or I just kinda spill my heart out to you guys bc this is confusing my brain and I don't see my therapist this week

okay, so I don't think I have autism, but I do have pretty sensitive hearing so that's like really the only sensory issue I have, but like things I feel and see, tend to not bother me as much. now sometimes I get social cues, sometimes I don't, that's kinda a gamble and my speech has always been just fine. I do experience low empathy I believe but that might just be because both of my parents have done a shitty job at teaching me to be nice if I'm being honest

my mom is autistic (not diagnosed, but everything points to her being autistic, my therapist has literally said she's autistic) so if I do have any autism, I probably inherited from her

and I've heard about some forever child situations with people with autism and I'm immature, I don't like doing things for myself at all. that might be me being autistic, that might be me just never really been having taught better or that might just be me being a lazy little shit idk

maybe I have Asperger syndrome idk

which to be fair is part of the autism spectrum so

tbh I'm not looking for solutions from you guys this was more so a vent which I will repeat to my therapist when I see her next week