1. I dont have any pen name its fizo aka fiza only. 😋(nam toh suna hoga)... i have been changed alot in the past 2 years...... only if you know😂 so I'll tell you the things which is going on with me lately...... many of you may not know that i am currently pursuing degree in fashion designing ( shock mat hona😂) jo k alsi insaan ko line pa lanay k lie bht acha decision tha.

2. I am so so proud of myself that i don't crack pjs and lame jokes anymore😂 trsut me, my comebacks are getting so much better while arguing and i am so happy for that. But still i got more good answers after the arguments only.

3. I am going through eating syndrome now a days 😭 i thought to utilize this lockdown and starts taking care of myself but all in vain, i am currently a panda but by every passing day i am sure I'll turn into an elephant at the end of quarantine. I made a timetable to set my daily routine, to take care of myself, my skin and my hairs but all in vain. I have lots of hacks, tips and stuff but in the end i just end up doing nothing but eating, eating and eating. And trust me i am so pissed off at myself but still do nothing.

4. I am the most clumsy, idiotic person you'll ever come across bcz i do soo many stuff which makes me embarrassed. There was a time in my school where whenever i did something which makes me embarrassed i would end up crying thinking that why did i even do that now everyone will make fun of me but sandeep mahehswari changed everything for me😂😂😂trust me, now even if i am embarrassed i am the one who'll make fun of herself along with others so last year in December i guess i had a doubt on someone at my university for staring me [gawking😤] so, i just want to make sure before you know complaining it to community. I was ready to capture it in camera waiting for the person because i had to clear my doubt...... the person didnt turn up so my friend's said we should leave because we might miss our bus. I was so excited to be spy but it turned out vain but as soon as i come out, i saw the lift open and the person come out and he was looking at my direction, i just opened my camera so that i can capture and complain to community about him when my leg got stuck into the side wheel and dhaaam i fall down 😂😂😂😂 exit gate is infront of boys pakring (now you can guess what would have happen to me) thank God i fall on my knees and my both friends was like...... i didn't even look up because i know the damaged was done..... (someone just come and asked me.... i just utter a thank you and stands then after taking 2 steps i felt like fainting when my friends hold me and i sits on ground so that my head can come back to its place then i stand and realizeapprox 20 to 30 boys were staring me and i look at my friends and started laughing( i laugh like a horse if you don't know) but none laugh at me back ( that was happy moment for me) so when we crossed the barrier my friend's do ask me what was that and i just stated that,"mai gir gai sabke samne", and laughed....... they two also laughed .... i was hurt in the knee and it was bleeding too..... i didn't realize i go back home..... all the way i was just making a joke for myself and as soon as i entered home i started crying telling my mother and sibling what happened and all they was like," ksiine dekha toh nai?", or maine kaha,"apko kya lagta hai or kyu rori hooon?"............. but then phr i again make fun of myself infront of them to escape the embarrassment as they were teasing and i told my best friend too who was shocked because she knows when i fell down from stairs in school i cried so badly because 2 people saw me and here it was many and i still don't cry.... so yeah i have now habit to make fun of myself to escape such embarrassment 😂😂and i still do same....... but i don't show my all red face to anyone 😝 you see how smart i am become. ( and yes i passed my mission of spying next day 😈 😂 now my class stare that boy so that he forget how to stare at someone)

5. Honestly, i don't love myself. I am just surrounded by my complexions, insecurities and lack of confidence. But, that doesn't mean i don't try.... i am trying and figuring these things out really very well and i have succeeded in some too...... actually the problem is i am not be able to the things which once i was good at.... like i was soo good in drawings, sketching and painting that everyone's used to love it and now when i am in the field where it is needed the most.... i am sturggling a lot with these like the easiest thing which i could easily do few time back is now hard for me..... i don't know why....🤦‍♀️ but still i have improved alot because my university effects me in a good way in all these things so, i hope by the end of this year i just let these things go too otherwise I'll keep thinking me as the useless one.

6. People thinks that i am naive and dumb and they can manipulate me easily but the truth is i am way mature they think, yes i may be childish but not stupid.... there was a time where i was humiliated infront of a crowd where i doesn't have enough strength to speak up but not, now.... yes i am silent till now tooo because i believe in good even in a bad..... i am that type of person who'll support you even after breaking herself with the Truth. But, I'll be there because you choose to speak the truth instead of lying on my face and thats what matters. There is only two chances in my life, one which you break and second which i give and even after second you stay same then bye bye, you don't exist for me anymore.

7. I look serious but trust me i am not. Like i am but not really except at some points. There are so many people says they think i am serious that's why they don't really be friend with me but, once they knows toh taubaa😂😂 then they'll know i am a good person, lol.

8. You know the most annoying thing in me is that i am a cry baby😭😭😭😭i dont know why but each passing time i am becoming emotional..... you'll see me crying probably at everything.... I'll cry watching doremon if nobita cries or you can see me crying while reading a happy sentence.... like two days back in dharu unconditional love i was crying at RagSan proposal scene... okay the siblings love tho i cried because it was heart touching but in ragsan happy scenes i was crying then yesterday at campus crush i was crying and just after that i watched Tom and jerry where tom was heartbroken because of that white cat and i was crying there tooooo..... 😭😭😭😭...... from two days my sister is taunting me over this alot..... i would even cry if my cousin brother's daughter (2 years old) says "fiaa phopho gandi", and the other one her small brother dont come to me🙄💔 because i love them soo much only those person who are in my Instagram knows it thoo..... 🤦‍♀️i would happily consider counseling to get rid of this cry session because my mother thinks i am going through a heartbreak...😤

9. I am the eldest in my family but do they even consider me? No. My mother thinks i am the immature one and papa thinks i am the sensitive and naive like seriously, i know every household work she herself dont give me work because she thinks I'll ruin it because i do it other way and she other way.... trust me from the time i am at home na i heard her dialogue for umpteenth time that," Sasural jakr naak katwadogi wo kahenge maa baap ne tameez sikha kr nai bheji... kuch kam dhang se nahi karti....apna dimagh toh lagana nahi hai isne and so much more" it's all because i don't know how to fold clothes properly and also dont know how to knit flour and make proper gol rotis..... bss itna sa islie sunti hoon.....it happened that once my mother is teaching( the first and last time) she says to stir the spoon and i keep doing it but the chicken was sticking on the vessel so, i add some water using my common sense which i don't have according to my mother then she comes and says i add lots of water and i should add tomatoes and not water......... after that time i didn't even stir the spoon and the chicken was slightly burned and then again i got a lecture that i should have use my common sense which i used earlier and got the same so, after that she stopped teaching me and i still get taunt for that..... yesterday too i was cutting tomatoes for dinner she was taunting me huh..... i don't know what should i do so that she can say that her elder daughter knows something.

10. Yes, i am lazy and this lockdown is making me more😭i am not even completing my online assignments 🤕 i everyday makes a to-do list but end up doing nothing except some household chores and taking classes and reading stories.

12. If i have written 20 stories on ragsan then I'll have more than 20 drafts on ragsan stories too😂😂😂which i never published but end up giving new one.

13. I have one fear nowadays and that is marriage. For me it is beautiful as well as scary. I know that i have to get married but, to be honest i am not ready at all but seems like my parents are so keen on it... Because of this lockdown i am saved otherwise toh meri band baj jati...... 😂you know what i did to escape it....... if you have read phas gaya re sanskar then you would have know what ragini did and i did the same..... I love and admire one name so i keep condition that I'll marry the person whose name is this and also because of Aliya's story syndrome😏 my second condition is to get married in a happy joint family like sanskar ki mrs.... uff my wishes..... my mother was like that i was joking but i made it all serious😎 now even if any alliance come i am going to reject 😈😈😈 ..... they'll keep finding the one who i want and it'll also give me time to over come this fear you see..... as destiny is still unknown hushh.... but i just it do come true😝🙊 fantasies...... side effects of being a reader.

14. I want to visit india once i my life and i have promsied myself i just wish i could fulfill it and meet all my mentals😘😘😘and you all whoever i could meet and i also want to eat street food thats why😂😂😂 in my old diary i have list to my fav eatery places at other countries 😂

15. I am learning cooking from my father who is a great great cook and loves cooking... he even teach my mother and his sister cooking.....he also makes fusion of something and his recipes are all secret even from my mother but he is telling me 😈(mama is jealous). He spent most of his life outside the country doing all the work he could do to establish everyone. I love my father and want to be his son you know because all of our relatives consider us weaks and always do injustic because they think my father don't have a elder son which makes me upset sometimes as being elder too i can't do anything. I want to open a resturant for my father because he always get sponsor of opening it but they all are means and just want to make him work and not give him his actual right so we are not letting him do that bbut i am sure if he step into this business than he'll sure get what he deserve.

16. I don't know which ghost possessed me now a days but i am irrititating my family too no end😂😂 you know there is a thing like when i involve in something too much na then i start behaving like that character...😂

17. I love baking but my mother didn't let me do it because when i did it the first time i ruined it I completely. So, it was like i want to make chocolate cake but due to the more amount of flour it turned out into dough which i gladly says cookie dough but what i did was that i didnt have oven so i tried to bake it in a vessel which it didn't happened even i bake it for more then an hour still it didnt bake and it turned out worst from that day my mom doesn't trust me and she don't let me but she let my younger sister makes it😢 thats why i want some good recipe's.... Alloooo help me naaa......

18. I am trying to involve myself more into my religion than dunya....... because i think in this lockdown GOD not only gives us a chance to be close with HIM but also to make ourselves and our lives good. I want to die as a GOOD MUSLIM.

19. I am happy for the change in my life because i am not more short tempered except at some point.... i have become more calm and understanding and also i changed my perspective of viewing things too... i believe in ying yang and karma and that's why whenever something bad happens i wait for the day when It'll all turn out good so i am satisfied.

20. My friends and family are my lifelines and i can do anything for them. Maybe i am not to much expressive but every small things matters to me.

21. I want to learn Turkey and korean language... will try to do it while studying.

22. I want to make a good use of my life and i am trying to do it.... In shaa Allah I'll get rid of this laziness and stuff soon....

23. I can never get bored of old movies, cartoons,dramas and movies. K-dramas, Turkish Dramas, Punjabi Moviesand stuff Also nowdays i am intrested in novels alot like gangster types😂 and i am making my whole family involve in dramas tooo.....

24. I was happy that i got to know how to do basic makeup because of the university but trust me from the day of lockdown i forget that too😭 i tried doing it two three times but failed miserably. Huh, tutorials time.

25. I used to be sleepyhead that too changes i only sleep 3 4 hours now...... 😭i am becoming a couch potato.

26. I have written the dare lit of 2020 and 2021 too so don't tag me.next year😂😂😂😂and i think i have wrote toooo much hope it wasn't boring .... it was all the last and this year things which i shared......

Pheww done.......now please whoever reads and comments now its your turn to do it....and yes i love you all from the bottom of my heart for tolerating me😘😘😘you all my family........

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