Witness-Protection Program

The name of the chat has been changed to R.I.P.E

R.I.P.E

ChokingIsMyKink: guess it's official, huh?

WildHoe: guess so

WildHoe: am I the only one who feels empty?

BirthingCoach: empty doesn't even begin to describe how I feel

FuckBoi: I feel so incomplete

Legiqn: same actually

Zoyrk: I think we all feel empty and incomplete to some extent

Lui: ^^^^^^

Four07: ^^^^^

Four07: I don't think I've cried that much in my whole life

Legiqn: Lucas could barely walk in there

FuckBoi: he's really dead, isn't he?

BirthingCoach: he is, Lucas, he really is

BirthingCoach: and we really were all sat in a circle around his bed crying our eyes out for four hours straight

BirthingCoach: yes guys, he is really gone

ChokingIsMyKink: I'm so glad we didn't pull back the sheet they put over his face, I don't think I could look at his face

BirthingCoach: same I was crying hard enough

WildHoe: how did u not pass out???

BirthingCoach: idk

Zoyrk: what if he's not really dead?

WildHoe: Lucas it's too soon stop being disrespectful

Zoyrk: we have to have hope, guys

Zoyrk: like we said, this is evan we're talking about

Zoyrk: he wouldn't want us to be sad or miserable, he'd want us to be happy

Zoyrk: so being happy to me means figuring out the most impossible shit

Zoyrk: if he is alive, I will figure out how

BirthingCoach: John, you can't fix this more than anyone else here can

BirthingCoach: Evan's dead, okay? He hung himself and slashed open his arms because none of us could see how bad his depression was getting, there is no fixing this John

BirthingCoach: we can't change it, he's gone

FuckBoi: why would he leave us?

BirthingCoach: he was scared

BirthingCoach: his depression and anxiety got worse and worse and it scared him because he was hurting so bad

BirthingCoach: I hope he's somewhere where there's no pain, somewhere where he can eat Chick-fil-A and sushi all day long, somewhere where he's happy

BirthingCoach: I just want him to be happy

FuckBoi: we could've made him happy

Legiqn: Jon is right, we can't live in denial. Evan has passed and now we have to try to move on and keep his memory in our hearts

ChokingIsMyKink: I hope he's happy, wherever he is

Moo: Evan, if you can read this

Moo: thank you for everything you've done for us, we'll never forget you <3

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LuKe: y is this chat so dead???

LuKe: Evan look about what I said to you, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it

LuKe: I don't hate you, I'm jealous that you make Jon so happy, I'm jealous of how quickly you can make him smile

LuKe: i hate you because you're a better best friend than I am

LuKe: Evan don't ignore me I'm sorry

Jon: shut up luke

LuKe: Jon?

Jon: what?

LuKe: how's Evan?

Jon: dead

LuKe: what happened? Did Chick-fil-A close as you got there or something?

LuKe: did you crack a really funny joke?

Jon: no luke

Jon: Evan killed himself right before I got to his place, he's dead

JigglyKoala: omg Jon I'm so sorry

ohMNOM: dude that sucks I'm so so sorry

BryceTimDs: if there's anything we can do for you just tell us

Jon: I want Evan back

Jon: I just want to kiss him one last time, want to see him smile one last time, I just want him for one more day

LuKe: I talked a lot of shit, but I never wanted this, you know that right?

LuKe: like I said earlier, I don't hate him, I'm not mad at him

LuKe: I was jealous that you spent all your attention on him, but he made you happy so I dealt with it

LuKe: you're my best friend, I'd never want you to get hurt

LuKe: I never wanted him dead

BryceTimDs: Ik babe, but I think Jon needs to be alone right now, so he can process things

Jon: if I just had five extra minutes, I could have saved him

Jon: if my flight hadn't been delayed for half an hour, he would still be here

BryceTimDs: Jon it's not your fault

Jon: I could've saved him Bryce if I hadn't been so stupid

Jon: I knew his depression was getting worse and yet I still waited too long to get a plane ticket

Jon: I thought texts were going to help him, stupid pictures and jokes were going to save him from destroying himself, but I was wrong

Jon: they didn't save him, I didn't save him

Jon: I let him destroy himself, guys

Jon: and I'll never forgive myself for that