THE BEST DOLL

Kleo's POV

"Kleo!!!!" rinig ko ang malakas na sigaw ni Rafa habang hinahabol ako. Tumakbo na ako para hindi niya ako maabutan. Kapag hindi ko ito ginawa ay baka mag makaawa pa ulit ako sa kaniya. Pagkatapos noon ay umuwi na din agad ako sa bahay.

Walang tao kundi ang mga kasambahay. Naupo lang ako sa gilid ng kama ko habang nakatitig sa bagay na iyon sa loob ng glass cabinet ko. Bumalik lang ako sa katinuan nang tumawag si Saliya which is very unusual kaya sinagot ko agad.

(K-kuya! ) I heard her voice shaking while crying kaya napatayo agad ako.

"Why? W-hat happened? Calm down Saliya" I tried to calm my voice para pakalmahin siya.

(Kuya si ate) agad tumulo ang luha ko. Fuck. Damn it. Nabato ko ang cellphone ko.

"No. No. She is just chasing me last night!" sinuntok ko ang pader ng kwarto ko. Fuck. No. Agad akong sumakay ng sasakyan para puntahan si Rafa. Pagkadating ko doon ay nakitang kong umiiyak si Saliya kasama ang mommy at daddy niya.

"Kung alam ko lang anak. Sorry for not giving you your dream happy family. Yes I promise you we will make time for Saliya. Iloveyou my Rafa Xhane" his dad and mom is already crying. My legs are shaking while walking towards her. Louie is also here. Nakatulala lang siya sa kinaroroonan ni Rafa.

"Hon stop. She did a great fight. We are still proud of you Rafa" her mom said.

"Kuya. You want to see her?" Saliya asked.

"Yes please" habang palalapit ako ng papalit ay lalong bumibigat ang pakiramdam ko. Nang makarating ako sa kaniya at nakita siya ay mas lalo akong naiyak. There is so much why's and what if's on my mind.

"Kuya bago siya umalis ay pinapabigay niya ito sayo" lumingon ako sa kaniya nang makita ang USB na inaabot niya ito. Tinanggap ko iyon kahit nagtataka at naguguluhan pa din ako. Fuck. I never imagined myself crying like this. Iyak lang ako ng iyak sa harapan niya.

"Sorry Rafa. Iloveyou" I whispered like she can really hear me. Hindi ko kaya tumagal sa lugar na iyon kaya umuwi muna ako.

"Fuck. This is not real Kleo. Nananaginip ka lang. Damn you. Wake up! Sinusuntok ko ang sarili ko habang umiiyak. Nakaluhod ako ngayon sa sahig ng kwarto ko habang sinasabunutan ang sarili ko nang may malaglag galing sa bulsa ko. Its the USB. Kinuha ko ang laptop ko ang sinaksak iyon. Napakunot ang noo ko dahil wala naman laman iyon.

"Is she kidding me?" my brows furrowed. Pero naluha na agad ako nang makita ang kaisa isang video dito. Bumuhos lalo amg luha ko fuck. I miss her already!!

"Rafa" I cried. Sinubukan kong punasan ang mga luha ko bago iplay ang video.

"Hi Kleo!" I saw her smile. Nakatayo siya sa video at alam ko na sa bahay niya ito, sa kwarto. Inikot ikot pa niya ang camera habang tumatawa. Baliw talaga. I paused the video.

"Rafa in your smile I always see something more beautiful than the stars. Fuck Imissyou." pinunasan ko muna ang luha ko. Tangina nakakabading pero pag dating kay Rafa nagkakaganito ako. I played the video again.

"Ang ganda ng umaga. Kasing ganda ko" winagayway pa niya ang kaniyang buhok bago umupo sa kama niya.

"Yes" I whispered.

"Okay. Im serious now. I dont know where to start" she put her phone down. Nakatutok lang ang camera sa mukha niya. I saw her eyes are about to cry. Fuck. My weakness.

"Kleo thankyou for everything you've done for me. I want you to know that everything you did are so much appreciated. Umpisa pa lang alam mo na hindi ako naniniwala sa love na iyan" She fake smile. Walang tigil ang pagpatak ng luha ko.

"If I know what love is? it is all because of you. You always make me feel that I am the most valued and loved person. Only you can give me that feeling my Love. Kleo you have no idea how fast my heart beats when Im with you. And I have no idea that love is really this magical na araw araw ay mas lalo ako naiinlove sayo. Maybe you're right. I can now stand straight in front of you and tell you that I already faced the other side of love, I already met someone who proved to me that love is not just as simple as I think. I found him Kleo! And guess what. He is also the one who told me those things. Its you Kleo" she is holding her tears. Pero ako iyak lang ako ng iyak wala akong pakialam.

"Hey Mr. Samson date someone who is interested in you. I mean to someone who wants to know every insignificant detail about you. I hope you find someone who sees galaxies in your beautiful eyes and hears music in your heart beats. Don't ever forget how special you're to me, today and everyday. I love you more than words can express. " She is now crying.

"Stop crying Love" I hate seeing her cry.

"Forever is a long time, but I wouldn't mind spending it with you. Sorry. Pwedeng wala na ako ngayon sa tabi mo pero palagi lang akong nandiyan sa puso mo. Hindi ba?" I nodded na parang nakikita niya ang reaction ko.

"I know you're crying right now. So please stop. I have something to tell you" pinunasan ko ang luha ko habang nakatingin lang sa kaniya. Fuck she is so beautiful.

"Remember when we were just 7?" I smlied.

Flashback.

"What are u doing here?!" mataray na bungad niya sa akin. Nakakapag taka lang dahil birthday niya tapos nandito siya mag isa. Para siyang namatayan. Hindi ba dapat ay masaya siya?

"the hell with that attitude" I fired back.

"your words little man!" ang cute niya magalit. kaya bago pa ako makangiti ay tumalikod na agad ako sa kaniya para maglakad palayo.

Dahil magkaibigan ang pamilya namin ay palagi kaming nagkikita. Like the first time I saw her she is always alone. I don't know maybe she is scared of poeple. Kidding. Nilapitan ko siya.

"What are you doing here?" kalmadong tanong ko.

"It should be me asking you that" ang taray talaga. Pero ang cute pa din niya.

"Kleo Luis Ahmir Samson" I offered my hand.

"Seraphina Rafa Xhane Galvez" She held my hand. Ang lambot ng kamay niya.

End of flash back.

Halos wala na ako makita kaiiyak. I paused the video. Tumayk ako para kumuha ng tissue at tubig. Pagkatapos kong uminom ay bumalik na ulit ako sa harap ng laptop ko.

"I had my fav doll and we named it Belle" she laughed.

"And we were 8 when you have to leave. Don't worry. Just like what you said everything happens for a reason and now I already knew what your reason was. Naiintindihan ko masyado pa tayong bata noon. What matter most is you came back. But I remembered you promise me that you will give me the best doll in the world! But you didn't! She pouted.

"You're so cute love." I laugh a little while crying.

"But that's fine. It happens for a reason. Siguro siya ang reason ni God. Now Im giving you the BEST BEST BEST OF THE BEST doll in the whole entire world. I know you will absolutely love her and you will cherish her forever. Take care of her ha? Sorry I have to decide for her name on my own, without you, without her dad." my brows furrowed. Napatigil ako nang mapatigil din siya. Her tears started to fall again. Fuck. What?

"No this can't be Love" I cried more. Hindi kaya? Fuck. Bakit ngayon lang.

"I know naging selfish ako sa part na yon. Im so sorry. Natagalan" she laugh while crying looking at the camera like she is really looking directly into my eyes.

"I n-named her Yzobelle Hope Seraphina-" fuck!!! napatayo ako sinuntok ko ang hangin. Iyak lang ako ng iyak. Hindi ko alam ang pakiramdam ko ngayon.

"-Galvez Samson" she added.

"My parents and Saliya used to call her Belle. Sorry if I don't have the guts to tell you. Natakot ako. I know you will understand. Take care of yourself and take care of our best doll, of our daughter! Sorry if I will fail to witness her first walk, her firs talk, her everything! I know you will be with her sa lahat ng iyon. Look after her and Saliya. Please be happy. Be free. Tell Belle how much her mom loves her. And never forget how much I love you. Okay? This is not goodbye right? Atleast we came to the point that we really never had to say goodbye, only goodnight. Let the sky cross our paths again? " nilapit niya ang mukha niya sa camera para mahalikan ito. Pumikit ako para damahin iyon.

"I miss you already love" I cried even more. Wala na atang ubos ang luha ko.

"I would find you in any lifetime my brightest star Iloveyou!" she smiled genuinely. Then the video ended.

"No." iyak pa din ako ng iyak. Tangina ang sakit sakit. Bakit kailangan mangyare pa lahat ng ito. Naglakad ako papunta sa glass cabinet ko at kinuha ang manika niya.

"Iloveyou!" I huged and kissed the doll.

"Shine bright, my Moon"

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