A/n: This book truly is hard to write. I think this is harder to write than my two medical fanfiction books. 😄😄😄

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Arima Kousei POV:

Seto Hiroko went in my room with three strangers. The one in the middle of them is a male who does have a familiar, white flag with a red spot badge attached to his suit. I don't remember where I first saw it. The other two are wearing white lab coats which made me remember my days in the mental institution.

When I saw them, my chest began to hurt. My eyes began to be filled with water. I hugged my legs to protect myself. I don't want to be forced to drink bitter medicines to people I don't trust. I don't want to go back to the mental institution and be locked up away from everyone!

I was crying silently again while I am on my bed. Seto-san sat on my bed and hugged me. She caressed me while I'm crying in fear. "What are they doing here, Seto-san? Are they here to take me from you? I don't want to be locked up again!"

"Kousei, they're here to help. They're here to treat you," she told me. "I'll be here on your side while they work on you. I hope you cooperate."

I nodded in understanding. I'm still afraid but I learned to trust her no matter what. I know that she took me away from the oppressive prison I was in before and she won't return me back there.

"What will you do?" she asked them.

"We have to interview him to know what kind of therapy he needs, ma'am. First, we have to know his past and tell us about it clearly. We will have a lot of sessions of talk therapy until he's out of his depression. All of it will be painful," he told her.

"I don't want to do it. Please, Seto-san, I don't want to talk about my past!" I yelled at her.

The two doctors looked at me with their eyes down.

Do they know the heavy pain I am in whenever I am awake?

I wanted to kill myself and I instinctively numbed myself before as I hate the endless sadness I feel. I don't know how to take the agony on my own. Please take my misery away!

"I'm Dr. Akizawa Toyama, I'm a psychologist. I work in the Japanese Secret Service. Your father is also one of us. He's also an agent in the Secret Service," one of the doctors inside my room told me.

"What- What will you do to me???" I asked.

He slowly took my right hand gently. He took an injection from a female doctor beside him. She didn't introduce herself to me but he said that she is a psychiatrist. After that, he told me as he injects something in me, "I'm injecting you with a calming medicine to help you prevent panicking."

"What do you want?" I blurted out.

I'm still afraid of them. It wasn't just the nurses I am afraid of. I'm afraid of doctors, too.

When I was in the mental institution, doctors enter my room with huge trays of injection and they would keep giving me medicines that make me feel so bad. Doctors tortured me.

I was depressed already but still, they taunted me and hurt me more while I am grieving for the deaths of those I love.

"What is the last thing you remember?" he asked me which returned me back in reality.

I looked at Seto Hiroko. I don't know what to do. I want to run away but they are all around me. "Nothing," I croaked. "I can't remember anything. I don't want doctors or nurses. Please leave."

"I won't force you, Mr. Arima Kousei. Even so, I can read you like a book. You have something you need to take off so you could feel better. It's better to share the pain than taking the pain by yourself. We want to help you heal your wounds," he said to me. Is it true they want to help me heal the deep wounds I have inside me? Doctors back in the mental hospital worsened my wounds.

I gulped. "Seto-san?"

She nodded. "Tell them what you saw through your eyes at the time you went home. You never told anyone what witnessed. You were keeping it all by yourself for so many years. I'm here, Kousei. I'll protect you. You can trust them."

I began crying after she held my right hand. The doctor in front of me helped me sit on the bed. After that, he talked to me gently. He asked me to tell him about the time I found my father dying in our house. When I found father, there we're so much blood on the floor. Whenever I am in that place, I want to run.

My tears were running down my eyes as I go back to that dreadful day. "Kousei, where did you find your father?" Dr. Toyama asked me.

"At the living room. He has three knives attached to his body on our couch. The couch is filled with a lot of blood," I answered. "Dad's bleeding through his head, chest, and shoulders."

"What did you do when you saw him?" he asked me.

"With my shaking hands, I tried to save him. I took off the knives away from him. I carried him while I'm screaming for help. I tried to take him on my shoulders to get him out of the house but I was too small to carry my father out of the house. He collapsed in front of me," I answered as I cry. "I don't know what to do at that time. I tried to run but I was just filled with intense fear. I tried to think I was just dreaming but I know, I wasn't dreaming at all. I can't accept the reality that I have become an orphan." Silence came over us after I said those words.

"Is there more you saw than what you have been telling us?" Dr. Toyama asked me after a few seconds.

The question shocked me. I don't want to say it. There's truly more than that. I don't even know if they will believe it since I erased it using my own hands. "Should I really tell you?" I asked.

Every one of them looked at each other. "You have to tell us. We need you to let go of it. If you tell us, you would know that it won't just be you who will shoulder that pain. I'm Agent Yukauchi Kenichi. Your father is a spy and an undercover agent like us. We believe that he found sensitive information inside the palace grounds while he was a bodyguard of a princess. Tell us what you know. I know that you never spoke to the police. We have informed them that you are not available to talk to them and you are our responsibility. You can trust us. We will help you let go of the past and face the new world," he said to me.

I cried painfully as I slowly tell them what I read at the wall, "Dear Lamb, run before I catch you! If I catch you, your blood will be painted on the wall the same as your father! This is my revenge, dear Lamb."

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Seto Hiroko POV:

After he spoke all of those words, it was also my first time to find him crying terribly. It's as if he's letting go of all the pain and fears he suppressed for years. He held on him as he keeps crying bitterly to him. "Who said that to me, sir? Why did he kill dad? Why does he want to kill me, too?"

With those questions he asked, I was truly surprised. He never asked me those questions before. He's now able to accept his father's death. They were able to break Kousei's guard on himself. Even so, he still is afraid.

Dr. Toyama answered him, "Your questions are also our questions. We are still investigating."

Agent Yukauchi informed me, "This house is forbidden to be entered by the police. The information he holds is confidential. We have to do this after we learned that a member of the police bothered you."

"Thank you, Agent Yukauchi," I told him.

"Is dad really an agent? Is he really a spy and an undercover agent?" Kousei asked him.

"Yes, Kousei," Agent Yukauchi told me.

He smiled at them, "Thank you for helping me let go of it. I feel so much better now that I said those words to you."

"I'm Dr. Irino Mika. You will still need regular check-ups and more sessions, though. You will also still need your medicines. We will still keep on checking your mental health," she told him. She's a psychiatrist.

Dr. Toyama attached the needle of the IV nutrients at the back of his right hand. Then, he gave him antidepressant pills which Kousei tried not to take but with my help, he swallowed the white pills.

"We will help you search through your memories what you could have seen that made you a target of his. We will help you get better, Arima Kousei," Dr. Mika told him.

"Thank you," he told them as his eyes close.

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They were about to go out of my house already when Agent Yukauchi told us, "Aika is Kaori, Seto Hiroko. It is Kaori's decision if ever she will tell him the truth."

"How did she survive? Why does she keep on lying to Kousei?" I asked.

"It was a miracle she survived the surgery and get cured. That is how her parents describe their daughter," he answered me. "If she did lie again, it is for Kousei's sake."

Before they leave, the doctors assigned to him took a deep breath while they look at him sleep on his bed. "The things he knows are confidential. Takahiko's death and his discovery couldn't be publicized immediately. It is our reason why we took him in our custody and witness protection," Dr. Toyama informed me. "The police cannot get in what the Secret Service is working on. As Arima Kousei is his son, we do consider him one of us, too."

As they get in their black car, I bowed. "Thank you for all the help!"

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