anhour past with us drowning in silence

itmight have been longer given the sudden cold that filled the room dueto the time of night that it currenly was the moon shone in thoughtthe parted curtains illuminating the walls around us casting jaggedshadows along their surface

shawncleared his throat but didn't speak for a drawn out period of timecausing my hearing to turn sensitve as I waited for him to speak

"ifhe's your father lex, and an alpha" he asked quietly and slowly asif unsure to speak the words himself "then how come you went to allthis trouble to make a pack of your own?"

bluehowled quietly at the memory and I flinched as the thought reoccured

I hadbeen running for so long that I had almost forgotten why I had leftshawn sat up to look at me but I avoided his gaze staring down at myhands

"lex?"

"hmmm" I said absentmindedly

"why?"

"because..."I felt my throat close as tears pricked my vision as I fought to keepmy emotions in check "because wolves like me were not allowed tolead a pack"

"what?"I heard the confusion in his voice "wolves like you lexi?, you'rean alpha, alphas lead packs that's what they do no one can tall themotherwise unless...."

hedidn't need to finish that thought he didn't even need to speak ithis unsaid words run loud and clear "unless their a runt" hisunspoken words echoed endlessly through the empty room

like amantra that I didn't want to hear

"unless they were born arunt" I whispered brokenly "and I was born a runt"

I refused to meet his gazehe stood from his seat and I whined a pang of hurt hit my chest as Ifelt tears prick my eye

blue howled

he was going to leave us,I don't know what I would do if he left

he stood in front of meand I felt his gaze bore into my head, I knew he was demanding eyecontact from me but I just couldn't give it

I couldn't look up to seethe comfirmation that he was leaving

one look and I knew hewould be gone forever

"alexis look at me"

tears dribbled down mycheeks like uncontrolable rivers that I couldn't contain not matterhow hard I tried, he never called me alexis.

"please look at me" hebreathed quietly

but I just couldn't

"lex, just look athim, we hold no right to keep him here if he wishes to leave then asa good alpha we should let him"

"ican't blue, call me selfish, but I can't, I can't let him go, I can'twatch him walk away from me"

I felt my self in motion being lifted to my feet shawnpulled me into him holding me tightly to his chest

his entire body tensed asmy pain and heart break pushed out to him through the pysical contact

"godess, lex"

the ground disappearedfrom beneath my feet but there wasn't an inch of space between us ashe carried me setting us both down on something soft

oh

he had taken us to theleather counch on the other side of the room but he still didn't letme go

we didn't speak either

he growled softly, itwasn't a hostile noise, it was more one of frustration

"talk to me"he seethed quietly and I broke all over again

"pleasedon't leave me" I whimpered pressing my face into his chest hepulled me back to look at my face he brushed his fingers over mycheeks swiping my tears away

"whywould I leave you?" he asked his eye furrowed

"b-becausei-i'm a run---"

hesilenced my words nuzzleing my cheek gently as hiccuped sobs left mychest as he rushed to calm me down

thenhe whispered softly against my ear

"youdon't look like a runt to me"