Reason: Religion

Kimi was a childhood friend, someone who I never thought was an option for me to date. One of those friends who promised to grow old together and shit talk about each others relationships. I never had feelings for her till I came back to town after living across the country. I looked her up hoping she didn't change her number. She agreed to see me, I decided not to look her up on social media so I could be surprised. We met in front of my old house. I saw this girl approach me, she was beautiful. Absolutely gorgeous. I smiled and then looked away when she was about to pass me, but she stopped. She laughed and said I hadn't changed a bit. I freaked out! It was Kimi.

I had it bad for her. Everything from my heart racing to sweaty palms.

She was the fitness instructor at the local gym. A personal trainer which I thought was funny for the fact that she hated PhysEd as kids. She was sweet and humble as always. She never could get out of this town. She said she's always had a thing for me. She wasn't the type to beat around the bush. I was really really happy. Happier than I've been for a while.

Something else was different she got into religion. Fell in deep;  hard core. She said it saved her life and she's grateful for everything she's learned. I couldn't relate. Sure she didn't bring it up often but when she did, it would be whenever something good happened. Like I didn't surprise her because I loved her. Everything I did; according to her was "god's plan." I couldn't take credit for anything.

I stayed in town for a year due to my job. I couldn't transfer for a while. My boss was waiting for a new location to finish construction.  She and I seemed to fight more and more as time when on. I refused to go to church on Sunday, because on Saturday I would work an all nighter. She said that excuse wouldn't cut it. I would fall asleep in Mass and she would jab me to keep me awake. After a while I swore that the bruises on my ribcage would be permanent. I would turn off my phone and make sure my door was locked with the chain on Saturday nights before I went to bed so she could let me sleep.

I needed relaxation, she was making me a generally angry minded person. I went to a spa every Monday and Friday. Just for the hot tub and the massages. They brought in a new manager from a partner spa the next town over. She was called the queen of relaxation. She seemed was ok. She looked super average. Short black hair, brown eyes, light tan skin. I found out that she had interest in me. Soon my spa trips became free. As I started coming in almost everyday to see her.

Things quickly developed and it became more and more lustful "personal" sessions. Having sex with her became a regular Tuesday and Thursday activity. I've never felt more relaxed than with her, though she also said this had to be a secret. She didn't want to loose her job, license or her boyfriend. I understood. So I told her it'd be best to cut down our time together back to once or twice a week and she agreed. After 2 months of weekly visits. Kimi demanded I tell her what was going on. I never lied about going the spa. Though she said the lord told her something was wrong. I couldn't take it anymore. I begged my boss to transfer me. He said next week the construction should be wrapping up, and I could be transferred there in 2 weeks. That at least eased me for a moment.

Now I could have broken up with her but I new it would backfire quickly. She new everyone in town and her reputation was excellent. If I didn't want to be an outcast in my own home town I needed to leave town before I ended it. So that's what I did. I suffered through one last mass and called her as I drove out of town. I told her that got had a different plan for me. She cried and said, "NO God made her for me!"

I just sighed and said, "maybe god's wrong." That made her livid. I just let her rant as I pulled into a rest stop. I dropped the bomb and told her that I was cheating on her so she could get over me faster. She paused. I heard her hang up and that was that. I never heard from her again and I felt my body just relax.

I cheated for the relaxation, relief, and my mental stability. I knew being with her any longer would have broken me. I would have lost my mind. She was just so aggressive. I checked up on her through a mutual friend and he said when I left she was a wreck. Thou it didn't last long. She became a youth pastor, has her own charity, and began dating a great guy who was just as passionate for the lords words as she was. I'm glad she bounced back.