January 7, 2025:

In life, we face too much pain and regrets. We don't want it but who am I to stop it from coming back? We hate that we need to face it for the sake of learning. We hate that we need to cry for the sake of facing the truth that there's always a dark side behind the story.

Woman who lived and died when her father died. She sees what it feels like to be in place of sorrow and pain. Then after that, her mother died too unexpectedly and she sees also what it feels to be in regrets and blaming herself for everything. The cries took her into the deepest water for her to analyze the things that taught her what life is.

While her mother is in a coffin. The feelings kill her. Her emotions ate her alive and pain put her into regrets that "what I have done? I don't want it and it really kills me. I lost my dad and now, my mother's gone too. What now? Do I need to face it more? Do I need to suffer like this?

Whatever the question is. It's always the same. The pain and scars taught her a lesson to have compassion and see how things unfold in front of her. She doesn't want it but now it's still there, what is she gonna do?

She lost a woman who was always there for her. A mother who took care of her and did everything she does for her. She used everything to start a living and let them live again after her father died.

And now, she's alone, lonely and broken into pieces. Yes, she sees who those people help her and their family but do they have respect for her by giving her the peace and harmony she needs after her mother took the graveyard and left its world at peace now? Because if they say so? She doesn't see that. She sees chaos and the truth of what the world is. What people are. And how people play their games.

She sees now how cruel and destructive the world is. She sees how disrespectful people are and how life plays whether she likes it or not. She wants peace and harmony. She wants her time alone and sleep for a while but they don't give her that damn freeze of silence. She needs it but none of the people around her don't have compassion for her.

What a reality kicking? People push her to the limit of facing the truth of life. And now, her world shakes and everything turns to another way round of living the truth by herself; only her, as mother and father of her younger sister who is still there facing a college degree. And now she's alone facing hardship and unfairness in the world. The truth be told after she lived and died two times.

-Ghi Cabalza (Mxgchef)