Numb and shallow,
Empty and dead.
I want to feel, I want to experience it all,
But there's nothing in my head.
I never wanted to take these pills, but the pain became too much,
And now I have nothing left to do but to suffer it's touch.
Losing all feeling really is something I hate,
Who knew living could be such a difficult debate?
I just want to go one day without being in pain,
What will it cost to live like that? Would it be in vain?
I close my eyes and wait for it to subside,
My entire being wishing it could just hide.
I shake and shake and wish I could just die,
I want to be okay, oh heart will you ever fly?
The pain weighs me down like a blanket of ice,
And I don't know what to do, but it's not nice.
I can't seem to tell anyone because they think I'm attention seeking,
But what's wrong with asking for some love when your heart is weeping?
It's just a tiny ache they say,
Oh yeah? Then why is it my death for which I pray?
I don't want to die, but in that moment nothing else seems as fine,
And for me to say anything else... well, I'd be lying.
So sure, so I'm dramatic,
But just step into my shoes and you'd feel the static.