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Warning: Medyo angst.

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Baekhyun covered his nose as he entered the bar. The music is too loud; it's hurting his ears already. The inside of the bar is dim and people are shouting everywhere. Bodies bumped against him and he yelped in shock as a hand grabbed his butt.

He walked fast out of the crowded dance floor and into the tables around it, finding Park Chanyeol... finding his Chanyeol. He squinted in the dark and looked around.

"Hey... looking for someone?" the bartender threw another bottle into the air and it dropped swiftly on his hand. "Your girlfriend? Or boyfriend?" he asked as he eyed Baek.

Baekhyun hesitated for a moment before leaning into the counter. "Do you know Park Chanyeol?" he shouted through the music. "He's... h-he's always here."

The bartender laughed and nodded immediately. "That chick magnet!" he exclaimed. "That giant knows his ways around every girl here. Is he your friend?" he asked, his smile wide and happy.

Baek swallowed the heavy lump on his throat and nodded. "Y-yes." He breathed as he felt the build up of tears in his eyes. "H-he's my friend." He said and he didn't expect it would be that painful saying that one word.

The bartender nodded and pointed. "There he is." He said. "He's been here for more than 5 hours already."

Baekhyun doesn't have to step closer to recognize Chanyeol's white hair and figure. He's with two of his friends and is laughing and drinking with more than five girls all wearing revealing dresses. Baek slowly shook his head and but his lower lip to keep himself from crying.

It was always like that.

What had gone wrong?

Whenever Baekhyun sees him like that, he would quietly walk away and cry all the pain out inside their house. And when Chanyeol's home already, Baek will pretend like everything is fine... that he's alright and he'll let Chanyeol fool him over again.

Baek stepped back and was about to go out of the bar already when Chanyeol somehow sensed his presence and he looked at him, his laughs turning into a surprised look.

Baekhyun's eyes went wide and he ran fast out of the bar, bumping into all the other persons inside. He started his car and cried all the way back into their house.

He can't take another night like this anymore. He can't take all the pain already.

Byun Baekhyun was stuffing all his clothes inside his luggage when the door of their bedroom flew open, revealing a Park Chanyeol looking at him with surprise.

"Baek.." called and Baekhyun hated the fact that he still smells of alcohol and girls. "Baek.. what are you doing?"

Baekhyun swallowed and wiped his face with the back of his hand. "I'm leaving, Chanyeol." He said firmly through the tears. "I'm finally leaving so I hope you'll be happy now."

He started to zip his bag and gasped when Chanyeol grabbed his arm, pulling him back. "Baekhyun.. please. You don't have to do this." He said quietly.

Baek stared back at him, his eyes red and puffy from all the crying. He slowly pulled his arm back but Chanyeol's grip is strong enough. He sighed and finally started to cry really hard.

"What did I do, Chanyeol?" he sobbed, looking at Chanyeol with nothing but pain in his eyes. "What did I do to make you hurt me like this, huh?! Tell me!" he tried to push the taller but Chanyeol remained motionless, just holding Baekhyun's hand firmly.

"I gave you everything..." Baek whispered. "I gave you nothing but my love, Yeol. And you continue to hurt me. You're so evil Park Chanyeol! I hate you! I hate you so much!" he shouted and looked down, crying. Baekhyun's knees started to weaken and he dropped to the floor, his tears falling on the carpet.

Chanyeol finally let go of Baekhyun's arm. He stood infront of his boyfriend, eyes emotionless and his breathing steady. "When did you know?" he whispered. "When did you start going in that bar?"

Baekhyun slowly looked up at him. "You thought I wouldn't know?" he breathed. "You thought I wouldn't feel how cold you've become?"

He slowly grabbed all the clothes that had fallen on the floor. "I go there every night, Yeol." He whispered, tears unstoppable. "I go there. Watching you... thinking about what could had gone wrong between us. Thinking that this is all my fault. That somehow, I wasn't enough."

Baek slowly stood up and continued packing. "We were happy... right?" he sobbed. Just Chanyeol's presence beside him made him want to stay... to make things work. But he knew that every pain has to end.

And this is the only way.

He zipped his bag and looked back at Chanyeol who is still watching him. "We were happy." He cried and touched Chanyeol's arm. "We were happy until something happened to you. What did I do, Chanyeol? Am I really that bad for you? Am I really not enough?"

Baek pulled his hand back and held it against his chest. "My friends say that I am crazy.. crazy and dumb for staying no matter how many times you lied to me.. or no matter how many times you rub on my face that you don't love me anymore."

"Baek.."

Baekhyun slowly shook his head and wiped his tears away with his fingers. "I guess I am crazy." He said and laughed bitterly. "Crazy enough to love you still. Crazy enough to love you more than I could ever love anyone else."

Baek grabbed the handle of his luggage and set it down beside him. "You know, Chanyeol. They said I should try hurting you the way you hurt me." He sobbed and looked directly into the giant's eyes. "But I know.. that if I had the chance.. I wouldn't do it."

He looked away and pulled his bag, walking out of their room. "Be happy, Park Chanyeol." He said without looking back. "I hope you'll find what you didn't see in me."

Chanyeol heard the gentle close of the main door and he looked down, noticing a shirt Baekhyun had accidentally left. He bent down and gently grabbed the cloth, putting it against his chest.

It still smells of him.

It still smells of his Baekhyun.

Then suddenly he remembered... Baekhyun is not his anymore. And somehow, that made tears run down his face.

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After one year, Baekhyun is placing a vase he just bought on top of a table when the door bell rang. He wiped sweat from his forehead and didn't bother checking the peephole of his door. He pulled it open, revealing the last person he expected to see that cold night.

"I can't find it." Chanyeol whispered. "I can't find anything that could make me happy as much as when I'm with you, Baek."

Baekhyun noticed Chanyeol's puffy eyes as if he'd been crying all night. "C-Chanyeol.."

Chanyeol bit his lip and he started to cry. "I'm so sorry Baekhyun.." he sobbed as he held the hem of his coat. "I am so sorry for being so stupid. I can't lose you... I can't lose you again. I am so... so sorry." The giant cried infront of his door, his body shaking and his voice hoarse.

Baekhyun reached out and touched his face. "I-I was hurt, Yeol." He whispered, tears already filling his eyes.

Chanyeol nodded and held Baekhyun's hand that's on his face. "I know, Baek. I know." He sobbed. "And I am so sorry. I regret every single thing I did. I regret making you cry... I can't... I can't believe I watched you go that night."

Baek smiled through the tears. He sighed and held Chanyeol's hand that is hanging limply beside him. "Stupid." He breathed.

The giant slowly looked up at him and didn't waste any time in pulling him for the hug he longed for so long. "Baek." he sobbed. "I love you. I love you and I'm so sorry for not loving you the way you deserve to be."

Baek hugged Chanyeol back. "I love you, too. And I never stopped doing it." He whispered. "Just... please... don't hurt me again."

Chanyeol kissed Baekhyun's hair and brushed his face. "No. Not again." He said. "Cause I finally found myself."

"I've been keeping it." Baek whispered.

"You've been... all along." Chanyeol agreed.

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