chasing the midnight song. ︱ © siiverveils , 2024

I am the face of loves rage

PART OF ME DIED IN ORDER TO SURVIVE – I MAY GROW AGAIN, BUT I'LL NEVER BE THE SAME

Holly Grayson had been thirteen when the world gutted her. Her family had been ripped away from her. Richard had promised her, promised, he would always be there. It was a standard promise brothers made to their little sisters. But all his promises unraveled the night he became their everything: parent, protector, savior. He vanished into the world of street races and danger when the state took her away due to his age. He was just shy of being seventeen and was nowhere near being able to be her legal guardian, no state offical would allow the responsibility on him just yet.

Desperation became his compass and he turned to the city's underground maze. Where cars weren't just vehicles, but rather an extension of the driver. Each customized to roar louder, move faster, and be more. He slipped into a world that would dig its claws into him and never let go. The sound of tire screeches and the smell of gasoline became his sanctuary as he raced for every cashout he could get, at the risk of losing everything. But time wasn't on his side and the clock kept ticking to bring Holly home - that is, until Bruce Wayne. He was a beacon, but one with a price. He offered Dick a way to get Holly but at a cost: loyalty in exchange for family, servitude disguised as salvation.

Dick took the deal, each day binding him further to Bruce's shadowed world. For years, he ran jobs and did Bruce's bidding, all for Holly. He paid his dues until his heart had a change and he vowed to get on the straight path, to try to leave the life Bruce had carved out for him - to build a life away from the dark streets and neon lights.

But those beacons had pulled Holly into the same world.

Then, there was him. Jason Todd. He was a storm to be reckoned with. A kid whose anger mirrored her own. His hurt was a flame she couldn't look away from. For a while, he was everything. Her world lost color only to gain it again when he was there. The only person who knew how deep her wounds ran.

He was her confidant, her refuge, and in ways she didn't understand then, her savior.

Jason was as haunted as Dick, lost in the world Bruce brought them into. A world that pulled him in, chewed him up and spat him back out into pieces Holly could barely recognize. Still, Jason saw her for what she was, her fury, and wore his own with pride. Together they were electric. Until the world that brought them together tore them apart.

Jason couldn't understand her brother's choice to becoming a cop, to betray the life they had adapted to and he left with bitter words that hollowed her out once more.

Jason was more than just Jason. He was her anchor and her ruin. Loving him was like drowning herself in grief, knowing it would only pull her under. And maybe that's why it hurt her so much to lose them both. They both disappeared into the new masks they wore, away from the life that Bruce gave them. And in every shadowed memory, she's left wondering if the men she loved were only ever ghosts.

HOLLY GRAYSON 
you are my citadel, you are my wishing well

JASON TODD
make me love myself so that i might love you

i. AUTHORS NOTE: this is an AU so not everything in the canon, will be followed here. please be kind to all the characters, DC, and oc. trigger warning for violence, emotional abuse, assault, suicide ideation, oppression, death and other items in this manner.

𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐝𝐯𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐝

ii. DISCLAIMER: DC is not my own nor any other character! all rights are reserved to their respective creators! Holly Grayson and her story are of my own.

iii. DEDICATIONS: The biggest one to charley (sealines ) for helping me review my prologue — love that you love <3 To Em! (superpink24 ) for my cover! Literally cant stop staring and wont stop staring at it! To Doha (goldenveils ) for hearing the plot and working out a few things with me — swear im not evil! just realistic. To Sammie (kinaiiya) for letting me use your prologue formatting hehe. And without further ado, Kenn (RedRoots ) for always asking and being Watchtowers biggest voice in getting Jason Todd fics. This ones for you!

Further dedications to teabeIl sectxmsemmpra keupid gryzons and the rest of the server <33