i miss the feel
of your shower wet hair
on my chest
in the middle of the night
and your arms around my body
and you kiss me and hold me
to sleep

i miss the comfort we had
on that new years eve night
with your starkly sweet cologne
and the rain at the windows
and your dog in between us
watching affection grow

i miss it being carefree
something we haven't had
as of late
but when i truly think about it
i begin to wonder
were we ever really carefree at all?