Felix's thoughts were a single confusion.

The pool party had, despite all the concerns, turned out really fun. Minho and Chan had barbecued in bathrobes and they had eaten in the living room.

Only sometime later, when they had started playing games, Hyunjin had brought the alcohol from the kitchen and pressed a bottle of soju into everyone's hand.

It was by no means the first time that Felix drank alcohol. Sam had forced him to do it the first few times, but at some point it had just been part of their beach parties.

But since his parents had kept him away from Sam lately and he had had a lot to do at school, it had been quite a while since he had last drunk.

Which now caused the world to turn slightly around him.

Giggling, Chan knelt in front of him and put a hand on Felix's knees. "Is everything okay?"

"You... You're spinning a little. But otherwise you still look insanely good," Felix muttered, without really being aware of what he had just said.

"Is that so?" Chan's voice had instantly become much calmer and more serious. He had also drunk Soju, but less than Felix.

"Insanely good!" murmured Felix and then did something that he probably wouldn't have dared soberly.

He stroked through Chan's hair to see if it was as soft as it looked.

"I think you should drink some water," Chan muttered, gently untied Felix's hand from his hair. "I'll get you some."

But Felix held him tight. "Please stay."

Chan looked at him in surprise. Although Felix was a little more open now after drinking alcohol, Chan didn't expect that. "What's wrong?" he asked quietly and sat down next to the younger one.

"I don't like to be alone right now," Felix whispered, leaning against Chan.

With a gentle smile, Chan reached for Felix's hand and softly painted circles on the back of it.

Although Felix was definitely drunk, or perhaps because of it, he was incredibly aware of Chan's closeness. The warmth he gave off and his smell that was so present even though he had been in the pool a lot.

Felix heart was beating fast and he was suddenly insanely hot.

As he turned his head to the side, he only realized how close Chan was to him. How little was missing to press his lips on the incredibly soft-looking skin of the elder.

His full lips, which awakened in Felix the desire to find out if he liked kissing men.

Without really thinking about it, he slid closer to Chan and leaned closer to him.

"Baby stop..." Chan whispered, putting his hands on Felix's shoulders to keep him where he was. "You're drunk."

"Not at all!" Felix protested and shook his head so violently that he almost fell off the couch.

Which turned out to be a big mistake, because it only led to him feeling sick and not Chan letting him go.

"Oh damn," he muttered, pressing a hand in front of his mouth.

"Do you have to throw up?" Chan asked worriedly and brushed Felix's hair aside to get a better look at him.

"No, I don't think so. But I think a glass of water might be good."

Smiling, Chan stood up and pulled Felix off the couch. "Well, then come. We go to the kitchen together." And although he would definitely have blocked any advances from Felix, if any more had come, he could not resist and pressed a gentle kiss on Felix's temple.

Giggling, Felix pressed himself against him and wrapped his arms around him. "I like you, Channie."

"I like you too. Baby. I just hope you don't regret all this tomorrow."

All this only led to Felix giggling even more and Chan shook his head sighing.

"Come on, we'll go get your water and then I'll take you to bed."

With a satisfied smile, Felix nodded and allowed Chan to gently lead him into the kitchen. Half of the glass of water that the elder handed him landed on Felix, who took off his shirt without further ado and threw it on the floor.

"Come on, let's get you to bed."

Amused, Chan picked up his shirt and pushed Felix gently towards the stairs. He didn't notice that Hyunjin had appeared in the living room and watched all this.

After he had forced Felix to brush his teeth, he brought him to his bedroom with some difficulty. He had to almost carry him the last bit and could at least make sure that Felix ended up in bed and not next to it.

"Sleep well..." he murmured softly and wanted to leave after he had covered Felix, but he held him again.

"Please stay."

For minutes, Chan stood in the dark, pondering what to do. He had absolutely no objection to sleeping in a bed with Felix, but the worry about what Felix would think the next morning weighed heavily.

"Please...!"

The younger's deep, velvety voice somehow lamented so sadly and lonely that Chan finally pushed all concerns aside. In no time, he brushed his teeth and took his blanket out of his room and shortly afterwards, as far away as possible, lay in Felix's bed.

"I'm here.. Sleep, I'll take care of you."

"Thank you," Felix whispered, reaching for Chan's hand and fell asleep shortly after.

It took much longer for Chan to fall asleep. For a while he thought about whether he should go back to his room. But he had told Felix that he would take care of him. And if he was honest with himself, he didn't really want to sleep alone.

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