I walk upstairs into Pony's room, I don't get it! He's not sick anymore, but he's not talking to anybody or moving. He's just laying there. I walk over to the bed and sit next to him, "hey Pookie. I miss you. I miss my best friend and my boyfriend. I know this is hard for you because, it's hard for me and you were closer to Dally then I was, but you can't just stop living because of them. We were supposed to have a date tonight...Do you still want to go?"

"......" that's all I get, nothing. Not a nod, or a look. He just lays there staring right through me.

"God Ponyboy! You can't just do this forever! We just got together and now this! I can't fucking do this! Would you of rather me died because, I could of! I don't even care anymore though! I don't care if you never talk to me again because, I'm so fucking done! I lost Dally, Johnny, and now you too! I can't take you starring right through me! I'm your girlfriend not some piece of furniture, but whatever! I don't care!" I blow up on his tears streaming down my face.

".........." he just sits there starring right through me as if I'm not even there.

"Whatever Ponyboy," I sigh as I walk out.

Pony's P.O.V.

Brooklyn walks into me room with a sad smile on her face, "hey Pookie. I miss you. I miss my best friend and my boyfriend. I know this is hard for you because, it's hard for me and you were closer to Dally then I was, but you can't just stop living because of them. We were supposed to have a date tonight...Do you still want to go?"

I miss you too. I miss you so much Brooke, but I can't. I can't imagine my life without them and I don't want to live a life without them...I can't. You're right this is hard for you, but harder for me. They were the only boys in the gang who gave me the time of day minus maybe Sodapop. They were my best friends. I love...loved them. I know I'm not supposed to stop living because of it, but I don't have the energy to. I want to go on the date with you, I really do, but I can't. Not without Johnny lecturing me to treat you right, god that's the most I would hear him talk, when he was lecturing me about you. He loved you soo much. I also can't go on a date without Dally joking about young love then teasing you.

This is when she blows, after I don't answer. I deserve it though, she's going through hell and I'm making it worse, "God Ponyboy! You can't just do this forever! We just got together and now this! I can't fucking do this! Would you of rather me died because, I could of? I don't even care anymore though! I don't care if you never talk to me again because, I'm so fucking done! I lost Dally, Johnny, and now you too! I can't take you starring right through me! I'm your girlfriend not some piece of furniture, but whatever! I don't care!"

I know I can't do it forever, I'll die then. I want to die though, I want to be with them. I love them. I know we just got together, but my...our two best friends just died. Please just hold on a little longer, please don't be, "fucking done" I'm begging you. I wish none of you died. I couldn't imagine you being the one dead, I love you Brooke. I know you lost the too, but it's just so so hard right now for me. I don't want to stare right through you, it's just, I can't. My body won't let me. I know your my girlfriend, that I love very much. Please care, about me, about us.

"Whatever Ponyboy," she sighs walking out of my room.

I'm sorry Brookie, I love you.

Brooke's P.O.V.

Tears stream slowly and silently down my cheeks as I walk downstairs. I don't even care if the guys see me like this. Soda jumps up off the couch, "hey Brooke. Did it work?"

I sigh looking away before croaking out, "no and I can't do this anymore. I love him, but coming here without him is just too much. Tell him to find me when he wakes up and give him this."

I hand Sodapop a note before hugging everybody in the gang, "bye guys."

I walk out of the small house with only a small backpack of clothing. I've been on my own forever, but I always had them and now I don't. I walk to the lot that Johnny and I slept at all the time and sigh a long sad sight without him next to me. I open up the book I got from the hospital as a letter falls falls out.

Dear Brooklyn,

I asked the nurse to give you this book so you could finish it along with Ponyboy. The Doctor came in a while ago, but I already knew it anyway. I kept getting tired and tired. Liston, I don't mind dying now, it was worth it,it was worth it saving those little kids and you. Their lives are worth more than mine, they have more to live for. Tell Dally it was worth it. I'm just gonna miss you guys and I've been thinking about it. that poem, the guy that wrote it. he meant your gold when your a kid, like green, when your a kid everything is new, dawn, its just, when just u get used to every thing its day. like the way you dig helping everybody even though you're going through stuff Brooke, that's gold. keep it that way, its a good way to be. I want you to tell Dally to help a random person. He'll probably think your crazy, but ask for me. I don't think he's ever really done something like that for no reason and don't be bugged over being a greaser, you still have a lot of time to make yourself be what you want. there's still a lot of good in the world. Tell dally I don't think he knows. I love you Brooke. I always will love you even though I'm not with you. I want you to move on, but never forget what I taught you, never forget me. I want you to be happy though.Tell the gang I want them to be happy too. I'll never forget you Brooklyn, I'll be watching out for you with you every step of the way. I never stopped being in love with you Brooklyn Ann Jones.

your buddy,

Johnny

Tear stream down my cheeks as I lay back on the couch and cry myself to sleep. I lost everything.

Oh my god this one is so sad! I would normally try to make these tires, but it's like midnight and I'm super tired. Night loves. Talk out this chapter in the comments below. Stay gold. Do it for Johnny!

-Beth