Amelia's Pov

Lost. I know that everyone feels lost at least once at some point in their life. Undeniably lost in their pain. Even it is for a glimpse of seconds. It makes you vunerable. Well that is what I am feeling at the moment. Although, I am not a cadaver. It had ripped my soul of my body, leaving me empty. It suffocated and drove me mad with fury, leading me to where I am now, one step away from being swallowed by the darkness.

Will it ever repair?

No, of course not! That is why I am here!

Not that I am new to heartache. On the contrary, there had been more times than I can count, but this was on a different level. Not only to know that I had lost someone so dear to me but also to know that I am the one and only cause of his untimely death is beyond any pain I had ever experienced.

Living another day without staring in to his blue-gray eyes was torture by itself. He had the most beautiful eyes, a shade of the sky at it's brightest with a sprinkle of sliver on the corner. Like the warm sun that lingers on the sky forever. I wanted to linger under his warm forever, but no! He had to take him away from me, to watch me suffer but I also had a hand in this. If he hadn't met me that dire day at the coffee house. If our paths didn't cross. He would have still been here. He would have lived until his hair turns gray and his breath willingly leave his lungs.

If only....

I thought I deserved the slowest painful death possible but I can't have that since my every move in this hospital is being watched like a criminal, so here I am the edge of my last breath( at the top floor of the hospital).

I took in the stunning view of the city, for the a moment fazed by the beauty of the colorful lights.Was I betrayed again with what it seemed on the outside? No! I would be damned before I let myself be that naive again. I now see the world for what it truly is a cold and cruel place, just like him, because I can feel the griefing souls of the city crying over their beloved. I am one of th em now, mourning for the man I love.

Tears slowly poured down my face. I thought I was out of tears but I never seem to cry whenever his face flashed before my eyes. As if he was still I reached out to grap him but he would fade just like the memory he is.

The cold wind rippled through the thin linen material of the hospital gown, fanning away my untied raven hair from my soaked face. I shivered not just because of the cold wind but also because of my now cold heart.

As I look down the glittering lively city. I understood how lifeless I was inside compared to the bright lights, someone had turned off the bulb in me, charing me with darkness for a change.

Someone absolutely demonic!

Anger surged in me spreading like a wild fire through my veins, clouding my sad thoughts. Thinking about that demon for a fleeting seconds was all it took for me to lash out and to take another stride towards my downfall. He was everything I hated in this world! Everything I loathed, he was. His presence alone can make me want to cut my body and pull my hair out. I can't even look at him without having the need to wrap my arms around his neck and choke his worthless life out of him.

That demon!

I strode with bare feet to the edge of the top floor, scowling at the coldness of the cold ground that pierced my exposed bases.

That demonic man had tortured me so much that it was the only way to escape! I have to end this! It is the only way. I would find the peace, I was deprived of. Of course, I didn't know that for sure but I am sure anywhere is better than here. I have end this or I will die in his hands or worse I will have to stay his prisoner. I had a cruel fate. A fate that is utterly cruel.

I told myself over and over again.' Don't think! Just do it!' I took a deep breath as I made myself ready to jump.

This is it!

A sheer voice thundered from behind me, cuting through the air like a block of ice, disrupting the peaceful atomsphere this top floor had, penterating the silence.

I wanted to spend my last moments away from him but he just had to distrub me!

" No Amelia!"

I would recognize that voice anywhere, even in the middle of a roaring crowd. I could spot the owner of the ice cold tone. Only he is capable of exuding so much coldness in a few words.

Looking back, I stared at his eyes, although all I wanted to do was march up to him and scratch his eyeballs out.

His flawless messy brown hair got in the way of his downcast eyes and he furiously pushed it away. His cold and calm self gone, replaced by an angry man who has no self control.

Is that worry I see in his eyes? No! It could never be emotion. He isn't capable of emotion much less worry. I can't even look at him without having the need to throw a brick at him.

" You can't stop Damien!" I yelled, angrily." I am sure you wanted to end me yourself but I wouldn't give you the pleasure of strangling me. If I die, you won't be the one to kill me!"

" I did it for your sake, besides it was an accident. It is not like I planned it."He defended. " And how could you say that? I would never do anything that could hurt you!"His voice sounded hurt as if he couldn't believe I thought of him that way.

This unearthly demon had the audacity to defend himself! Under what circumstances does killing a person knowingly becomes a righteousness deed instead of pure wickedness? And why wouldn't I say that? He wanted me to die afterall!

He and his acting skills! Damn him! He actually makes it sound convincing!

" So you are telling me that killing him was right?" I fumed.

Why would I ask him that! Of course he thinks he is right! Afterall, killing someone was a normal thing to do for a cruel demon like him to do!

" No, I don't think it is right!" He said angry. "But I didn't want him to bother you anymore!"

He didn't bother me! You did! He didn't make me end my life! You did! You demon!

You see why I want to strangle him! Why I want to have my hands around his neck so bad?

" Please, don't do this." He mummbled.

" Stop pretending! I am sick of it!" I shouted, my blood boiling. " You took my everything. He was my everything!" He clenched his fists at my last statement.

Yes! Clench it harder! And please do favor to everyone and break your kunckles while you are at it!

" Don't do this. Just come over here and let's talk." Something I can't figure out swirled in his deep voice. " Please listen to me for once."

" And why would I listen to anything you have to say?" I fumed. " All you ever do is lie to me and torture me."

He mummbled something under his breath but no enough for me to hear it.

" What?" I asked.

His looked away from me as he answered with silence but I wouldn't let him off that easy.

" What did you say?" I demanded.

" I said because I love you!" He growled, like he had lost all his control.

Him? In love with me?

Another one of his lies, eh?

If he loved me why did he torture me so much that I ended up being committed to a mental asylum? He drove me insane, when he came with a mask every night just to scare me and now he is saying he loves me? He should be the one locked up here then!

I laughed manically at his words, losing touch of reality, forgetting where I am and who I am with. Like a person who was told a very funning joke, I kept wheezing and gasping for air. I must be crazy for laughing at a time like this but when I hear as absurd as this, it is hard not to laugh.

" Is my love confession amusing to you?" His angry tone snapped me back to reality. And in reality I was beyond mad at what was saying.

" You don't know what love is! Don't you dare talk about love as if it is something you can feel. Love is for people with hearts. Love doesn't hurt you even if you think it does. It will only heal you in ways you could never imagine. He was the cure to my disease and now my only medicine is to reunite with him and this the only way." Sobbing, I pointed to the far ground with my fingers. "I will never love you! You are a monster!" I spat.

Damien tried to keep a straight face when I speaking, only his eyes were cold but the moment I said I will never love him. I saw rage ooz out of his strong frame, making the temprature of the top floor drop.

" Have it your way then." He snapped.

Before I could process his words and actions, I felt a sting on left side of my neck. I sensed the powerful drug move through my body rapidly.

What is wrong with me? No! I can't pass out!

I struggled to keep my eyes open but I couldn't even fight it. It was like every ounce of my energy was departing from my body, my senses became numb. Everything around me spinned. I felt myself fall on the ground. I was pulled in to the sea of darkness, drifting in to the void.

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