Months passed slowly. The school year dragged on miserably. The thought of Jimin never escaped my mind.

My parents put me in counseling after I'd told them about everything. My mom even offered to let me switch high school's across town. I took her up on it almost immediately. Nothing was keeping me at the school I was at. Nothing.

The moment I broke down to them replays in my mind often. After a month of me lashing out randomly and holding in everything I'd been feeling, I finally vented to them. It felt so relieving to get off my chest, but nonetheless, I still think of him every moment.

My counselor tried to help me realize that it wasn't my fault, that I felt trapped. Like I couldn't think for myself or something horrible would happen. However, while she believes I think that, I still believe I'm mostly to blame.

Park Jimin would still be alive if I had the guts to tell Taehyung to suck my dick and find better interests. I know he would do horrible things if I tried to protest, but if I would have put up more of a fight, he might've gotten bored eventually. I didn't though- and Park Jimin isn't alive because of it. Because of me. My carelessness.

The new school seems ok. Granted, I've only just walked in. I'm nervous, but that's normal. The hallways for everyone in my year. The people I'm surrounded by at this moment are the people I'll be with for the next year.

I'm in class 4-B. I found the room with ease and the moment I walked in, all eyes are on me. A room full of entirely new faces. There's an unsettling feeling in my stomach. It's like i don't belong here. Everyone I'm looking back at seems so distant to me. Making friends doesn't seem easy at all.

All my life, Taehyung was my best friend. Anyone I knew after him, was all because of him. He was the one who did all the approaching. He was the one who made friends, then introduced them to me. He's the only reason I had friends. That's if any of them were worth calling friends.

I feel oddly pathetic. I don't know if it's just because it's finally hit me that I don't have someone dictating, controlling, and falsely guiding my life anymore. Maybe it's just because I never actually cared about the way I looked or felt in front of people because I'd always just been a mindless follower.

Perhaps because for the first time ever, I could relate to Park Jimin. There's all new people. I'm here to escape an abusive situation too. Worried that the second i introduce myself, everyone will start picking at me and laughing. We've really come full circle.

Some of my new classmates were looking me up and down. That wasn't new for me and it never use to bother me. I was always so comfortable in my skin. Yet right now, I feel like some sort of joke on display. I'm not me anymore- whatever "me" was anyways. I've changed.

I've lost weight since everything happened. My abs were replaced with a flat stomach and my ribcage peaking through. My eyes were dull. I grew my hair out and wore it a bit messier.

Taehyung would hate how I look now. If he was here, he'd definitely tease me about it. He'd take up any opportunity to bring someone who seems insecure in their skin down.

It keeps me up at night knowing that someone as sick as him can walk proudly in broad daylight. How over and over again he's brought people down for his own amusement. He was always twisted and for that, I felt like I absolutely had to take care of him and keep him from doing anything too extreme. In the end, it only turned me into his pet.

"Are you just going to stand there or what?" Someone from the back called out.

I bit my inner cheek and ran my fingers throw my hair awkwardly. Looking at my shoes then looking back up at the patient audience.

"Hello, I'm Jeon Jungkook, please treat me well."

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This is the first ending.

The point of it is sometimes you cant fix fucked up people, but you can remove yourself from the situation in attempt to better yourself and heal.

Would you still like an alternate ending and possibly a book 2?

🥺 i'm still working on plot ideas past the alternate ending.
Ive got some sort of idea, but we'll see lol