Song : Everybody Hurts - Avril Lavigne

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Chapter 11 : First Lesson

*** Flashback in Sanyukta's View ***

After the incident of exam papers I, Vidushi, Randhir and Parth soon became good friends. Ahh those days when we used to hang out together watching movies, going for walks etc. We used to love to do it all. Randhir also stopped teasing me with those stupid names and had warned others too for not doing the same though he himself used to do it when I used to irritate him... well we couldn't go through a topic without fighting but at the end of the day he was fun to be with.

But I have also seen his soft side I have seen his caring when I used to get hurt though he didn't want to show all that but it always came to me. Soon our friendship finished a years with laughing, teasing and fighting and we passed to the next standards. We all were growing up with all this things but something was changing.. sometimes I could feel Randhir distant towards me but he was normal towards Parth and Vidushi. When I said the same to Vidushi she said I was just over thinking and though I was sure she was wrong I bought that reason.

Soon people started teasing us with each others name for me... I used to ignore it and I expected the same from him.. but I was wrong he started to grow more distant from me not liking the fact of us being paired up together and thats what used to hurt me the most. The way he used to ignore me.. sometimes he used to make me doubt my own existence and I was cursing myself for having feelings for such a person who left me for such a stupid thing called teasing!
But I know one thing even though he ignores me but his one side still cares for me a lot.

I still remember that day when I had sprained my leg on our annual functions and when he came to know about this as Vidushi was talking to me about it while walking behind him.. he literally turned around and checked me from head to toe whether I was perfectly fine or not! And his such deeds made feel that ya.. he is there for me but all in vain!

I started fighting with myself and these feelings for him and Vidushi who knew my attraction and feelings towards him.. she was my greatest support who always tried me to move on giving me tricks to ignore him. Though these feelings were never told to Parthbut i guess he had an idea about it but chose to never speak of it. Though the things between Parth, Randhir and Vidushi never chased but whenever i was there things turned were awkward.

Soon when we reached 9th standard where I met my first lesson.

Though Vidushi still calls him a big mistake but I don't. He was a lesson to me the first ever boyfriend and the first that taught me a lot many things... him.. Rehan.

Rehan was the sports head and also a rich spoilt brat which somewhere I forgot to see. When I was drifting apart from Randhir I ran into Rehan... he was good looking and the girls used to get weak on their knees for him but I only noticed him in 9th when he asked me for help in few subjects in which he was drastically failing that was Maths and Science due to my good grades in that teacher recommended him to take my help.

Rehan was a sweet guy and a known flirt but towards me he always had a soft side **chuckles** (at least that is what I used to think). One fine day he approached me and proposed me saying that he likes me a lot and me thinking that I shouldn't break his heart accepted his proposal thinking he is a nice guy and would help me to forget at least Randhir! (Oh! What a fool I was.) Things were fine I started getting comfortable with him and ya to like him a bit but his goodness was just like a silence before the storm. Then there Rehan started putting restrictions on me what should I do and what not, what should I wear which were not even told to me by my parents but like a puppy I followed all wishing for a forever at least this time as these were depicted in his lies. Vidushi and Parth used to tell me that he wasn't a good guy as he used to show but I ignored telling them they haven't seen his that caring side which I have seen but my glass castle was broken that day when I saw him openly making out with some girl and when I confronted him all I got to hear is I was just a crush and a time pass for him and now there's nothing left in between us.

I was broken that day.. I thought I didn't deserve love I am such a loser and all I deserve is being left alone. That day I promised myself I won't ever love anyone!

Soon we completed 10th and made our ways to college though I had got great grades but I had a broken heart which could be only fixed by one who has more than distant towards me for something I never did.

I, Parth and Vidushi had the same college and courses whereas Randhir though having the same course was in a different college. We never spoke though I used to see him a few times due to common friends but we didn't even exchanged a smile until that day which changed everything....

*** Flashback Ends ***

*** Present ***

Sanyukta's thoughts were stopped by a message.

Message :

Tanya : Reach by 9 at college... sir has asked everyone to be present there. He has some news.

Sanyukta kept the mobile aside silent tears flowed from her eyes as she thought, "Though I promised myself that I won't love anyone now but I miserably failed when it came to you Randhir.. don't know what you had.. I still don't know... I made my feelings for Rehan die and that was quite even easy for me as it was infatuation I guess but when it came to you I don't know what happens those feelings only grow I have seen you many a times after the school ended at station going some class though we were far away but whenever I saw you.. you used to ignore me and I used to do the same but within me something used to die and it's still the same but you won't understand cause you hate me. There was that time when I used to hate you cause you ignored me and left me all alone and now is the time when you hate me and I can't do anything about it cause I know I have hurt you a lot. Things have changed but one thing has not changed between us and that is our hatred!"

Thinking all this Sanyukta dozed off crying hysterically.