Now showing private messages between Terroriser and RoastMasterV2

Terroriser: evan

RoastMasterV2: yes?

Terroriser: what's going on over there

RoastMasterV2: in my room? nothing i'm watching netflix on my phone- which you did in fact interrupt

Terroriser: sorry, but no not your room, you, your head, what's going on? are the meds working?

RoastMasterV2: aside from the side effects, everything is working out. only problem is that i feel kind of dissociated from myself, but all meds are like that so nothing i can do

Terroriser: :(( don't think about it like that, ev, just think about how you and i are going to really work hard so that eventually we can get you off those meds

RoastMasterV2: but fixing myself seems like a lot of work, why can't i just let science do it- maybe that's the only way i can find peace

Terroriser: it's not just about finding peace, ev, it's about being happy, and getting a point where you don't need your meds can help with that

RoastMasterV2: you're certainly hopeful

Terroriser: i believe in you

RoastMasterV2: i believe in finishing this episode before midnight so kindly fuck off

Terroriser: just think about what i said

RoastMasterV2: i will, now go, it's getting interesting

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RoastMasterV2: so ive been thinking about what you said

Terroriser: stop trying to put your cereal in the microwave and go back to bed?

RoastMasterV2: no not that you idiot

RoastMasterV2: all that shit you were saying about fixing myself

Terroriser: evan it's not "fixing" it's helping you get better

RoastMasterV2: yeah, also known as fixing anyway so i was thinking

Terroriser: yea and

RoastMasterV2: if i want to fix myself and be happy and all that crap then i should start righting some wrongs, figure out what's been making me sad and fix them

Terroriser: just making some wrongs into some rights, not a fix just a transformation

RoastMasterV2: yea yea whatever let me finish

RoastMasterV2: i think i'm gonna text Craig, set up another meeting with him and tyler, figure everything out, get it all sorted. then, after that's taken care of, i'm gonna meet up with jon and lucas

Terroriser: evan i love that you're doing this but, are you sure about that? i mean, it's not like some stupid issue you have with them, it's a serious problem and no offense but it sounds like you want to apologize to them

RoastMasterV2: i acted irrationally by not letting them say their peace, and that's been eating at me for so long, the least i can do is hear them out, just so i can shut one nagging little voice up

Terroriser: look ev i understand you're reasoning completely, but everything you did was completely rational, don't beat yourself up about it. i'm just concerned about what might happen when you meet with them, what if that one little voice turns into two? or three? seven? fifteen? i don't want you to get hurt

RoastMasterV2: i know you're concerned but isn't that what went through your head when you texted craig? weren't you scared?

Terroriser: sure i was but that was completely different you're dealing with a lot more than unrequited feelings here dude

RoastMasterV2: brian i don't expect you to understand what's going on, but i do expect you to support me here, i told you my plan, you can't change it

Terroriser: i just want to make sure that you know exactly what you're going into here

RoastMasterV2: i know what i'm doing i'm not stupid, i just want to do what you said and better myself so that i can finally live happily without my meds, or at least as close to happy as i can get

Terroriser: evan i support you and your decision, as long as you're safe, and i trust that you will be, and when you're back i'll be here for you, you know that right?

RoastMasterV2: ofc i do brian, you're my best friend ofc you're here for me

Terroriser: always, ev, always

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Now showing private messages between RoastMasterV2 and ChokingIsMyKink

RoastMasterV2: hey are you and tyler free anytime soon? i think it's time we talk about what happened

ChokingIsMyKink: evan, i thought you blocked me?

RoastMasterV2: i did, but i have given the situation a lot of thought and i'm ready to discuss it with the both of you if you are; in person, alone this time

ChokingIsMyKink: i'll have to ask tyler, but i'm sure we could set something up, and we will be alone, evan, we've learned you don't need to tell us

RoastMasterV2: just making sure, can't blame me for having doubts after what happened last time

RoastMasterV2: lemme know when you get an answer from tyler

ChokingIsMyKink: right, of course