It had been a few days since I gave Alex the drawing. I didn't give him any way to contact me yet somehow I thought he would still try. I walked with my closest friend, and probably only friend, into a nightclub.

How she convinced me to even leave the house was a miracle to myself. I sighed as we stepped through the overwhelming crowd of people.

" I  hate you so much Scarlett, " I grumbled so softly that I doubted she would hear me.

" The first words you've uttered to me in a week and they have to be hatred directed towards me huh? Also I know you love me shut up A. " she laughed back.

I rolled my eyes going back to my familiar quiet state as she dragged me along. She sat me at the bar and ordered me a drink.

I didn't bother to speak up an tell her not too as I knew I'd just be wasting my limited breath by talking. I grabbed the drink she ordered for me and owned it, feeling the golden liquid infiltrate my bloodstream.

Laughing could be heard from multiple groups throughout the building. Scarlett ordered herself a drink as I looked around the establishment.

I saw people dancing and laughing and talking. It was all sensory overload. I groaned and pouted as Scarlett turned towards me.

" Don't give me that look A, " she murmured, " You need to have a little fun every once in a while. "

I scowled and huffed, turning away and grabbing the next drink she ordered me. She giggled and stood up, leaving me there to drink.

I sighed, sipping this next drink slowly as my eyes scanned the crowds. Familiar brown eyes caught mine and I froze. I stood quickly, making a beeline towards the backdoor that let to the alley way. I stepped outside, hoping he didn't follow me.

" Goddammit, " I growled under my breath as I leaned against the wall and pulled out my pack of smokes.

I slipped one of the cylindrical objects between my lips and lit it, inhaling the fumes. The door opened and out stepped those infamous brown eyes along with the body that matched them.

" Row, " he breathed out.

I flinched at the nickname and looked up at Alex. He looked exhausted and sad. Dark circles made his face look hollow along with slightly sunken cheeks.

His jaw was clenched defining his jaw line perfectly. His slightly curly hair blew softly in the slight wind. He was beautiful.

I didn't say anything. I was scared.

" Row...why did you leave the drawing? " he asked.

I opened my mouth to say something but found myself incapable of finding words to say.

" Arrow answer me.. " Alex whimpered.

My heart began to hurt. I shrugged and looked away, pulling out another cigarette as I finished my first.

" You still smoke the same cigarettes as me.. " he commented softly.

I frowned and looked up at him, offering him a fag as I began to get lost in his eyes. He stared at me as if I was the only person who mattered.

I wanted to wrap myself up in his scent and swim in his eyes but I wasn't allowed to do that anymore. I pulled my eyes away from his and sighed out smoke.

" Why are you here? " I muttered under my breath.

" I was trying to enjoy a night out...You know I've been trying to contact you and find you since you left the drawing. "

I sighed, uttering out ore words within the past few seconds then I had in days, " You know that could be considered as stalking. "

I spit my words out like they were poison on my tongue. He stared at me, as if entranced by my voice.

" Ya don't talk much anymore do ya? Your voice is really shaky and hoarse. "

" I'm mute by choice...It's hard to talk to you right now...I don't usually talk this much, " I murmured.

My own voice sounded foreign to me. Despite being out of my comfort zone with how much I was talking I never wanted to shut up.

Talking to Alex was like breathing fresh air after being trapped in a polluted room for many years. His facial expression while I talked was one of a god.

" Why'd you dye your hair again....you said you never would.. " he mumbled.

" That was before you said you didn't love me anymore Alexander... " I said.

Tears began to fill my eyes. I put out my cigarette under my boot and tried to push past Alex. He grabbed my wrist and turned me back towards him.

" Stop running away! "

" Maybe running is the only thing I'm good at anymore! " I yelled as I ripped my arm out of his grip.

I held my wrist to my chest. That's the loudest I've talked in six years. Tears poured down my cheeks as I hunched over my own body.

" Arrow.. " Alex whispered.

" No Alex... " I whimpered out.

" Arrow please...let me explain- "

I cut him off, " You had six years to explain yourself...It's too late now. "

I walked back into the nightclub. Alex was on my tail the whole time.

" It's never too late love, " he said, his sly smirk plastered on my face.

" Don't call me love, shithead "

He laughed and shook his head.

" Whatever babe, see you very soon " He said with a soft laugh.

I sighed and slipped through the crowd, losing him among the hordes of sweaty people. I found Scarlett and grabbed her hand, dragging her out of the overwhelming building.

" Hey what the fuck A?! " Scarlett whined.

" Please take me home Scar. "

She frowned but didn't question me after hearing the tone of my voice. As we walked to my apartment I let my mind wander to Alex's words. I shuddered and tried to push the words out of my head with no success.

See you very soon.

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i'm too lazy for an authors note

xx ghxstlyxterrors