"I'll do it."

Chapter One: Get Back Up.
3x01:Life is Fluid.

*Trigger warning*

Erin quit working for the unit and is completely ignoring all of Becklean's text and phone calls. Becklean was doing better working harder, going to therapy trying her hardest. It's what Nadia would've wanted from her.

" Good morning, ladies." Antonio walks up the stairs followed by Voight. " This is Benji Keyes, known on the street as Benji Bones. Priors for possession with intent to distribute, concealed weapon, and has been ID'd as a street captain for his brother."

Voight tapes a photo on the board. " Derek Keyes: number one on Chicago's most wanted. Narcotics estimates that over half the city's heroin comes from Keyes. Been after him for years. Every time they send in undercovers, they hit a wall."

" CI of mine gave up a location on Benji Bones. We grab him, he'll lead us to Derek."

" This can't be a typical grab, 'cause if Derek finds out we're onto him, he'll dive deeper underground. So we got to extract Benji Bones without anybody knowing. That means everybody gets blacked out." Voight explains as everyone gets up and gets ready.

They break into the house without being detected and begin the plan they capture Benji and leave without ever being detected. They bring him into interrogation and explain how they want his brother not him and that they will let him go scott free.

Jay scoops up Becklean they make mouse trace Erin's phone, they watch as she stumbles out of club in the middle of the day.

"Let me guess, you had Mouse ping my phone?"

" You know Voight put you on a three week furlough, right? In case you change your mind. That ends tomorrow." Jay yells at her as Erin make an annoyed face.

" What do you want, Jay?" she sasses as Becklean rolls her eyes.

"Erin, Just listen to him okay?"

" I want to hear you say it."

"Say what?" Becklean snatches Erin's sunglasses off her face.

" That you're no longer our partner, that you're throwing it all away. Look me in the eye. Tell me it's over."

" Are you done talking?"

Becklean growls at her sister. " I don't know who you are, but tell Lindsay she made me a better cop, if you ever see her again."

"Okay, here we go" Mouse was wiring up jay with a hidden button camera. " Who is that handsome devil?" he comments seeing himself in the camera Becklean pinches his cheek.

" All right, 100 grand in small bills from the 1505 fund, baby." Rusek comes down the stairs and tosses one of the bags to Jay.

" I look like Mr. Uptown or what?"

" You look the part." Rusek stuffs the bills in a duffel bag.

" Yo, Adam."

" Yeah."

" How come I ain't heard nothing about a bachelor party yet?" Kev yells from across the room Becklean rolls her eyes.

" Burgess and I haven't even set a date yet, Kev." Adam walks over to Kevin and they talk with Becklean, ties Jay's tie for him and he just admires. How concentrated she looked.

" All right. Okay, here we go. Benji just confirmed the location of the meet. He's gonna intro Halstead to Derek as a potential buyer who can expand his market into the North Side. We get a deal on camera, we'll move in."

This case seemed off, maybe it was the feeling in Becklean's gut but something was going to happen. She couldn't help but feel like they were going to get played by Benji or Derek. 

"Where's the meet?"

" Main terminal at Midway." Antonio explains.

" That's a lot of moving parts. Planes, trains, vehicles, and the no-fly zone over the airport." Becklean mutters as Rusek nods.

" Hey, it's Derek Keyes. We'll make it work." Jay replies.

" That's right. Let's do it."

//

They watched everything go down on Jay's button cam, so far everything was going fine until Derek shot Benji in the head. He then gets his goons to start fighting Jay and that's when everyone is running inside, of course airport security held them up for five whole minutes. Before they make it to the airport hangar where they see Benji dead and no sign of Jay.

//

"Sarge. This came from my CI. I'll take the hit."

" Where are we at with the SUV?" Voight asks.

" We've got all available patrol units searching. Problem is, there's no plates."

" Well, what about the TSA badges they used to get past security?"

" The badges were stolen from several employees yesterday. TSA didn't report them missing until this morning." Becklean explains as Voight sighs.

" Keyes shot and killed l his own brother. What do you think he's gonna do to Halstead? Man, this thing with Halstead." Voight just walks away.

Voight gets Burgess and Roman to bring in Antonio's CI while Antonio is telling Benji's boyfriend how Derek Killed him.

" How long do I have to be here? As long as it takes." She turns to the break room where Benji's boyfriend is crying. "That one of Benji's boys? I seen him around."

" Yeah, well, you're gonna get a lot of answers when this is all over. Right now I need you to tell me where Derek Keyes" Voight sits her down in a chair.

"I don't know."

" He put a bullet in his own brother's head. He won't think twice about killing you."

" I didn't mean for this to happen." she cries.

" And yet here we are. Tell me where Derek Keyes is."

"I swear, I never met him." she cries more as Trudy walks up the stairs.

" Hank. I'm sorry, I don't mean to interrupt, but there's a very determined young man downstairs who says he wants to speak to you and you only."

" Get this." He points to Kev who takes off his gun and goes to interview the girl. Becklean was sitting at her desk worried. Not only was she worried about Erin but she was also worried about Jay. she still felt for him. Her heart fell for Jay harder than anyone she ever loved.

Her life was tame for a second, her ex husband wanted to be in her life and she was trying, trying to figure out a way to forgive him. She hadn't visited the firehouse since Nadia died and figured she should pay a visit over there. Voight comes back upstairs with a pink box from Happy Donut, he hands a disk to Antonio who plugs it into his computer there on the video is Jay being beaten and Tased. While being hung in the air, his screams make Becklean's heart hurt. The video stops and the phone that came with the disk rings.

Voight slams the phone shut. "What'd he want?"

"Halstead's life for all our CI files."

" That's easy, right? We hand over the files, right?" Rusek asks.

" Whoa, there's over 100 CIs in our database. A couple dozen are mine. Half got wives and kids. I'm not gonna have their blood on my hands if their names get leaked." Antonio explains.

" So you'd rather protect them and bury Jay?"

" Of course I wouldn't!" Antonio snaps.

" Hey, hey, hey, hey. Just back off. Back off, guys, come on."

" Yeah, well, it ain't gonna get that far. Grab Mouse. Start creating false files." Voight explains as Becklean nods, he starts heading for the stairs.

" Where you going?"

" For a drive." he replies as Becklean runs a hand through her hair, she needed to get Jay back.

Voight appears a few hours later.

" Where we at with the CI files?"

" All set, bogus CI numbers and criminal histories. We used photographs of inmates from Detroit and Indiana. No way Keyes can tell they're fake just by looking at them." Antonio explains Becklean was sleeping in the breakroom.

" No more waiting, Sarge. It's 8:00 a.m. We got one hour till the drop."

" Okay, go wake up  West." He orders.

" What for?" Rusek ask.

" Keyes requested a female officer deliver the files."  Voight explains as Adam nods and goes to wake up Becklean.

" I'll do it."

Becklean was tired, they had been working on this case for three days max and she needed to sleep. Everyone understood that, that and the fact that she was taking antidepressants made her tired. When you've only had coffee for three days straight. Adam had argued with Voight about this. Everyone would've argues with Voight, Becklean was the only woman left on the team and they grew very over protective of her  more so than anyone else not that she couldn't handle her own.

"Get her out of here." Becklean walks into the bullpen from the breakroom seeing her sister standing there.

" Hank... "

"You gave your star back. Or don't you remember?"

" Can we talk?"

" You know, you made it clear which direction you want to go in, which is down. I've accepted that. Now get out." Voight yells at her as Becklean is fuming. She drags Erin into the Breakroom slamming the door behind them.

"I will do it and you will stay the hell away from this place and me  or did you forget that made it clear where you stood. I keep thinking... I mean, I keep... I keep thinking... This never would have happened if you were here.  Then I'm not watching Halstead being tortured like an animal. So no you don't get to swoop in and save the day, I am going to save my partner," she walks out of the break room. And Nods to Voight

" Gear up." Voight says as Becklean glares at Erin before leaving.

Becklean was sitting the case with the files in a trunk of an unmarked car when Al walks  up.

" Hey. It's ceramic. It's not much, but, you know, at least you won't be going in naked. And it won't set off any detectors if they wand you."                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   

" Al, thank you." she smiles tucking it under her belt behind her pants

// 

Becklean was standing on the street. When a black Suv Pulls up.

The passenger side window rolls down. And some guy came out and started wanding Becklean. "You got what Derek wants?"

" That's all of the Intelligence CI files. Where's Jay?"

" Let's say you hand over those files. We verify them. Then we'll cut your boy loose."

Becklean's jaw tightens. "That wasn't the deal. Derek said the files for our guy. He said a straight trade"

He pulls a gun on her and she just rolls her tongue in her mouth unphased. "If I don't see Jay alive right now, I'm walking with the box."

"Guess you're going for a ride." the guy with the wand opens the door to the backseat for Becklean. 

//

They arrive at a big ass mansion and Becklean holds the case in her lap the entire time, she hops out of the car and lugs it inside.

"Boss. We got a guest. She wouldn't hand over the files unless she saw her boy."

" Welcome." Derek smiles at Becklean as she looks around. He takes her to his office where his is doing lines of coke.

" We held up our end." She opens the case showing him the files.

"Go get him." Derek nods to one of his men.  Becklean looks at the coke on the tray, she hated drugs, she hated what they did to her, she wasn't in control when she was on drugs. They took her sister away from her both times, the first with Gloria and the second with Erin. and now it was just sitting there taunting her.

" Sure you don't want to do a little bump, put you in a better mood?"

" I'm good.'' She growls, she hears some grunts behind and sees one of Derek's goons  dragging Jay in as they toss him on the couch.

"Jay. It's okay." she removes the tape from his mouth.

"Bexs" he sighs.

"All right, come on, we're getting out of here." She goes to grab him out.

" I just got to ask, how did you think this was gonna play out? You kidnap a Chicago police officer? It just doesn't seem like a smart business move."

" I got what I asked for, didn't I? And what do you know about my business?" Derek asks as becklean lets out a sadistic chuckle she stands up and walks over to his desk

" I know that if you're worried about a rat in your organization, it's already too late."

" Derek. You're not gonna like this."

" What?'

" Been through a dozen of these so far. Not finding much that lines up. This guy, he's doing time in Michigan, but his photo doesn't match his name. This one, he's on parole in Indiana for a DUI, when the report says he's supposed to be some heavy hitter with the cartels."

" So what, you thought you could bring me a box full of lies?"

Becklean shrugs. " Look, I brought the box that they gave me. If you want, I'll make a call."

" I'm done making calls. Do him first, and make her watch."

Becklean swallowed thickly, they really thought  they were going to kill her and her partner without so much as a fight. She walks over to Jay going to pick him up by her his arms. As the guy pushes her away from him he shoves her infrotn while Derek grabs Jay. the ice in her eyes was much colder than it had ever been. She pulls the ceramic knife from her belt stabbing the goon as Jay is taking on Derek with his hands bound the Goon throws himself and Becklean into the glass coffee table and she continues to stab him crawling on top of him straddling ho, as she continues to stab him more she crawls towards his gun and rolls over standing up and shooting Derek in the shoulder,

"Don't  you fucking move. You're under arrest."  He looks at the gun on the desk and chuckles before she shoots him in the chest five times. She could feel herself shake as she opened the office doors. Her team was there. She stands there covered in blood. So much blood it stuck to her.

She nods to the office and everyone runs inside minus Erin and Al.

"Bex you okay"

" Yeah." she nods

Outside Jay is sitting in the back of an ambulance as Becklean walks over.

"You okay?"

He stays silent for a while. " I'm just glad it was you that they sent in." He locks eyes with and she could feel herself wanting to cry, wanting to break down.

" I got to go wash this off." she replies walking away. Becklean spots Erin among the others her sister just looks at her and she wants to cry, she wants to run into her arms and have her hold her like she did before. Have her tell her things were gonna be okay. But she left. Left her when needed her the most so she was being stubborn trying not to forgive her so easily.

//

Vought called her and Erin to his office that night, Becklean arrived in clean clothes.

"Here, sign this. It's your statement from the scene. I gotta kick it up to Fischer.it says That you acted in self-defense." he says which is true she acted in self defense but that crime scene was nothing he had seen before for starters Derek's goon was gutted beyond belief. She was a tough woman, she learned a few things from working in Hawaii. Steve always told her, don't let them get you. You have to put up a fight and honestly she felt the need to do so.

" I did what I had to do to get Jay back." she replies as Vought nods. She rolls her eyes at Erin before signing the statement.

" Um... Hank, I think I'd like to hang on to this." Erin holds up her star. " Listen, I'm sorry if it took Jay being taken for me to realize how much this means to me, but..."

"Listen, Erin. You want to hold on to your badge, there's conditions. For starters, you're gonna live with me and take weekly drug tests."

" I can do that." She says.

" And there's one more thing."

" What's that?"

" I want you to sever all ties with your mother. Bunny is the cancer in your life, and we both know it. Take it or leave it." she stands there for a second quietly thinking as becklean just leaves she needed to check on Jay at med.  That's exactly what she did, she drove her motorcycle down to the hospital running inside.

"April what room"

"Triage room 7 he's been asking about you." She smiles at her thanking her and walking into the room,

"Bex what are you....." she cuts him off by crawling into bed with him, he just winces but pulls her close as she nuzzles her head into his chest. She was scared, she thought she was going to lose him. And that scared her simply because she had already lost so many people.

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