MEMES FOR US ALL:

Whitman finding out Rose kissed someone:

Theo finding out Rose kissed someone:

Draco finding out Rose kissed someone:

Blaise watching all the shit go down:

Rose to herself this whole chapter:

Me when Rose and Draco fight but it's hot:

Me when I get hate comments about Rose being annoying because she's not perfect and is actually a traumatized character:

Me trying to write this somewhat happy chap after finding out I got cheated on:

(yes i added that meme in instead of calling up my old therapist x)