Heyo guys, Chronigma here.
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What? Surprised by the lack of exclamation points? Yeah, no laughs and giggles this time. I have a question to ask. If you could choose to save someone, only for them to live on in infinite agony, would you? Or would you rather let them having lived a decent life, and let them rest in peace? I know I usually put on a bright smile, but things have been plaguing my mind lately. My favorite quote says, 'those who smile the brightest, have shed the most tears. Those who laugh the most, have felt the most pain. They show joy, just so no one else around them has to experience the same things they have.' I live that quote every day of my life. Both as a time anomaly, and a person, I share this burden of experiencing great pains, troublesome decisions, and more. As a paradox, I do my part in helping time flow as smoothly it can, plotting out its course to the best of my ability so everyone's happy. It's why I'm typically so open to try new things. If I don't like it, or others don't, I try something else. It's what I do, but that also means I've seen every terrible route as well. As a person, I've been through many unique situations, so many I believe I could relate to just about anyone. I do my best to help share a smile with others, but I too have a breaking point. I want to ask another thing...though I doubt anyone will answer. No one seems to really read this anymore, and I don't really blame them.

Should I quit roleplaying?

I never wanted it to come to this, but...looking at facts, and the timeline that's lead up to this point, I've... It seems like all I've done has been mess up other people's stories. I've entered, or at least tried to, so many rp's, and in some way or another, I've found some way to accidentally ruin it. I join one rp, and quickly loose interest in the fandom, only to pick it back up a week later, when no one else is interested anymore. I join another, and somehow upset a person for doing so, causing discord, or them to leave. Then I try joining one, no one's active. Okay I try another one... Same result. One more tr-oh wait, now all three are active simultaneously! The routine happens every time, and I've grown sick of it. Not to mention, how many people I witness on a wattpad's daily basis, leave due to bitterness, leave because of a troll, see a troll come on, state that they may kill themselves that night, and etc. I know this is the internet, but isn't that one of the reasons we have these stories to begin with? To vent out these crazy emotions through our characters and plots? To find a place we can make friends? To find a place where we can enjoy ourselves? To find a place where all that matters is your level of creativity, and willingness to share it with others? That seems to be lacking in the case...
So yeah...

I'm sorry for this rather heavy post. This was my way of talking down-to-earth. And I wouldn't worry too much. I typed up most of this, late at night, with a ton of thoughts swirling in my head. Most likely this'll be like an empty threat with an unloaded gun. And let's face it, I'd never have the guts to pull the metaphorical trigger, loaded or otherwise.

So, I guess I'll see ya guys later.