Raheenah sighed and engulfed Mufida into a hug with a small smile plastered on her lips. She came here to tell Mufida the good news but the way things turned out, it surely isn't the right time to say anything.

Mufida broke out of the hug and wiped her tears. "Stop pitying me Heenah, I deserve whatever I'm going through right now..." she cried. "I deserve it, I deserve it..." she kept repeating it and slapping herself, Raheenah was quick to hold her hands.

"What are you doing?!!"Raheenah yelled, she was beyond angry. "Forget all these and enjoy the littlest of things in your life right now, live to the fullest, forget about your past and move on. You just got married a few days ago, let go, just let everything go."

Mufida stared at Raheenah as if she was making any sense out of whatever she was saying and shook her head.

"How...can...I...enjoy the littlest...things in my life..with this guilt buried deep within me?...how will I forget about my past...when it's always hunting me?...how can I move on when almost...everything around me...reminds me of...my dreadful past?..it's not easy to let things go Heenah, it might be easy for other people but not for me...I lost that gleam of hope a long ago...I'm just living my life and going with the flow, but sometimes everything takes a toll on me and I break down...I'm not as strong as a rock...to be able to handle everything, this is real life, not reel life when everything goes according to how you want it to...I can't erase my past... it still lives inside me.."

Raheenah was quiet, she was speechless, the fact that what Mufida said is right made her run out of words, completely.

Mufida chuckled and tilted her head away. "I know...I know what you're thinking Heenah, stop trying to make me forget my past.." she sniffed. "It's getting late....you should go."

"I'm not going anywhere until you're okay.."Raheenah argued, worried.

"I'm fine, I'm okay.." she lied, wiping away the tears and faking a smile at Raheenah. "I just want to be alone, lost in my thoughts maybe I can find myself."

If you'll look deeply into the matter then you'll know that Mufida is still depressed, somehow she needs help. If you've a long deep conversation with her you'll know better. She looks okay from the outside but inside she's deeply hurt. She wakes up every day hiding her scars from everyone to not burden them with her pain.

Raheenah have a slight nod and picked up her phone. "Whenever you're ready to talk, I'll be there....just give me a call."Mufida nodded with a slight smile and Raheenah left, closing the door slowly.

As she was expecting, Hisham was standing near the staircase, his chin resting on his palm, he was looking pale.

"You're lucky you had nothing to do with this," Raheenah stated, not looking him in the eye.

Hisham ignored her, all he wanted was to see his wife and how she is doing, and he'll only get to do that after Raheenah leaves.

Seeing that he ignored her, she sighed and left.

Finally! He uttered making his way to Mufida's room. Before he could even say his tasleem she cut him off.

"I want to be alone." she stuttered staring at the window, without even sparing him a glance.

Mufida is stubborn he knows that very well, so he did as she said. "As you wish." and he left.

•

The next morning the same thing happened, he even prepared breakfast for her thinking she'd be happy with it, but she shunned him away and repeated what she said to him the other day. "I want to be alone."

He did as she said again, not wanting to be too pushy or anything. He's just worried about her and the fact that she hasn't eaten anything since the breakfast she had yesterday worries him even more. He took the breakfast back to the kitchen and rested his back on the counter.

They should've told him before he gave out her dowry that Mufida is too complicated and stubborn, then he wouldn't have opted to marry her. He didn't sign up for this mess.

Exiting from the kitchen, he heard his phone ringing that was when he remembered he had left the phone on the tray inside the kitchen, he hissed quietly before getting back into the kitchen. Baba was the one calling him, he sighed surely knowing why his father is calling him so early in the morning.

"Were you avoiding my calls?"his father questioned, after exchanging pleasantries.

"No..."he lied, shaking his head.

"Whatever it is, you should meet me in the office on Monday at 8am sharp, don't be late."with that he hung up the phone.

He sighed, and felt like smashing the phone against the wall, everything going around him is frustrating him, he is so damn tired fr!

It didn't take long for another call to come in, he hissed loudly, without even looking at the caller he answered the call and Raheenah's angry voice yelled directly into his ear, he had to take the phone away from his ear and looked at the caller before deciding to reply back her question.

"Mufida is in her room, I just checked and she is fine."

"Thank goodness."Raheenah muttered feeling a little bit relieved. "Wait....she is still in her room?"she questioned and he hummed in response. "Since when?"

"Yesterday, since you left."he reply was short.

"Oh my Allah, she hasn't eaten anything I'm sure of it. Hisham are you sure you're okay? Are you trying to starve her or what? Wallahi bakada hankali."she hissed shaking her head.

"Did you ask me if I've tried giving her food or not before assuming things? And please don't shout at me."

Raheenah chuckled lightly the audacity of this guy. "Oh wow Hisham just wow! I understand that you were forced into this marriage, but you said you love Mufida is this what you meant by love?"

Hisham was quiet.

"If you really don't want Mufida to start getting more suspicious after the message she received then go back to her room, and insist that she eats and if she refuses feed her yourself, that's exactly what Haidar would've done."

Hisham was sure he heard something about Mufida receiving a message, and he got more curious about it that he had to ask. "What message?"

"You don't need to know. Just do as I said and don't call me up to ask about the message."with that she ended the call.

What I've I gotten myself into? He asked no one in particular but himself.

This is just the second day of their marriage and he is already tired. He really do love Mufida but when she chose Haidar over him, he gave up everything, he wanted her to be happy, and he also wanted his brother to be happy, so he tried to let go of everything, his feelings and so much more. Even though he couldn't really get her off his mind, even the mere thought of Mufida getting married to someone else pained him deeply, and that doesn't mean he wasn't happy for Haidar.

In fact, he was the happiest thus he insisted on Haidar getting the surgery but he refused, he tried to convince him a month before the wedding but he couldn't convince Haidar.

Snapping out his thoughts, he went back to the kitchen and picked up the tray again. He looked at the tray and the exit then heaved a long sigh. "Wish yourself luck Hisham, you've no one."with that he went directly to Mufida's room and knocked on the door and called out to her.

Mufida squinted her eyes and yawned, her eyes all puffy, which clearly shows she didn't get enough sleep. Sighing she got her tired self off the bed and walked carelessly to check who is here to disturb her peace again.

"I said I want to be alone Haidar, let me be."she was about to shut the door when he used his elbow to stop her.

He shook his head at her. "Not this time Mufida, I won't listen to you..."and she finally allowed him to get in. "I brought breakfast."he smiled at her, and she rolled her eyes and sat down beside him on the bed.

"I'm not hungry."she replied curtly.

He shook his head at her again. "I'm not leaving you alone until you finish this food, you haven't eaten anything since yesterday, I'm worried sick about you."

"Why do you care?"she shot at him, with a daring look.

Ya Ilahi!

Hisham felt like pulling his head off at that moment. What do women really want??? I care b'cause I love her is that so hard to understand?

He held her hands and rubbed them slowly, looking deeply into her eyes he said. "I care b'cause you mean a lot to me, how do you expect me to not get worried when you haven't eaten anything since yesterday and you've been in your room all day? Apart from my love for you...I'm also a human being you know."

An unknown smile appeared on her lips, she couldn't hold it in. "Ohhh the sweet words again. Whatever you say Haidar."

"Now open up...."

She hesitated before finally opening up so he can feed her.

"So...."he smirked. "How is it?"

She glared at him and said. "Uhmm not bad."

They both laughed.

Assalamu Alaikum guyysssss

How are y'all doing?

It has been long gaskiya kam I won't lie 🥲 I'm so sorry I don't think that'll be enough to make you guys forgive me.

But wallah I've been so busy with school, just finished my exams last week and I was so exhausted but I finally got the time to write down this chapter not easy but I did. Finally I'm starting to get rid of my laziness 😂

How was the chapter???

I feel so bad for both of them fr they're going through a lot, but it'll all be over that's what we are hoping for right? 💀

Byesssssss

Ria