«Please don't take away your hand,» Jimin said tightening the grip.

«I don't want to deceive you,» Emma said stroking his cheek « I don't want to see you get hurt.»

«I don't care, it's my choice to do this.»

«Tae is right to be wary of me,» Emma said leaving her hand sliding from his cheek. «I will bring you trouble. There are things in my past that you wouldn't even imagine. I can't bear it if anything happens to you or your friends.»

«They're your friend too...No, please don't cry,» he said looking at her eyes glimmering with tears.

«I can't tell you why right now,» Emma said with shaky voice. «Please believe me when I say I can be dangerous for you.»

«I can protect myself, and I can protect you if you let me. Please give me a chance.»

Emma looked at Jimin with eyes full of sorrow. «Please give me time to think, I asked you already.»

«I understand, now come I'll take you home.» He said putting his arm around her shoulders.

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After leaving her home, Jimin took out his phone, «Hyung, I need to talk with you. I'll wait for you at Big Hit.»

Jimin was sitting on the floor near the door of a personal studio at Big Hit, still thinking about what happened in her past that scared her so much.

«Jiminie what's wrong?» Namjoon said to him, «Something happened with Emma?» Rm asked him while unlocking his studio door.

Once the door closed behind them, he started to talk. «No, nothing happened.» Jimin said a little frustrated, «it's just that every time I try to talk about us, she closes up like a safe. Nothing enters, nothing goes out,» he said lifting his arm over his head and resting them on the back of that.

«What do you think is the cause?»

«I think that has something to do with her ex, but I'm not sure. You talked to her today so what do you think?» he asked the leader hoping he could have some idea.

«I too feel like she's hiding something, but we can't force her to talk about that,» Namjoon said trying to sound as logical as he could to make his friend think. «When she's ready she will surely tell us. For now, all we can do is, be by her side.»

«Yeah, you're right. But I really wish she could trust us more.» Jimin told patting his shoulder.

«Good now we better go home a take some sleep. Go first, since I'm here I'll work a little then come back.» RM said opening the door for the younger guy.

With Jimin out of sight, he took out his phone and called Bang PD.

«Namjoonah, what's up?»

«PD-nim, you know something about Emma's ex?» silence fell, Pd-nim didn't say anything. «So, you indeed know something,» he stated.

«Yes, and I promised her to let her tell you all when she is ready.» He told him firmly, «But if I can suggest something is this: stay beside her, she need friends most than anyone.» said that PD-nim hung up, leaving Nam with more question, but he decided to do what PD-nim suggested, he would wait until Emma was ready to tell them.

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Just after closing the door of her apartment, Emma collapsed on the floor and burst into tears.

Hearing the cry, Mimi got out of her room and found her best friend shrunk hugging her knees and crying her eyes out. She run to her worried sick. «Unni, what's wrong did something happen?» She asked but Emma didn't say anything she only hugged her.

«Mimi what do I do.» She said sobbing.

«Unni, I don't know what are you talking about.»

«Jimin...can't...together...dangerous,» Emma said from sobbing to another.

Mimi pretty much catches what her friend tried to say and helped her get up and took her to her room. After Mimi put Emma in bed, she got into the kitchen to prepare a cup of hot tea for her friend, to help her calm down. Once back she sat beside her.

«What's happened, Unni?»

«I thought I could but I can't. I can't do this to him.»

«You can't do, what?» she told her sweetly, to help her venting.

«I thought I could be with him without complications, but it's impossible.» She cried out.

«You love him, right?»

Emma nodded, «But I can't drag him into this mess. He doesn't deserve it. Not him nor his friends. What, what if that psycho shows up and tries to do something to him, to them? I can't bear it. I know I will lose the last part of my sanity.» at the last sentence her voice broke. She was almost out of energy; Mimi could already see her eyes closing.

«Don't worry, Unni he can't touch them, no one in his right mind would even try. Now try to sleep a little. It will help you.» Emma didn't know that her friend put the drug the doctors gave her the last time. It was a bland sedative. Emma being in that state of mind, again, was what scared Mimi the most. In that state, she was able to do the craziest thing, like she already tried once. A shudder run through her spine at the mere thought.

Once sure that Emma was asleep, Mimi took her phone and left the room. She was about to dial the number, but she stopped herself. It's not on me to tell him. If I do, she would kill me for sure, she thought slightly opening the door and putting the phone on her nightstand.

At that moment, the girls didn't know that someone saw them the whole time.

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The next day Emma woke up with a really strong headache, and out of energy. She was so tired of being wary of the world. She dragged herself into the bathroom and instead of taking a shower, she filled the tube. She needed to relax.

The bath helped a lot but she still thought something was off, so she decided to take a run to relieve stress. Emma first started like always, calmly taking the peace in the street, but after a while, she started running like there was no tomorrow, like she ran for her life. She was almost out of breath when she arrived at the park near her condo. She sat and opened the bottle of water. She was drinking it when a woman with a little kid about two years old approached her.

«Excuse me, aren't you the girl who used to live around here?» the woman asked.

Emma looked at her and then she had a flash about her. «Oh, yes. That's me. How are you?»

«I'm happy to see you back after all that happened to you.»

«What are you talking about?» She asked, her heart thumping so hard that make it almost impossible to hear anything other.

«I heard you lost the baby, that you had a miscarriage.»

«Oh, yes.» She answered taking a breath. «Yes, the miscarriage.»

«You know, I never once believed what your ex said. I know you are good with children; I saw it with my eyes. You were always playing so happily with them.» The woman said.

«Yeah, I always liked th...» she started to say. «...what do you mean? What that bas...sorry what that person said?»

The woman sat beside Emma and started to speak. «He would show up almost every day and tell the people in the park that you took drugs to terminate the pregnancy, and when you didn't succeed, you're gone in one of those illegal clinics and after aborting the baby you make them sterilize you.»

Emma was lost. He wanted to make her pass for a mental, again. How could he sprout such nonsense like that? How could he be still ruining her life like that, after two years? Emma also tough that maybe, she didn't have to come back; but then she couldn't have met the loveliest man ever. The man she loved.

She was so lost in her thoughts that she almost missed her place. Once at home again, all the tension was released and she let out a yell of frustration, it was lunch time but she didn't have the stomach to eat anything right now. All she wanted to do was kill him, but she opted for a book instead.

Taking a book from her library, "The Lord of The Rings" her favorite, she sat on the couch and started reading. Along the way, she dozed off, because she was woken up by her phone ringing.

It was a text from Jimin that told her that that night it was the movie night at his house and she was invited. Emma didn't feel like going that night, but then the thought of what the woman told her made her so mad and so sick of all this that she decided right in that spot that from that moment on she would do whatever she wanted and be with whoever she love.

Do-You wasn't going to manipulate her like that. Just the thought of passing a couple of hours without thinking about anything and on top of that with him, it would be heaven. So, she replied that she was in.

At eight she was out of the complex but a bunch of people were blocking the way, she was curious about what was happening and started to go near, but someone stopped her.

«Who the hell,» Emma said spinning around to see who stopped her. «Manager Sejin!?» she exclaimed.

The man looked over her shoulder to see if someone heard them, «Someone wrote on the SNS that one of the members might have a foreigner girlfriend, so they gathered here to see if it was true.» he told guiding her through the underground parking lot. From the start, their manager didn't like her too much, and she could now understand why. All the unwanted focus on the guys was really troublesome. When they were out of the parking lot they parted ways.

Emma bowed to him «Thank you Manager Sejin.» The manager on his part made a nod with his head and he was gone.

Once at the front door, she was already hearing the guys talking about what kind of movie they were going to see and someone saying that he didn't like horror movies. Emma couldn't take it and, pressing the doorbell, she giggled.

Hobi opened the door wide-eyed when he saw her. «Emma?! What are you doing here?» he asked hugging her.

«Jimin invited me. He didn't tell you?» she asked him, but they were interrupted by a loud crashing noise.

From the living room started a chorus of "Hyung, Joonie". Looking up in frustration he said «Joonie must have broke something, again,» Hobi said letting her in.

«It happens often?» Emma asked giggling.

«Almost on a daily basis,» Suga told from behind her. «Hi, Emma. If Jimin told us you were coming I would have called my gf.»

«I would love to know her,» Emma told him.

«No worries, you can meet her tomorrow. My gf and also Namjoon's will be with us,» he told her. «Jiminah, Emma's here. Go in the living. We're watching horror tonight, hope you're fine with it. If not doesn't matter, we're watching horror anyway.»

«Wow, really.» She told him jokingly. «By the way, I love horror movies, don't worry.»

«Baby girl, you're here. Hi.» Jimin said hugging her tightly. «They told you we're going to see a horror movie tonight?» he told her pouting.

Emma nodded. «Hi, my mochi,» she told him squishing his cheeks. «Wow, you're so squishy.»

«I know I'm cute.» he told her proudly, then added «and sexy and lovely.»

Emma just bit her lips in an attempt not laughing at his words.

Once everyone was gathered in the living, they discussed what to see. They choose "Train to Busan".

That movie was one of her favorites, she didn't look much tv but whenever back home where airing it she would see it.

Emma crawled beside Jimin who was leaning his arm behind her. It wasn't even passed half of the movie that she started to feel drowsy and in a blink of an eye, she was sleeping.

Jimin felt pressure on his chest, and looking down saw the girl asleep. He circled her shoulder, but he felt like she was too uncomfortable so he made her lean her head on his tights, put a kiss on her forehead, and got his attention back to the screen toying with a strand of her hair.

Emma slept throughout what remained of the movie despite all the screaming sound coming from Hobi and Jin. Jimin wanted to let her sleep some more but he woke her up. «Hey, baby girl it's time to get up,» she said without success. «Hey, sleeping princess time to get up.»

Emma's eyes opened with fear in them. «What did you say?» she asked as calmly as she could.

«I said sleeping princess,» he felt her trembling hard on his tights.

«Don't call me that ever again,» she said so harshly that all the guys were looking at her. When she felt the other gaze upon her, she excused herself. «Omo, I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have said it that way. Really I'm so, so, sorry.» red-faced she took her belonging and started to walk toward the door, only to stop and bow to them. «I'm sorry. I think I should head home now.» then ran out of the house.

They were all still in a daze when Nam poked Jimin, «You better follow her. Now.» with that Jimin was out of the house.

While she was walking toward the main gate, Emma was internally screaming at herself. Brave my ass, he will no affect you anymore my ass. One word was enough to make all my bravery crumble. And what did I...Aish I can't believe I was that rude.

Jimin saw her going towards the main gate where all those fans were camping. He ran to her and pulled her to him in a black spot.

Emma was startled and about to scream when the person spoke. «It's me Jimin.» she sighed in relief but soon after stepped back from him. «Come I'll take you home.»

«I don't want to go home right now. I need to clear my thoughts. See you tomorrow,» Emma said walking in the direction of the underground parking lot.

«Then, we will go somewhere other than home. You choose,» he said taking her hand.

They end up going to the park near her house «I love this park at night. Is quiet, during the day here is plenty of playing kids.»

«You don't like them?» Jimin asked sitting on the swing.

«On the contrary, I like them. Their giggles are so contagious that every time I find myself smiling at them.» Emma told him to sit on the other swing and start rocking.

«Do you want them someday?»

«It's always been my dream to have them, but I would have really low chances to conceive.»

«Oh, I'm sorry. Is due to some kind of accident?»

«Yeah, kind of,» she said tilting her head and raising eyebrows. « I got pregnant once, unfortunately, had a miscarriage,» Emma concluded looking ahead. She then side-glanced at him. He was visibly shaken so she added to lighten the mood. «It's all in the past now.»

He made the swing stop and helped her get up. He placed one hand around her waist and with the other one on her chin pulled her head up, with a sudden move he pulled her close to him.

Before she could react, he was already kissing her. In the heat of the moment, Emma kissed him back, Omg he's the God of kisses, she felt breathless and opened her mouth, he put his tongue in and twirled it with hers. Too hot I need to...to but her mind blanked out and she put her arms around his neck, taking him nearer to deepen the kiss. Jimin's hands were on her cheeks. It began hard to breathe and as she came to her senses stopped him. «No, please. It's not right.» Still breathless.

«Why, because you need to go back to Italy? I don't care about that; I just want to be with you.»

«That's one of the reasons.» Trying hard to remember how to breathe.

«I don't care! I love you, and you love me too I can see it. The rest mean nothing. Please give me a chance, please, please!» He said half pouting half pleading.

«Please don't do this to me.» She told him, on the verge of tears. Feeling her defenses crumble.

He seemed to be sure of his words and she wanted him in her life. It was like they were meant to be together and only said «We could try. But if anything, happen I will go back to Italy immediately. Can you accept it?»

«Ok, I will.» He told her a little reluctant. «So, will you date me?»

«Yes, ok.» Satisfied he took Emma in his arms and made her spin. Once he put her down, he cupped her face and kissed her again, her forehead, cheeks, and lips. He traced the contour of her lips with his fingers «You're so beautiful,» and started to kiss her again.

She liked his lips. Emma was looking at them, they were so plump and soft, they were the sexiest lips she ever saw. No one in his right mind would ever stop kissing them, and her knees gave out. She was about to fall but he caught her and hugged her tight. «Jimin...air...can't breathe,» tapping his back. He let her go and she coughed.

«Sorry baby girl, but I'm just so happy. I love you, you don't even imagine how much,» saying that he took her hand and headed to the house.

«I think a got it.» She said laughing. He laughed together with her.

«Found you!» Someone whispered from the shadow, and chill run-down Emma's spine, she turned back but didn't see anything.

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