I think I am in love with Jax Hynn.

I realized the true meaning why I love everything about him. Why my heart beats so fast when he is near me. I love him, not just as a best friend, but more. I don't know if I will ever love him enough to date, but for now I just to be with him.

"Are you ok Eve?" I looked up to see my brother looking am me worriedly. I just realized that I have been staring down at my plate for the past five minutes.

I cleared my throat. "Yes, I am fine. I just dozed off for a second." He shakes his head, thank god he believed me.

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After eating our supper I went up to my room. When I got up the stairs my phone ranged. I looked down at it and saw it was the school. Why would they be calling?

"Hello?"

"Is this Eve rose?"

"Yes it is."

"I wanted to inform you that with bad weather school will be out for the rest of the week."

"Alright thank you."

I was so happy to be out of school for the rest of the week. We only went to school two times, and today is only Tuesday. Even though we have not been going for long, I am happy to be out. Yesss!!!

While I was having my small victory dance, the door to my room came open. I turned around to see a very confused Jax. You know, he looks like a lost puppy when he is confused.

"What are you doing?" He asked while crossing his arms. I found out that he has muscles. I never noticed it before till now, but he is very fit. He looked at me and erupted my thoughts.

"I was happy because school got out for the rest of the week." He made a small smile appear on his lips.

"Well in that case do you want to go to a party tomorrow?"  A party?!? I never been to one before, I doubt my brother would let me go.

"I don't think I could go, sorry." I gave him a small smile to make it not so bad, but he furrowed his eyebrows at me.

"Why not?" I took a breath, if he thinks I am lame then so be it!!

"I never been to one before, and I don't think my brother would like that at all." He cane closer to me, and looked at me at eye level.

"First, it would be amazing to go. Second, if your brother says no, then sneak out." He have a killer smirk. If they say looks can kill, then I am dead right now.

I thought about it, and battled with this in my head. I can't sneak out I would be dead for sure. My parents would kill my brother for letting me sneak out to a party, and then kill me for going. Then again, I am 18 it would be really fun to something new. I could meet new people, have a blast, dress up, and just enjoy myself. It would only be for a couple of hours anyways, right?

"Fine, I will go only if my brother says yes." He looked at me, and nodded knowing that I won't go against his rules. I was nervous to ask my brother now, but oh well. I have to start living..

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After making up my mind I went downstairs and decided to ask my brother. While I was in the living preparing, and hoping he hold not kill me. Jax was hiding behind the stairs like a coward. I swear it's like sometimes guys can't do things right. They have to send a girl to do everything, by herself.

"Hey big bro.." he looked at me and gave me that 'what do you want' look.

"What do you need? Money? Clothes?" I stood there and fumbled for my words to say.

"I-I was w-wondering if I c-could go to a p-party?..." I stayed silent hoping he would not jump out of his chair and yell at me.

Please. Please dear lord, don't let him kill me. I am to young to die!!! He got up, and put both hands on my shoulder. He made a loud sighs before looking straight at my eyes.

"When?" I took a sigh of relief at least I know I am not dead, yet.

"Tomorrow.." He looked behind me and then back at me. I was wondering who he was looking at, or for. Then I remembered all about Jax.

"Is he coming with you?" I shook my head yes. I don't really know why, but I was more scared that my brother was being nice.. what is he planning?

"Fine, you can go. On one condition." BOOM..there it was. The one condition, the thing that all people hate to hear. What was he going to make me do? Chores? Be nice to him? I was honestly worried what he was going to say.

"You have to clean the house for a whole week. That's it, now go and do whatever you do." He shooed me off, and I made my way upstairs. Great!! Now I get to clean the house all week. This is just my day.

"What are you looking at?" I saw Jax smiling at me from the top of the stairs. He looked so...ugh, I need to stop thinking.

"See. It was not that bad...was it?" I shook my head no. It really was not that bad, but I do know my brother and he might tell our parents if I do what he says. That's my brother for you, let's me do whatever then goes around and tell mom and dad everything. In the end though I love my big bro.

I decided to call my friend Sarah, to ask her what I should wear. I was nervous as hell, to hear her reaction. I know she will scream on top of her lungs.

The truth is, I never did anything ever since I was ten. I never went out, had sleepovers, I never even wanted to go on vacation. I was to depressed, and upset to do anything. Now thugs have changed. I have a light in my life, and I don't want I met that go.

"Hello?"

"Sarah. It's me Eve, I need some help."

.....

"Help? With what?"

Here it comes, the screaming.

"I am going to a party with Jax, and I need an outfit to wear. I was needing your advice."

"AHHH!!! FINALLY THE TIME HAS COME!!"

And there it was, the scream...

"Can you help me of not?"

"Of course I will help you. I will come over tomorrow and help you get ready, and by the way...are you and Jax a thing?"

I was shocked for a moment.

"No, we are just friends."

"Mhmm...ok. Well talk to you later, and be prepared to look beautiful."

Well, with that out of the way.. I laid some to finally get some shut eye. I turned over and say that Jax was laying next to me. I smiled seeing him so peaceful. He really has changed has he?

I don't know what to think anymore. He was my best friend that I ever had, then he left me. Left me all alone, and I never had a friend like him ever before. I am glad he is back in my life, he made the dark clouds go away, and the sun came back. I was not sad anymore, every smile that I made was real. Every laugh was real, everything was real. I never thought I could be happy again after eight years ago. I guess what they say is true, but at the same time it's not. I know this joy won't last for long, but I do know this.

Time can, and will heal pain. Maybe now I can live toward the future, instead of living in the past. It's time that I have fun, and forget all the pain.

Thank you for reading this. Leave a comment and tell me what you think, love ya!!! I will try to get another chapter in tomorrow.