"Do any of ya'll know where Ponyboy is?" I ask as I walk into the house.

"Upstairs," Soda answers.

I smile slightly, "thanks Pepsi!"

"No problem Brooke," he smirks as I run upstairs to see Ponyboy sitting at his desk writing.

"Whatcha writing about?" I ask him.

"The last week or so," he smiles.

"Hey do you mind leaving me out of it?" I ask him frowning a little bit.

"Why?" He asks.

"I wasn't a big part of what happened," I sigh. "Just write it about the boys."

He sighs loudly, "if that's what you want, but you were a big part without you Jo-"

"Johnny and Dally wouldn't be dead!" I snap. "I know I killed them! I killed my two best friends!"

He puts his hand on my shoulder calming me down, "I'll write you out, but you should really read it so far."

He hands me a few pages and I smile slightly, "thank you." (A/N everything italicized is Pony's book)

The girl of my dreams walks into my house with her wavy hair down as she smiles widely, "hey Brooke!" The whole gang yells. We all love her, she's the one thing that keeps us all together. She's the reason we're a family, well her and Johnny. They're the glue that sticks us together.

"Hello boys," she smiles as she plops down next to me making my heart flutter, I guess you could say I have a small crush on her, okay a big crush on her, but I don't understand how you couldn't. She's so perfect.

"Hey Brookie," I wink at her using our nickname.

She smirks before replying with my nickname, "hey Pookie."

Soda sits next to Brooke ready to tease us, "aweee. Look at the two love birds!"

Brooke rolls her eyes clearly annoyed, "shut up!"

"Whatever lovers," he snickers.

"Where's your princess Sandy?" She asks making kissy faces at him. Brooke and Soda have always been super close, they even dated once, but I don't think it was a big deal.

"At a lake with her family," he shrugs

"Fun,"She says in her normal sarcastic voice. "Johnnycakes wanna go for a walk with me?"

"Sure thing Brooke," he smiles widely

"Hey Jones!" Dally yells for her. They used to be best friends, but now they hate each other and I have no idea why.

She looks over to him annoyed. She wouldn't be annoyed if it was anybody, but Dally "what do you want Winston"

"Keep Johnny safe ya hear?" He scolds her as if she just let him get jumped.

"I ain't gonna let nothing touch Johnny now lay off Winston," she yells at him walking out making sure to slam the door on her way out.

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Johnny and Brooke walk into my house holding hands. Anger boils in my blood and I cringe in anger. How could he? How could he do this to me? I feel as if my heart had just been shattered into a million different pieces.

"Aweee!" Two-bit yells slurring his words as he chugs down the rest of his beer. "Are the two lovebirds back together."

"We all knew this day would come little Brookie," Steve says as he slings his arm around her shoulders ."The secrets out."

I try to contain myself, but I can't so I just run upstairs. "Pookie!" I hear Brooke yell after me.

Thump!

Thump!

Thump!

"What was that?" She asks as she walks into my room slamming the door behind her.

"Shouldn't you be asking your boyfriend?" I roll my eyes in annoyance.

"I'm not dating Johnny! He was my first love and my best friend that's it! God dammit Ponyboy! Why do you always think something going on?" She screams in my face.

"Because it's you and Johnny! It's not just any two people it's you and Johnny!" I remind her.

"Well then why aren't you jealous of Sodapop?" she asks. "We've had history too!"

"Not nearly as much!" I fire back. "You guys went on two dates and kissed a few times."

"We also slept together! Did you know that. God Ponyboy, you're making this so difficult!" She screams. Wait! She slept with Sodapop! She had sex with my brother! Who else did she sleep with, that I don't know about? Darry? Steve? Dally? Where do the lies end and truth begin,

"What we're not even a thing!" I yell trying to keep my cool. "Wait! You slept with my brother? He's sixteen!"

"We're only two years apart," she shrugs as if it's no big deal. "You slept with Cherry and she's sixteen. What does it matter?"

"He's my brother!" I remind her.

"Yea and?" She asks not having any idea why it's wrong. "We're not even a thing! You're just my best friend!"

I wince as she says that. That was just cold, "you're right. I don't matter to you so go be with Johnny and the gang! Just forget about me Brooklyn!"

"Don't do this too me Ponyboy!" She pleads angrily.

"Do what?" I ask holding back tears, but it doesn't stop my voice from cracking. "We're not a couple. It doesn't matter."

"God Ponyboy why are you doing this?" Her voice now cracks too showing she's at her breaking point.

"Do what?" I ask slowly trying not to cry.

"Make me choose between you and love," She informs me not forgetting to sigh, putting on a show. "I can't love you. We can't be in a relation!"

"Can't or won't?" I huff.

"Can't!" She screams at me.

"And why is that?" I ask anger laced in my voice.

"Because Ponyboy it can ruin everything! Just look at me and Dallas!" She yells breaking as tears streaming down her face at this point, but the only thing I can think of is the fact that she lied to me once again. She had a thing with Dally and nobody knew. "I'm just trying to protect you Ponyboy, but you're too ignorant to see what I'm doing! You're too busy throwing a damn pity party for yourself, you're just like Darry I swear!"

"I ain't nothing like Darry," I yell at my breaking point now, not caring what happens to her anymore. She can just see her way out the door for all I care.

"Is that the only damn thing you got out of that? This is why we are never gonna happen Ponyboy fucking Curtis!" She yells still crying, and I know being her best friend I should care, but I just don't.

The door swings open exposing Darry standing there with an angry look on his face, "get out!"

"W-w-what?"She stutters sadly and now I feel bad for her, but there's nothing I can do now.

"Get the hell out of this house and don't even think about coming back!" Darry yells as his eyes blare with anger.

A few tears stream down her perfect face, but she doesn't miss a beat wiping away every single one as soon as they fall and I release I really messed it up, "gladly. I'm so over this!"

"Over what?" I ask through gritted teeth trying to at angry, but I'm just broken at this point.

"YOU! Dallas! Darry! YOU! I'm just done!" She says as tears stream down her face.

Darry walks over to her hovering over her, "leave now or else I swear I'll hit you so hard you'll be in China town!"

Her nose twitches with anger and I know this isn't gonna end well, "last time I checked, you can't threaten a fourteen year old."

He lifts his hand up, but before he could move it down Sodapop yanks her arm slapping her right across the face extremely heard and I hear a bang against the wall. Was that her? Is she dead? I look over to see that Darry hit the wall so hard it put a whole through and I'm so revealed. I turn my attention back to Brooke to see her hand fly up to her cheek she rubs it blinking back tears before turning to me, "see what you did."

"I didn't do this it was all you!"I yell back to anger, but still feeling bad for her. She keep her head held high as she walked out of my house. This might be the last time I see her.

"Do you think she'll ever come back?" I ask miserably breaking the silence in the room. All the heads in the gang snaps to me. It's been like this since she walked out of the house three days ago. The gang all sitting her silence the only noise coming from the T.V. and whenever somebody talks everybody just stares. "Do you think Brooke will ever come back?"

"I don't know buddy," Soda sighs loudly. "She was my best friend."

"Well she wouldn't be gone if you didn't slap her!" Dally snaps. Even he's devastated by the lost of Brooklyn.

"Hey it was better me then Darry," Soda jumps in.

"She wouldn't be as hurt if Darry did it!" Dally fires back.

"And why is that?" Soda asks as anger flickers in his eyes.

"Because you were her best friend," he speaks slowly.

"What about you Dally, you weren't so innocent in this either?" Soda snaps back at Dally.

"What the hell did I have to do with this?" Dally asks as he throws his hand in the air.

"Well if you didn't hate her so mu-" Soda starts.

"She hated me first and anyways, I don't hate her we just have some issues," Dally defends.

"Whatever," Soda rolls his eyes. "You still hurt her!"

"GUYS!" Darry yells. They both look over at him along with everybody else in the gang. "Fighting ain't gonna bring her back so will ya both just shut your traps. We all miss her and none of us tried to stop her. It was all of our faults. Now deal with the fact that she's gone."

"It wasn't my fault," Steve mutters. "It was yours."

"What you'd say?" Darry asks.

"Nothing," Steve spits out as he looks at Darry with anger evident in his eyes. This is what it's been like; everybody blaming each other.

"Well maybe if you didn't tease her about her and Johnnycakes then she wouldn't of gotten into a fight with Pony and then she would be here," Darry growls. "You too Two-butt."

"Excuse me?" Two-bit turns around.

"You heard what I said Keith," Darry says through gritted teeth.

"I did nothing to make her leave! NOTHING!" He starts calmly then shouts the last word.

"You all did, I'm the only innocent one," Johnny speaks up for the first time since she left.

The whole gang looks at him with shocked out before Steve yells, "it's mostly your fault. If you didn't hold her hand she'd still be here!"

"We didn't do anything," Johnny whispers.

"Well you made her leave," even Dally is against Johnny. I guess she's the glue that holds us all together.

"No I didn't," he shakes his head.

"Whatever," I roll my eyes. "It was everybody fault. God!"

"Well it was mostly yours and Johnny's," Two-bit huffs.

"NO it wasn't! If Sodapop didn't hit her she'd still be with us," I fire back.

"Well if you two weren't fighting I wouldn't of," he yells at me. He's NEVER yelled at me before.

"Well if Darry didn't come up then you wouldn't of came up," I say placing the blame on Darry now.

"Well if Johnny didn't come home holding her hand then none of this would be happening," Darry speaks loudly.

"Well if Two and Steve weren't teasing her Pony wouldn't of gotten mad," Johnny defends.

"Well if she wasn't holding your hand I wouldn't of," Steve defends.

"Well if Pony wouldn't of been so sensitive and flip it would of been a mute point," Two yells.

"So it's Pony's fault!" The gang yells.

"NO it's not! It's Darry fault. If he hadn't of come upstairs then none of this would of happened!" I yell.

"So it's your fault!" Johnny yells as he points a finger at Darry.

"No!" Darry yells. "It's Soda's fault! I told her to get out, but when she didn't listen Soda grabbed her and slapped then she ran out!"

"So it's Soda's fault!" The gang yells looking at Soda.

"No, it's Dally's fault!" Soda yells. "He's the one who first started hating her!"

"So it's Dally fault!" The gang yells and looks over to him

"No it isn't my fault!" Dally yells. "For once I had nothing to do with it! Brooke went for a walk with Johnny and came back holding hands-"

"So it's Johnny's fault!" The gang yells cutting Dally off.

"Let me finish!" Dally yells. "They came back holding hands. When Steve and Two-bit starting teasing her Pony ran upstairs because he's madly in love-"

"In love?" I ask.

"In love," Dally winks. "She ran after him starting a big fight. When the fight got out of hand Darry went upstairs and kicked her out. When he went to hit her Sodapop got to her first and when she ran out nobody said anything. So it's all of ya'll's fault, not mine!"

"No!" Two-bit yells. "I had nothing to do with her leaving!"

"Yes you did!" Steve yells.

"No more then you did," Two-bit yells back at him.

"It's all your fault Johnny," I yell as Two-bit and Steve continue to fight.

"It ain't my fault! She's my best friend, it's your fault for making it a big deal!" He yells back at me.

"Preposterous!" I yell back at him as Soda and Darry start to fight in the back round along with Steve and Two-bit.

"It's your fault Darry, if I didn't hit her you would of!" Soda yells.

"Well I could of missed! It's your fault for actually hitting her!" Darry fires back angrily.

"I hit her to stop you from hitting her!" Soda yells even though we all know it's a lie.

"You're the one who started picking on her!" Steve yells.

"It ain't my fault it's all yours! You're the one who started it!"I yell at Johnny.

"Well Pony ran upstairs when you said something!" Two-bit points out to Steve in their fight.

"You went up stairs first!" Soda screams.

"Just stop blaming me I went outside to ask her about you!" Johnny growls.

"I'm not the one who slapped her across the face!" Darry yelled his voice booming.

"Well if you would of never started it then I wouldn't of have teased her too!" Steve yells.

"Well you know I liked her we all should of went together!" I growled back at Johnny.

"It don't matter what I did you hit her not me!" Darry's voice was the loudest.

"I was just teasing her it was playful unlike you!" Steve flared his nostrils.

"STOP IT!" Dally yells over everybody.

We all looked at Dally and Two-bit snarled, "why should we? Steve's the reason she left."

"No you're the one who started teasing her first!" Steve fired back.

"No Darry is!" Soda yells.

"I ain't the one who hit her!" Darry growls.

"Well I think it's all Johnny's fault!" I announce.

"It's your fault Ponyboy, you're the one who got into the fight with her!" Johnny snarled.

"It's her fault!" Dally yells. "She's the one who walked out of the house and never came back."

"Well who caused her to walk out and never come back?" Soda asks.

"I don't know who, but it was her choice," Dally reminds us.

We all let out a sigh before Two-bit yells over everything,"well nobody leaves just to leave!"

"True, but we gotta stop blaming ourselves. We all miss her, but it's none of our faults," Dally's voice booms through the house.

knock!

Knock!

Knock!

"Let me in, please!"

Okay, so this is Pony's story. What do ya'll think on how he thought the fight played out? I hope you guys like this chapter it's very long, but you've also kind of read it before. I don't know, talk it out in the comments below. Stay gold. Do it for Johnny!

-Beth