i've missed you guys! usually i post on my community tab thingy but i've been refraining lately since i don't want my most recent post to get buried but it's weird not being able to vent to strangers on the internet lol. um, so i got a car over the weekend (i don't have my license yet i'm waiting until i'm 18) and i've been thinking about some things and also i have the weird urge to completely rewrite the Protection From Hell series as an original trilogy, so yeah i might do that. i haven't been writing a lot lately since i've been redoing my room (just need to hang stuff up and general tidiness at this point) but i'm going to try to make some time today :) enjoy the chapter!! tell me theories or just how you guys are :)))

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Fuck Witcha

WildHoe: you guys wanna hang out?

Kryoz: why?

WildHoe: because we're friends? let's go watch a movie or something  ya know?

Moo: oh we're friends now??

Kryoz: ffs dude ofc we are, we have to leave all the drama behind and move on. we can't be friends if we can't move on- it's better that way

Four07: yea sure a movie sounds fine

ChokingIsMyKink: great! so it's settled then, brian isn't coming tho

DaithiDeNoPrivilege: woah woah wait how do you know?

Kryoz: brian and craig are like avoiding each other? right?

WildHoe: they need to work out their issues and the best way for that is for both of them to stay away from each other

Fitz: healing shit hell yeah

Moo: self care hours?

ChokingIsMyKink: shut up

Kryoz: cam? you coming?

Fitz: can't, i'm kind of in australia

Kryoz: i know :) sucks to be an outcast doesn't it?

Fitz: :((

WildHoe: i'll find out the times then? text you guys when i find out

Kryoz: sounds great!

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Now showing private messages between ChokingIsMyKink and Kryoz

ChokingIsMyKink: please :(((

Kryoz: he told you he wanted to heal and the next fucking day you're hitting me up like this?? what the fuck are you on

ChokingIsMyKink: i just- hes our friend too, he should be invited at least :(

Kryoz: we're not inviting evan, because you and tyler made him mad for whatever the fucking reason, and you don't seem to have a problem with that but you have a problem with not inviting Brian after he explicitly stated that he was trying to distance himself for a while? he's not coming, i'm not texting him, deal with it

ChokingIsMyKink: the thing with evan is bc i know he doesn't want to talk to me or tyler after what happened- or even see us tbh

Kryoz: then why is brian different?

ChokingIsMyKink: bc he doesn't hate us and he's our friend!

Kryoz: or is it because you don't want him to fall out of love with you? you think that keeping his feelings the way they are might come in handy later on if everything goes to shit later on?

ChokingIsMyKink: im not a monster, that's not what i'm saying at all. i'm saying that i want to invite him because he's a pleasure to be with

Kryoz: i know this is hard for you too bc you still have feelings for him too but you can't be like this

ChokingIsMyKink: this has nothing to do with feelings, this has to do with friendship

Kryoz: friendship is a feeling

ChokingIsMyKink: please just invite him. if he says no he says no but please for the love of god invite him

Kryoz: craig.

ChokingIsMyKink: please.

Kryoz: even if i do invite him, and he says yes, your plan won't go as anticipated. surely you know that right? for one, you're a terrible planner, and for two, brian doesn't like him, craig, he loves you

ChokingIsMyKink: if you invite him and he says yes then my plan was a success idk what you mean

Kryoz: you can't make him fall for tyler too just because you want them both, craig. get over him and move on, or dump tyler and move on from both of them. you can't have this craig, you just can't

ChokingIsMyKink: you know how you don't realize how badly you need something in your life until it's gone?

Kryoz: don't change the subject

ChokingIsMyKink: that's how it feels without him, john, please. just this one time. if he says yes, then i'll stop and i'll move on, promise. please

Kryoz: i don't get guilt tripped, craig. no means no

ChokingIsMyKink: what do you want? i'll do anything, /anything/ just name it fucking name it john what do you want

Kryoz: you don't have anything i want

ChokingIsMyKink: please literally name anything even if it's the most obscure bullshit you can think of i'll do it, i'll get it, i will do whatever you want just do this one thing please

Kryoz: this is the most pathetic thing you've ever done

ChokingIsMyKink: please

Kryoz: i don't even know if i want to go anymore honestly

ChokingIsMyKink: even more reason to invite brian!

Kryoz: stop. just fucking stop. you're embarrassing yourself craig. this one conversation has made me lose more respect for you than anything else you've ever fucking done. just stop. i'm not going to do it. not because i hate you or because i want to be difficult but because brian made a tough, mature decision when he texted you- he chose to confront you, express his concerns, and tell you what the fuck he was going to do about it. he's been broken up about this shit for months and when he finally makes a choice to better himself you come crawling to me, begging me to chance him ruining this opportunity. you have a boyfriend who understands what you're going through- i bet tyler still has some kind of feelings for me which is fine because he knows where we stand with one another- and is still with you despite that, but what would he say if he saw how desperate you were to see your ex? this is pathetic craig, seriously.

ChokingIsMyKink: look john im really sorry, but you have to understand. or at least i thought you would, but you're right. you're not going to do it

ChokingIsMyKink: but you're not the only one in the groupchat

Kryoz: if you want to embarrass yourself to somebody else that's fine with me, it's your life and your relationship at risk. do whatever the fuck you want, my conscious is clear

ChokingIsMyKink: you're really not gonna do it? for me?

Kryoz: no, why don't you go ask someone else?

ChokingIsMyKink: i just thought you'd be the one to understand how important it is to keep the group dynamic alive- evan is already out and now you're willing to let brian go too?

Kryoz: evan is only out because of whatever the fuck you and tyler did, and honestly i'm surprised it took this long for your actions to finally get to him because he hasn't even told me what happened

ChokingIsMyKink: i could tell you

Kryoz: no, it's not my business. i don't need to know

ChokingIsMyKink: but you want to, don't you? it's just how you are, you have to know, you just have to, theres this itching need to know everything that goes on in the group right? every little tid bit, every quarrel, anything remotely interesting you /have/ to know you know you should stop, but you can't, you just have to, thats how you feel. i understand completely.

Kryoz: i don't need to know, that's your shit to deal with

ChokingIsMyKink: you love fixing things, even when you're not the one who caused it you love to fix things, that's why you have to know

Kryoz: i don't have to know

ChokingIsMyKink: i could tell you, john. i could tell you everything that happened. and you can help me fix it. you can solve another problem, i just have to tell you.

Kryoz: no.

ChokingIsMyKink: all i ask in return is just a small favor, a tiny thing really

ChokingIsMyKink: you just have to invite brian