I carry now my body as much
as it did carry me
The tiredness shifts into
A new range of softness
Like a tender hug from
My bitterness and my sadness
Unexplained

My worries and deceptions are
Dancing together
I was
A disappointment, something else
Not realised yet

I am
Fury in my quest for
Identity
I will
Smile to the mental bruises and the harm done
By the words and the looks, invisible remaining pain
That will shift into
Something greater
Something that will make me feel like
I belong
Somewhere, to an era or to myself

And my tears will be of joy