A/N: Ronan by Taylor Swift has been my addiction that makes me cry all the time since Stand Up To Cancer I couldn't  write a happy chapter with that thought on my mind so I wrote this, I hope you all enjoy it. If you haven't heard Ronan I added the video on the side I recommend listening to the song while reading. It's beautiful. <3 Thanks to everyone that comments and reads, I appreciate you more than you know! If you ever need anything just ask :)

Chapter 4:

                Throwing her keys down on the kitchen bar in her apartment Carson flops down on the couch, another exhausting day at work. Trying to hold in the tears as she remembers Risa her beautiful green eyes shining ever so bright when she would giggle, she grabs her phone dialing Selene’s number with shaky fingers. “Hello?”

                “Can we hang out tonight?” Carson pushes out quickly taking in a sharp breath to hold the tears back again, Selene looks over at Punk in her kitchen making his famous grill cheeses for their normal Tuesday night routine.

                “Uh…I sort of have plans with Phil…” she trails off, Carson sighs as her bottom lip trembles the tears starting to win her internal war, as she remembers Risa’s mom collapsing to the floor as she covers her beautiful daughter with a sheet. “But you can join us.” Selene adds hearing the tears from the other side,

                “She died.” Was all Carson said before her sobs took over, Selene knew instantly it was the little girl with cancer that Carson had grown close to, “Risa, my giggle monster…in her mom’s arms she was only four, Sel.” She barely managed through the tears, choking Selene up as she imagines the little girl Carson always went on and on about when she got back from work.

                “Look, I’m going to come get you, we can spend the night together I don’t think you should be alone.” Her throat burning, she barely manages to work the words out herself as she jumps up from the couch. “I’ll be back.”

                “Wait, where are you going?” Punk asks lifting his spatula in the air with confusion as his sister runs out the door, “More for me.” He mumbles as he flips the cheese filled bread on the stove. Phil scans the channels with boredom written all over his face as he waits for his sister, “Boring, lame, stupid…” he pauses on E! looking back at the door to see if anyone was coming in. “Ooh, Keeping Up With The Kadashians!” He squeals sitting the remote down, chomping down on his sandwich.

                “Everything happens for a reason, Car…” Selene tries to comfort her as she enters her apartment, they turn to Phil who is quickly reaching for the remote when they see what he is watching. “Um, where you really just watching what I think you were?” She asks trying to hide her amusement but failing miserably.

                “No, I was just flipping through that’s all.” He says with a bashful face, turning the channel to ESPN “Here is what I was looking for.” He adds sinking into the couch, Selene and Carson look at each other and burst into laughter, momentarily forgetting about her troubled day, Carson smiles.

                “Mhmm, sure, it is going to be very hard not to tweet about this discovery.” Selene smirks as she stares down at her new iPhone 5 eagerly, Punk jumps up instantly.

                “I will murder you!” He says stern making Selene laugh even harder, nothing pleases her more than embarrassing her older brother. Her fingers start to move on the screen, “If you tweet that, I will tell everyone about your special mole.” He threatens and she freezes instantly narrowing her eyes at him.

                “What mole?” Carson chimes in and Phil smirks wide, Selene presses the home button showing Phil the blank screen before slowly placing the phone on the table as if it was a loaded gun. “What mole?” She asks again,

                “I don’t have mole…he is lying.” Selene says stern sitting down on the couch, Phillip opens his mouth but closes it when Selene gives him her death glare and reaches for her phone. “Carson is having a bad day and will be spending our Tuesday fun night with us.” Selene gives a weak smile, before patting the spot next to her. Phil plops down instantly, “I meant Car, not you Mr. Rude Ass.” She rolls her eyes.

                “It’s fine, I’ll sit over here.” Carson whispers taking a seat on the chair, Phil looks at her apologetically before grabbing the remote and going to the recordings he clicks on Monday Night Raw. “What’s this?” The southern belle asks,

                “What?” The siblings say in one voice in shock, Phil hits pause before asking, “You don’t know what the WWE is? Who I am?” She looks around confused, why should she know who and what that is? “This explains everything…” He mumbles running his hand through his hair, she furrows her brow.

                “Explains what?” she asks, he stares at her trying to figure out what the best thing to say is without sounding cocky, or giving away his plan.

                “Why you aren’t having a great day, you didn’t get to watch this live on Monday. Raw is life changing, I think you will like.” He gives his best smile, even throwing in a quick wink she looks back at the TV as Punk really thinks why she isn’t all over him like any other girl he was interested in would be.

                Phil watches Carson’s facial expressions as she stares at Raw intently, he wishes he could read her mind and see if she is impressed or if she is even enjoying herself. Normally he wasn’t one for needing approval or to impress anyone but for some reason he found himself worried she was bored or worse didn’t like his character. Feeling like something wasn’t right Carson turns to look over at Selene and her brother and catches Phil’s gaze he looks a little embarrassed about being caught. Giving a weak smile to him, he returns the favor wondering why he couldn’t turn away.

                The phone on the table buzz’s everyone turning to it, Selene grabs it as Punk hits pause at the part with Mick Foley coming out, admittedly he didn’t even want Carson to see this part slightly ashamed, character or not. “Yeah, sure…I guess I can come in, if no one else can do it. Alright, thanks Jim. See you soon.” Selene hangs up, “I gotta go to work tonight guys, I’m sorry Ron didn’t show up, and let’s face it a bar is nothing without a bartender.”

                “Are you serious? They can’t get someone else? Tuesday nights are all we have, Sel…” Phil sighs, catching Carson by surprise she couldn’t deny it was adorable how close he was with his sister.

                “No one else will show up, I’m sorry. Next week I’m all yours though,” she smiles giving him a quick peck on the cheek, he rolls his eyes not believing it. “Do me a favor, don’t leave Carson alone tonight she had a rough day at work today. I’ll be back at five in the morning, you can leave then. Promise me you won’t be an ass too.” She whispers to Phil as Carson stares off in her own little world not able to forget about Risa and her smile.

                “When am I ever?” Phil gives a crocked grin and Selene rolls her eyes, “Fine, I promise. You promise you won’t let those animals hit on you without a fight,” He frowns knowing how wild they get when his sister was there,

                “Always.” She winks with a light chuckle before getting up and running to her room minutes later she comes out with quick makeup and grabs her jacket before hugging Carson and leaving.

                Raw fades into black Ryback the last thing to be seen before Phil turns off the TV, he looks over at Carson who is still just staring at the black screen. The silence was very awkward while Phil goes over what possibly could have happened at work to make her this…out of it. “Are you okay?” he finally asks she gives a barely there nod of her head, “Did you like Raw?” he asks hoping to get a conversation going.

                “Yeah…” she whispers, a pin dropping would have been louder than her voice at that point. Not able to believe her words he sighs with disappointment, feeling as though she is lying to make him feel better.

                “Didn’t seem like it.” He utters plainly as he grabs his cup and heads into the kitchen to fill it up with Pepsi, she follows him to his surprise.

                “No really, I thought it was great and will be watching every week from now on. I’m sorry, I must be horrible to be around right now. I’ll just leave…” She turns to walk away feeling guilty for making him have to be around her when she is like this,

                “Please don’t, I like to be around you.” He says quickly catching her hand, he didn’t realize how much he meant those words until they left his lips. “I’m not sure what it is, but I feel comfortable around you…” She smiles shyly swiping her hair behind her ear, exposing her dazzling blue eyes making him feel suddenly hot.