[Intended as a part 2 to "Valentine's Dance", but I have written it such that it can be read separately...]

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Sometimes one phrase or a simple word can do such wonders -
A few syllables can turn into a life altering thought and those thoughts can turn into moments conjuring epiphany after epiphany after epiphany - they start to make you think of the stars that are reflected in someone else's eyes every night - then they take you a bit farther, past your moon, where Gods of all sorts thrive - past purple giants and monstrosities and endless skies - past bursting colours and endless beauty - then it brings you back to one single inevitable question -

10:00PM

You:
Are you a fucking gnat?

Loki:
What?

You are offline

Okay so, that may have not have been the big question, but it certainly was part of it. We'll get to that later.

So you may notice that obliviousness engulfs the smartest of us in these situations. Foolishness gets the best of us.

What am I going on about?

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Chat recipients: Quill, Rocket, Gamora, Thor, Bucky, Steve, Tinny

11:14PM

Quill:
Do you know how you know you're in love

Rocket:

Bro

You:
Do you have to know?

You:
Why do you always have to know?

Quill:
okay jeez

Quill:
I was actually going to tell you about this puppy I saw but thanks for going all existential on me

Gamora:
what do you mean, though?

You:
I see so many people ruining what they have just because one or the other couldn't say three words to prove themselves, or people giving up on potential shots at happiness just because they're afraid someone won't "love them back" or whatever

You:
Or some people are just afraid of the whole concept, you know

Rocket:
"This is not making sense" -Groot

You:
That's great!

Rocket:
"What"

Rocket:
-Groot

You:
No, that's great, because why should everything have to make sense right away?
I'm sure this is not the first time you're hearing something like this.

You:
Like, it's not hard to just, take the chance you know

Steve Rogers:
I hear you.

Bucky:
Maybe you won't understand, hun, but there's something called a "brain" that gets in the way

You:
Oh look who finally learnt how to use quotation marks but I think YOU'RE MISSING THE POINT, BARNES

Bucky:
Are you sexually frustrated?

Bucky:
There's so many ways to fix that.

Tinny:
For once, I can agree with Barnes

Thanos:
STOP IT YOU ASSHOLES, SHE IS TRYING TO MAKE A POINT.

You:
Aw Thanos, if you hadn't tried to obliterate half the world I'd love you right now :')

Bucky:
Jokes aside, darling

Bucky:
It's natural to feel nervous when you really care about something and you're afraid of screwing it up

Bucky:
Also, you're one of the smartest people I've met. You should know that people can't have the exact same mentality

Bucky:
And I think when you're intensely conflicted bout something, you often start ranting about issues like this without the realisation that different people react in different ways. Two people in the same situation can have an insanely separate perceptions of what's happening or what will happen, this can apply to anyone. Also in your case, when you're advancing towards any relationship with a hint of intimacy.

Bucky:
Somethin like that.

Bucky:
Oh yes, I forgot to add - either when you're gravely conflicted OR sexually frustrated, the latter of which I've mentioned a fix to...

Bucky:
I mean sexually or not, you're definitely frustrated

Sam:
man, when did you become such a sage?

Bucky:
You spend 100 years in ice, buddy. you'll know then.

Steve:
Word.

Rocket:
Yikes -Groot

Gamora:
I feel like there's a very specific objective behind what you're trying to say ...

You:
Everything you're saying is making sense, Buck

You:
But I just was hoping that adulthood brought some sense of maturity to people when it comes to issues of this sort

You:

Freaking cowards don't want to own up to their damn feelings and just sulk in the corner about "unrequited love" when they haven't even tried giving it a SHOT

Quill:
With all due respect, sweetheart

Quill:
Isn't that what you're doing right now?

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You left
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11:35PM

Bucky created a new group

Bucky added You

Bucky added Thor

Thor:
I have informed my brother that you have been very pissed off by him.

You:
Oh god.

Thor:
My hopes can only be that he will take a good guess at what he's doing wrong.

Thor:
Which is, everything.

Bucky:
But ya can't always pin it on one person can you? Don't think so. Everyone should be clearer with what they want.

Bucky:
World would be a better place like that.

Clint added himself to the chat

Bucky:
HOW THE FUCK IS THAT POSSIBLE

Clint:
tell Loki he's being a dumb bitch and take him out, ray

Bucky:
HOW THE FUCK DID YOU DO THAT

Clint:
good luck babe

Bucky:
BARTON THIS IS A PRIVATE CONVERSATION

Clint:
This is a world of technology, barnes. nothin's private.

Clint left

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LOKI
online

Loki:
I have heard some things.

You:
Why do you always have to act after you've heard some things

You:
Don't you have impulses

...

Loki:
Look, there have admittedly been some misunderstandings. (Largely including my strange assumption that you were oddly infatuated with Steve Rogers...)

Loki:
And I could deny everything, but at this point I do believe it is nothing less than completely obvious and out in the open.

Loki:
But I am not going to apologise. There isn't a reason for me to.

You:
I never wanted an apology

...

You:
Actually. Let me discard my angst. I see what's happening.

You:
It isn't your fault and I'm glad you know that

You:
'Cuz I should've been clearer with what I wanted too.

Nothing ever works out unless both sides of the story are clear.

Loki:
Yes.

You:
Okay.

You:
So, I'm just going to say

You:
Just so you know, it has recently occurred to me that you don't always have to think about what's going to happen after. I mean, people will love to talk shit about their exes, even when some of them don't deserve it - but needless to say, we shouldn't start off being scared that it's going to end. Because even if it does, for whatever reason, we'll be able to say we took our fucking shot at happiness and made had some of the best moments of our lives. And I'll never deny those moments. So.

Loki:
...

Loki:
We don't have to know if we're going the right thing all the time, I suppose.

You:
Exactly, we don't have to

Loki:
Okay.

You:
Yeah.

Loki:
Great.

Loki:
So we are fucking shit up

Loki:
But now we are doing it together

You:
That's one way to say it

Loki:
Next thing you know, we have a pet snake.

You:
There goes the deep conversation :')

Loki:
;)

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Group Chat Recipients: Thor, Bucky, Clint

Loki:
An update.

Loki:
We are getting a python.

Loki:
His name shall be Augustus.

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A note. There isn't a particular conclusion to the story. And I've lost the initial big question. But that's okay. Are you confused? I hope not. I initially started by trying not to vent about situations like this. It frustrated me. But I was hoping to communicate a gist of something at the very least. Communication. I somewhat was hoping I could communicate communication?
I DON'T KNOW. This was a bit different and I feel it may not be the usual way I'll continue, I'll try to make it more fun or energetic in the following ones - and possibly not making it originate from an angst-ridden rant.

Wish you well!