"Hoy! Ano 'yang suot mo? Sa yacht party tayo pupunta, hindi sa beach!" Panenermon sa akin ni Claire.

I was wearing a white oversized long sleeve polo shirt with high waisted shorts. Hindi ko nga alam kung ano ang problema sa suot ko ngayon e.

"Okay, so what am I supposed to wear? Ikaw nga sa atin madalas nagmumukhang Tita sa mga outfits e," I rolled my eyes.

"Wear something slutty! You know, there's a party first before we jump into the ocean, right? But you do you. It seems like you don't want to make your ex-situationship tempted by your whole physique," she said.

I sighed before getting the shortest dress I have in my closet right now. It was a champagne colored mini dress that ended three inches above my knees. I had my bikini under the dress para huhubarin ko na lang kapag lalangoy na.

"Ayan, masaya ka na?" Tinaasan ko ng kilay si Claire at tumango naman siya sa akin.

"That's more like it! Now, I want you to not get drunk later because you'll see Kaito there and I know you're going to cause stupid things. Dapat talaga sinama mo si Kazuko para naman magtino ka!" Binatukan ko naman siya bago umiling.

"Tarantado ka ba? Baka magkaroon ng panibagong world war kung ginawa ko 'yon. You know how they both hated each other, and I won't be the reason for them to fight again," I told her while putting clothes in my backpack.

"So are you saying that they both like you at pagaawayan ka noong dalawa?" She grinned and I just disregarded what she said bago isuot ang aking two-inch heels.

We arrived at the port, and I saw the yacht that Alliyah rented. It was huge! But it was perfect for us. Excited na akong magpicture mamaya with the girls!

"Rienne! Where's Kazuko?"

It was really weird for me to hear my friends asking for Kazuko. Usually, they are always looking for Kaito... Pero ngayon iba na. Hindi lang yata ako sanay pero ayaw ko nang ganito.

"He has work to do. He asked me to give you this though." I gave Alliyah the present Kazuko bought for them as a present para sa kasal nila kasi may chance raw na hindi siya makapunta. He's going to travel to the states to fix and run some important errands.

"Okay! Well, drinks and food are over there. Please  don't drink too much yet because I want you guys looking decent and not wasted for my engagement photos." Tumango naman ako sa kaniya. I checked out the rooms and I called dibs to the bed with a big window.

Ang alam ko kasi ay magtatravel din ang yacht sa isang island which we'll spend a day in tomorrow. I placed my things inside the room before going back up to the deck.

Nakita ko naman na may bagong tao na sumakay sa yacht, as he walked towards my direksyon while holding his phone, I assumed that he was talking to someone. Girlfriend? Wife? Kid? Who the fuck cares?

I couldn't help but notice his toned body. He was wearing an unbuttoned polo shirt that revealed his chiseled chest and abs. He didn't really like working out much back then, but it looks like he had taken this fitness routine up a notch.

Despite the sight of his toned body I wasn't surprised to see him here. I know that he is a busy man but it looks like he made time just for this occasion. I don't know why but I feel a little nervous, though. His newfound fitness only made me question myself if I have really moved on from him already.

It has been months for fucks sake!

As I tried to compose myself I couldn't help but wonder if Kaito noticed my gaze. I quickly averted my gaze, hoping that he hadn't caught my eyes staring. But as I glanced back at him, I felt a flutter in my stomach.

He was looking directly at me... And fuck! A small smile was playing at the corner of his soft lips.

I was praying to all the saints that he didn't see me checking him out. But while he was looking at my eyes, I knew that he knew I was staring at his God sculpted body. We're not on that level yet to stare at each other and I just can't fucking help it.

Umiwas na lang ako at agad hinanap sila Claire.

"Oh bakit ka namumula?" Tanong sa akin ni Claire noong nahanap ko na sila. They were currently taking pictures, at sakto raw ang dating ko dahil magpipicture na kami.

"Ah... Wala. Mainit lang kasi kaya gano'n," pagdadahilan ko pero siyempre hindi siya naniwala sa sinabi ko. I didn't bother explaining myself to her kasi walang saysay iyon.

I was very happy while spending my time with them. They really do complete the hole in my heart every time we spend time together. They always help me reach peak happiness every single time and I ain't complaining.

After taking photos, we heard from the captain that we were about to start moving. Kaming mga babae, we settled at the upper deck to chill while gossiping while the guys were down at the lower deck near the rails taking pictures.

I stared at him as they took photos of him and a rush of emotions flooded me. The memories of our past... It still haunted me. I fucking hate myself because now that I am seeing him, it pisses me off that part of me wants him back.

Noong nakita ko siyang ngumiti, nahawa ako. I'm glad he's happy.

Even though I'm sad that we're not together, I was still happy that he's still happy. I know he's doing great. I'm proud of him.

I wondered if we could reconcile, pero mukhang malabo na 'yon mangyari. Even if we do, we won't act around each other the way we did a year ago. Everything will be different.

"Why are you smiling, Anathasia Fleurienne?" Meila asked kaya agad napawi ang ngiti ko dahil alam kong aasarin niya ako.

They all looked at the direction I was looking earlier before turning their gazes back to me with a grin, "Wow, you're eye fucking Kaito? Damn, I thought you like Kazuko?" Mia said while chuckling.

"I'm not eye fucking Kaito, and I don't like Kazuko. We're  just co-parenting Krissha since she wants a Mom," I rolled my eyes.

"Aww, you're so thoughtful." Jaidene said sarcastically.

We then ate merienda and as we were seated at a table, nasa harap ko si Kaito. Hindi naman kami nagkakatinginan pero naiilang ako. But he seems fine, kumportable pa nga siya e. Paano niya 'yon nagagawa?

Sinaktan niya ako tapos nakakayanan niyang tumawa kasama mga kaibigan namin.

"Cheers to Alliyah and Blake!"

We all toasted before drinking champagne. Pagkatapos noon ay tumigil na ang yacht para mag swimming kami. Inayos nila 'yong slide bago maghubad ng mga dress nila. Habang sila ay nageenjoy sa slide, ako naman ay nanatili sa upuan habang pinapanood sila.

I'm still waiting for a call from the Philippines about the papers I sent my secretary. Wala pa kasing feedback or confirmation na nabasa na niya at na-relay sa mga empleyado ko.

"Rienne! Remove your fucking clothes and get your ass here!" Sigaw ni Meila kaya bumuntong hininga ako bago tanggalin sa pagkaka-zipper 'yong dress ko at hinubad. I was left with a yellow two piece bikini that really accentuated my boobs.

Naghiyawan naman sila noong tumungtong ako sa railing. I also noticed him staring at me, I could feel that he was about to drool. That's why umiwas siya ng tingin.

Tumalon ako sa dagat at buti na lang marunong ako lumangoy dahil naka-lutang ako. We stayed there for about thirty minutes before going back up the yacht.

"So when and where's the wedding, Alliyah?" I asked.

We took a shot of tequila first before she answered, "The wedding is in Bali. The date is not yet final but we're sure that it's going to be in three months." Blake answered.

Wow, Bali! I haven't been there yet, kailangan ko na talaga mag travel kung saan saan para naman ma-enjoy ko talaga buhay ko. Sayang ang pera kung hindi ko naman gagastusin!

Noong gumabi na, we played beer pong at lagi akong natatalo! Para namang gago pero okay lang. Masaya naman siya dahil nararamdaman ko na 'yong init sa katawan ko para hindi ako lamigin.

"Rienne, tipsy ka na ba?" Bulong sa akin ni Claire at umiling naman ako kahit kaunti na lang mararamdaman ko na ang tama sa akin noong ininom ko.

"Everyone listen up!" Sumigaw si Claire kaya naman nagulat ako. Lahat naman sila ay tumingin kay Claire. "I am getting married in Greece next week. We will shoulder all the expenses, we just need confirmation that you guys will come."

"Of course we'll come!" Halos sabay sabay nilang bigkas.

After another hour, Kaito came up to the DJ area to play some music and all of Allyah's friends looked at him, wanting him, and it made my blood boil. So I took a Bacardi bottle and drank it without stopping until I felt dizzy enough to go fuck with someone right now.

The music stopped at hinabol ko ng tingin si Kaito. Since I was drunk, I got the courage to follow him... Only to see a girl in front of him that was angled perfectly for him to kiss. Nalaglag ko 'yong boteng hawak ko, dahilan para makuha ko ang atensyon nila.

Noong humarap sa akin 'yong babae, nakilala ko agad ito. It was one of Alliyah's model friends. Agad naman ako tumalikod at nagsimulang maglakad palayo sa kaniya. The tears were falling down from my eyes and my vision was already blurry.

Kinuha ko 'yong isa pang bote sa lamesa bago punasan ang mga luhang patuloy tumutulo. Lahat din ng taong tumawag sa pangalan ko ay iniwasan ko lang. Gusto ko muna mapag-isa sa kuwarto ko.

Naramdaman ko naman na may humawak sa balikat ko kaya hinarap ko ito dahil alam kong si Kaito iyon. "Rienne, I didn't kiss her! She wanted to because she's drunk but I resisted." He started defending himself pero bakit? Wala naman akong pake sa kung sino gusto niyang halikan. Walang kami! There was never an us!

"I don't fucking care, Kaito. Go fuck with them, I don't care." I told him at sinubukang pumiglas sa kaniyang hawak pero walang effect ito.

"Rienne, please maniwala ka naman sa akin?" Doon ako tuluyang naiyak nang sobra.

"Tapos kapag naniwala ako sa 'yo bigla ka na lang ulit mawawala na parang bula? Tangina, Kaito, ayaw ko na ulit mapagdaanan 'yon e!" I cried and he tried getting the other bottle that I was holding pero nilagok ko iyon bago pa niya makuha.

"Kaito, stop playing with my feelings! Hanggang ngayon masakit pa rin iyong ginawa mo sa akin kahit hindi naman naging tayo. Pero pinaramdam mo sa akin mayroon e! You made me feel that I was special—"

"And you were, Fleurienne!"

"Then why'd you have to do that?" I cried before going down on my knees because I was already having a hard time breathing because I was crying.

"I had a reason. If I stayed, I would hurt you even more!" He shouted pero pinikit ko na ang mga mata ko.

"Was I not worth staying for...?" I cried even more, looking hopeful.

"You were."

I smiled  bitterly before wiping the tears from my face, "You left me hanging, Kaito... You left without any goodbye, any proper reason. Nagdesisyon kang iwanan ako noong panahong... Hindi ko kaya saluhin lahat ng problema ko dahil sinanay mo 'kong kasangga kita. Iniwan mo 'ko noong panahong napagtanto ko na mahal na kita!"

I saw the confused and surprised look on his face but I passed  out immediately after.