Found at the end of foolish
I fumbled rather unruly
Breaking bread and china so bullish
I couldn't understand life fully

And climbing the curtain uncertain
I lost the grip I held so firmly
as doubt and fear came lurking
across my mind like worry

The time of the tides took pleasure
as my recompense came surely
and all that I had once treasured
turned against my very yearning

Somewhere as I drifted inward
all my thoughts at first were wordy
until I faced a truth I'd heard
in my youth now returning

Silence set in like a drug
and all my insides and all my ugly
faced me with an unwelcome hug
but I was done with all my running

Falling free in the wishing well
Washing off all the stain and smelly
and all the drowned out drunken hell
of all the lies my pride would tell me

Hearing now the rolling thunder
over clouds passing wonderfully
through the moments running under
these aching dreams abundantly

All my judgements long reserved
My punishments dealt deservedly
Now my resolve has been unnerved
and moved to tears so fervently

Thank the pain I wallowed in
as my frame endured so thinly
like a veil with a listless grin
showing all set still within me

There was I born and my spirit grew
when life itself began so newly
Here my path diverged into
the dying past and living truly

(March 31st, 2018)