The pain of losing someone is unbearable. Some say its all apart of life and its bound to happen at sometimes, why must life be so harsh? I have no more tears to cry. I don't think they would want me to spend anymore tears on them, I just know that they would be upset at the fact that I was not smiling like usual. The pain is unbearable, no one will ever fully heal but you must stay strong for those around you. Thoughts run through my head as I stare off into the distance as the light breeze tickles my skin and flings my hair. I has been a few days since the accident, I have been so anti social I'm starting to forget what communication is. Everyone is devastated and handling their grief in the only was they know how, by staying silent. In the end we're just kids with little experience with the term "death." I haven't eaten in days, I know its not right or healthy or how to deal with this at all but I don't care. I have dealt with this in my own way, but its not helping much. I have been writing songs.

Claude P.O.V: (is this the first Claude pov? I can't remember)

        Things are really bad right now. Well that is a major understatement, I haven't told anyone what has happened yet due to their mental states. No one is doing well, BTS is better of then Genre considering they did not have a deep history with Jaeden and Precious. But they are still hurting inside. "Claude?" asks Jin coming down the halls with five other members, Jungkook was missing.
        "Yeah?" my voice cracks as I try to keep an emotionless face.
        "This is not healthy for them at all. Bottling up the pain and emotions will only do them more harm down the road, we need them to let go. Not forget just get over it, so to say," Rap Monster explains and I nod in agreement.
        "This is a thing where time will make it worse," I say looking up so the tears would not come. "You are the best bet, you guys were the closest people who got close to them all," I explain and they look at me.
        "You are their best bet. We heard what happened. They are not going to blame you for something like that! You will heal them far better than us, we will be there for support," reassures Jimin with pleading eyes. I suck in a deep breath as I nod and head off to see Noelle who was in Ian's room, he woke up a few hours ago but he is still shaken and confused.

Jungkook P.O.V:

        I know what you're about to think or say. Before you freak out or fangirl or something. I have not moved from Kaylee's side since the accident. The only time I have moved is when I had to pee or get something to eat but my appetite has not been very big. I don't know I am just drawn to the crazy girl. She isn't that bad, she's kind of cute. STOP THESE THOUGHTS! I slap myself, it must be the sleep lack of sleep. Is it? "Kookie?" a hoarse voice fills the room and I look over to see Kaylee wide awake and smiling slightly.
        "Hey," I answer stupidly as a frown takes over her face.
        "What happened? Where is everyone who got hit? Are they okay?" she panics bolting out of bed and I take her hand so she stops moving around so much. 
        "You need to calm down," I insist and she slows her breathing so the heart monitor stops beeping like crazy. I take a deep breath. "Jaeden and Precious were both killed. Precious didn't survive the impact and Jaeden died in surgery," I say my voice cracking as tears pool in her blue orbs. She broke like a twig and the waterworks start, she was now crying into my shoulder as I rub slow circles on her back. She was not the only one with waterworks because I was also crying just not as loud or as noticeable. This is painful, it hurts to see so many other hurting.

Normal P.O.V:
        I finally finished up the song I want to dedicate to Precious and Jaeden as Claude comes and sits beside me. I look like he has been through a long day. "Hey," he starts off as I nod, I wanted to talk and let it out but its hard to speak without breaking down. "Look I have something really important that I need to tell you," he clears his throat and I wait to hear whatever he has to say. "I lied to you...BLOCK B DEBUTED IN 2011 NOT 2010!" he blurts out and I sweat drop.
        "I highly doubt you can up here to update me on k-pop groups," I say with a tick mark but I couldn't help but smile. "What's really up? I know something has been on your mind," I state as he turns away from me.
        "The accident...I was in that taxi van. I- It happened so fast and I-," I cut him off.
        "Claude if you think that any of us are going to blame you, you can wash that thought right of your brain. The past should stay the past, there was nothing you could have done. So live on without regret, that is what they would want," I smile as he starts crying with a cheesy smile full of emotion.
        "Thank you," he hugs me tightly and then leaves to go clean up and check on the others. Claude is like teh dad I never had, even though he acts like a pre teen sometimes. I remain in the same spot when Yoongi comes over and takes a seat.
        "How are they holding up?" I ask after we sat for a few minutes in silence just enjoying the silence and company of each other.
        "They are strong. They will be fine. Jungkook has not left Kaylee's side since the accident, I totally think the little maknae has feelings for the crazy fangirl," he smiles at me and I smile slightly. "Jin has been keeping an eye on Noelle and Ian all night. Rap monster, J-hope, V and Jimin have been checking up on Tia and the others, they are all slowly recovering but again no one will truly heal from something like that. I'm here to see if you will be okay," he says as I take a deep breath.
        "It hurts a lot. I think all be okay," I whimper as the pain in my chest returns, I broke like I have done so many times and he holds me on the roof top. During my emotional session I dropped my writing pad and Yoongi took a look at it.
        "Is this for Precious and Jaeden?" he asks looking over the lyrics and I nod slowly. He starts to hum and the tune starts to fill my head.
        "Its been a long day with out you my friend, and I'll tell you all about it when I see you again. We've come a long way from where we began and I'll tell you all about it when I see you again, when I see you again."
        "Damn, who knew all the planes we flew good things we be through, that I'd be standing right here talking to you about another path, how we love to hit the road and laugh," Yoongi starts to rap in English which surprises me. "I think this is a great song to say goodbye," he smiles weakly.
        "Can you do the rap for me?" I ask looking down, "I usually leave the rap to Jaeden whenever I write."
        "I will rap for you. Now I think its time you take better care of yourself, lets get you some food," he said standing back up as I sat there debating if I should take his hand which was outstretched. I grin and take his hand without second thought as we head inside to see the mood was improving from what it was. Jungkook was running around the halls with Kaylee on his back as she laughed like a child, this is what she needs right now, a distraction. Thank you Jungkook. Tia and the others also come, they look better as well, I can tell that they have also been dealing with their grief through writing. These boys, always rescuing us when we're about to sink down a very dark hole.
        "Hey, I think we are ready to face this loss head on now. Precious and Jaeden would not approve of you guys moping around like this. They would want you to smile and continue to live on for them. The past is now well pasted, look towards the future but never forget my imbalanced hormone friends," says Claude as we glare playfully at him.
        "I have written a song in their honour and would like to do it on AGT because that is where we started and that is where Jaeden and Precious will be remembered," I say pulling out my lyric sheet and the others follow suit.

I hope this raised moods a bit better, bye until next update!