My hand felt numb as the sound of my phone ringing filled my head. I could already feel my breathing sharpening as the ringing became louder and louder in my own head. I threw my phone to the side and collapsed on the ground. My vision became blurry with tears filling my eyes. 

It's fine Leah, just breathe

Remember what zinnia taught you

Breathe

I gasped for air but it felt like someone was chocking me, not letting me breathe. I quivered while a silent sob escaped my lips. It felt like a wave came from behind me and in a spin off a moment my mind overcame with panic and fear.

It's all your fault

"Stop it please" I breathed as my voice came out shaky. I clutched my head trying to get the pounding sound of my phone ringing out. Another wave of nausea came over me and I sprinted to the washroom.

I splashed my face with water over and over again while sobbing uncontrollably. I wish I was stronger. I wish I wouldn't have to break down like this.

I wish everything wasn't my fault

"Snap out of it Leah" I mumbled to myself trying to calm my erratic breathing but my weak voice betrayed me.

You could've saved her

The headache spread across my body as I wobbled my way out of the bathroom. The room felt too small for me to breathe. I could feel an unknown dread coming up from the back of my head

She's gone because of you

I sprinted to the door and almost ran down the stairs. I needed fresh air. I slipped my feet into my shoes and opened the front door and ran out not stopping to call Ms. Iris. A thousand thoughts filled my head. I gritted my teeth trying to block the hundred accusations thrown at me by my own consciousness. My feet didn't stop as they ran through an unfamiliar road.

The cold breeze cut through my body as I ran. The tears on my cheek had long dried up. My feet started aching from running directionless. Slowly my lungs gave up from the lack of exercise and I crouched down on the road huffing. Coming to my senses I took a look at my surrounding realizing what I had done.

I left the front door open

I didn't tell Ms. Iris

I left my phone

I ran without thinking

I don't where the hell I was

Great job Leah, aren't you a clever one

"Not now" I muttered while trying to figure out what to do

I had absolutely no clue how long I was running for. Where I stood was a deserted road with tall trees towering over it from both sides casting tall shadows. How was a town road so deserted? I could walk back on my path back till I reached home, but a nagging voice in my head kept telling me I possibly took a turn somewhere, but my mush of a brain couldn't remember it exactly. Since I was very stupidly being miserable over things I shouldn't even be miserable about!

I kicked a nearby tree trunk out of frustration and immediately winced in pain and limped back. I was doing more and more stupid things every passing second. It definitely felt like I was the one with spaghetti for a brain. Why was I so stupid and weak? So what Aaron called me? So what he always brought back things I don't want to remember? So what if his whole existence reminded me of how much of a failure of a human being I am. So what?

I wasn't the only one who was in fault. Everyone had flaws, he did too. Heck, He had more than I could count even if I had ten hands. I maybe be blinded a lot of the times, but I was not that blinded by my own anxieties to think he was a saint and I was to blame for everything. I still couldn't speak up to him. I wanted Scream at his face of how much of a "rotten pasta left on 2 months moldy cheese" he was.

But I couldn't. And I hated myself for letting him do whatever the heck he wanted. I shouldn't have ran away from his stupid call. I should have picked up the call and told him not very politely, to get a goddamn life. I was hopeless and I needed to get my life together.

If you deserve it that is

"Shut it" I scowled. If anyone  passed by me at this moment they would  be caught off guard seeing a dark black haired girl with very weird reddish brown eyes glaring at the wind.

Not the first time though

I ignored the very rude remark and decided to think this situation through rationally. I could try tracing back my steps but I wasn't confident I could remember the exact route. I was supposedly running for quite a bit as well and I really didn't want to get anymore lost. After thinking for a bit I decided, I'd walk for a bit hoping to come across somebody so I could call Ms. Iris. If that option didn't avail I would have no other choice but to come back here and hope that she realizes I was gone.

A cold breeze softly brushed past me as I started down the unfamiliar path. March was ending in a few weeks and summer was approaching. Though it was almost summer time it didn't feel all that humid here. 

It was wondrous how my grandmother actually managed to convince my school to actually give me a 2 months vacation. It was true I was hospitalized few days ago but it wasn't that bad that I'd need to stay at home for 2 months. She particularly didn't like the idea of my staying back at home where I was easily in contact with my friend circle. She especially meant Aaron for that matter. She said that even though the body heals soon the mind doesn't. I honestly felt this whole 2 months vacation was bit of an overreaction for fainting at school. The doctor himself said it was because of fatigue but my grandmother wouldn't rest easy even though the doctor said I'd be completely fine. She almost put my dad on a barbeque pan for not taking care me properly.

But I honestly don't feel he was the only one to blame. School was being extremely hectic for me for the past few months. Dealing with my friend circle was stressful enough, on top that I had to involve myself in responsibilities which weren't even mine to begin with. I honestly didn't know why I did this to myself. The moment Grandma caught on she immediately went noppity noppity nope.

But something told me that the actual reason why my grandma didn't want me to stay back at home was the fact that my birthday was approaching in April and she most definitely didn't want last year's events repeating. I could tell she was still immensely bothered about how I stood in front of her doorway sobbing while my clothes where drenched. I was honestly never the biggest fan of birthdays, since it was only one day past mom's death anniversary. But I learned to be mature about it, as I knew my mom wouldn't want me sobbing around the whole day.

We had already made plans for this year's birthday. Grandma planned on coming to Merryview around my birthday and stay for a few days. We planned to celebrate it together with Ms. Iris. I was honestly a bit excited for it, as it was most definitely the best birthday plan in all the 6 years after mom had passed away. It would be a cherry on top if dad managed to come.

I stopped on my way after an old 2 storied building came into my view after walking for a distance. The front door was open. I stood there debating whether I should go in to see if anyone was there. But I would definitely be intruding if I just waltz into someone else's property like that. In the end I decided it would a better decision if I just try calling out for someone.

As I ready to call out for someone my voice closed up when I my eyes stopped on something through the 2nd floor window.

The whole room illuminated a faded blue color that seemed to be seeping out through the window. Laces of light swirled in the room and I stood there unable to move from the haunting yet mesmerizing scene in front of me.

What the hell was that?

It looked out of the world and I felt an irresistible pull towards it. Before I realized my feet had gotten life of its own and started to carry me to the front door. Soon enough I realized I had absolutely no control over my body. But I didn't feel scared. I just wanted to get to close to that mesmerizing scene.

In a trance I climbed up the stairs and made my way to the room from which I had seen the light from. I could hear a distant hymn as it slowly filled my head. Everything felt fuzzy. But it wasn't all that bad.

I walked in front of the room as the hymning became louder. I twisted the knob entering the blue hued room.

It looked like a dream. It looked like there was a snowfall inside the room. Among the small dusts of light, a blue hue danced around the room drawing patterns in the air.

In the middle of this, sat a girl of my age with rose brown hair, facing her back to me. She was hymning a melody which resounded in the room. Hearing my footsteps she turned around and an evident shock flashed across her face.

She stood up and in a moment the other worldly scene that had pulled me here disappeared right into thin air. And the fuzzy trance I was in broke which made me realize I was standing in an ordinary room with a girl staring at me in disbelief.

"What are you doing here?" she whispered with a confused voice trying to make sense of the situation even though arguably I should've been the one to ask that.

"Before asking me what I am doing here, what the hell was that?!" I asked confusion and shock evident in my voice

"You saw that?" she inquired furrowing her eyebrows.

"Of course I did! Anyone walking down the street would!" I exclaimed impatiently tapping my foot on the ground. "Now can you explain to me please? I am really on the last strand of blaming all of this on my crazy imagination"

"Ordinary people can't see it though" she mumbled biting her nails, clearly lost in her own world.

"Hello?" I said waving my hand in front of her face to gain her attention. "Earth to Ms. Weirdo?"

"Don't call people you don't know weirdo's, it's rude!" she snapped pushing my hand away. But we both stopped on our tracks when we heard clear footsteps on the stairs. I turned my head to see who was coming through the open door but she quickly ran to the door and closed it in a panic.

"What th-" I tried to react but she quickly clasped my mouth with her hands and my eyes widened, surprised at her sudden movement. In that moment a dread filled my head when I realized I was alone in a room with a girl I barely knew, who definitely wasn't normal. She could be dangerous for all I know and I had left my guard around her.

Your stupidity knows no bound Leah

I tried to struggle but she quickly brought her face close to mine and exclaimed in a loud whisper, "I beg you, don't make a sound. Mom is going to ground me for all eternity if the caretaker finds us. We aren't suppose to be here"

My rapid heartbeat calmed down a bit as she tried to listen for footsteps anxiously.

It seemed as if the footsteps had gone to another room. She turned to me and stated with a dead serious face, "We need to get out of here"

"What? How? The caretaker is literally right outside the door!" I whispered clearly not understanding her thought process.

"I have a plan" she assured still cautious for any sound.

"I'm listening?"

She looked at me directly and said, "Just don't freak out"

Excellent situation you have gotten yourself into Leah

A/N

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(muffled agony)

I am pretty much living by only drinking water right now. my shoulder hurts and so do my fingers. deadlines can go jump off a microwave for all  I care. see you guys in next update if i stay alive

i hope you enjoyed the chapter. fill colour into the small star if you wish.                                             i love you all

bye!