After a couple of days after what had happened between Shane and I, I have been hanging out more with the boys. It has been really fun though we all went to see the Statue of Liberty, and went to watch a baseball game.

I never thought that I could have this much fun with them together, but I guess that I can. Those little words that Sarah told me how I might like Shane still are going through my head.

He is sweet, nice, and everything that any girl would want. He is the guy next door type, while Jax is the bad boy style. He may not always be the nicest to everyone, but he is a really great guy.

"Hey Eve are you ok?" I looked over at the other bed and saw that Sarah was looking at me with a worry look on her face.

"Yeah I am fine, it's just....never mind." I don't really want to say anything.

"It's what, you can tell me." She looked at me with pleading eyes. I gave in after a couple more minutes.

"I was just wondering what would happen if Jax and I did go out, and I might be thinking about Shane too. I just don't know what to think anymore, I like Shane and I like Jax too. They both are really good guys, but my feelings are everywhere right now." I looked at her deeply in thought.

"Well you and Jax have known each other for a long time then he left you, and now since Shane is here I saw how close you and him have become. I know that you two are just fake dating and everything, but maybe he really does like you I know he does, but like what if all this time that was his plan all along. To get you and him together, and not you and Jax."

"Sarah your crazy, I doubt that will happen. He wanted to help me get Jax jealous, but I guess he might have had other motifs. I like Shane and I know that I am different with him than Jax, but I have always been closer to him than anyone else."

"Listen, maybe what you and Jax had was in the past and your trying to make like it was before, and act like nothing ever changed. It might be time to leave the past where it belongs, the past. Look I have to meet my parents for lunch, they want us to have a day to our selves. Bye."

I watched her get up and leave the room, leaving me alone. I don't know what to do.. I grabbed my favorite pillow that I brought and stuffed my face in it.

"Should I leave the past, and make a new future or should I try to make it all better than what it was."

The past might have been rough, and I should let it go but maybe I can just make it better than what it was. I love the guys, but I don't know who I really want to be with.

I grabbed an old locket of mine, I wear it everywhere that I go. It's an old picture of me and Jax when we were just five. We looked so care free and happy, and now look at us. Always having to be carful what we say and do, but we are happier than before.

Things are improving and changing, but maybe it's all for the good of things not bad. It's time I done something that should have been done a long time ago. I need to make a stop to Shane, then Jax. It's time they know how I feel about this.

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I walked across the hallway to the boys room. We only have this weekend and next week left, and I don't want to spend it wondering things. I decided to talk to Shane first since he is one that decided this whole thing.

I stood in front of that door for what felt like forever until finally I knocked. "Hello?" I heard on the other side of the door.

"Shane?" Silence, then the door opened to reveal a tired looking Shane. Here goes nothing.

"Yes?" He looked at me waiting for me to talk. I took a deep breath and started to talk.

"I can't fake date you anymore." The tiredness that was once in his eyes was completely gone.

"What! Why, what did I do??" I looked at him and was shocked that he was mad. I have to do this if not now I might never get the courage again.

"Look, I can't do this anymore because I don't like you like that at all. Your a great guy, and a very good friend to me, but I just have feelings for someone else and I can't do this anymore. I am sorry Shane, I really am." I waited for what felt like forever until he finally answered me.

"I understand Eve, I just wish that this could have became more real. Who ever you like, and I can guess who, I just hope that is what will make you happy." I nodded tears pricking at my eyes.

"It will make me happy, thank you Shane." I have him a huge hug and for once in my life I felt relieved.

"Go tell him Eve, I know he is waiting for you." I nodded my head and left his room. I want to wait till tonight to tell him. I want it to be special.

Once I got back to my room I got out my phone and started to call Jax's number. I was so nervous to even dial his number that my fingers was shaking. Once on the third ring, he finally answer he phone.

Jax: Hello?

Eve: Hey, can we talk later tonight. There is something that I really need to talk about.

........

Jax: Yeah of course, is there something wrong?

Eve: No, it's just that I need to talk to you please.

Jax: Alright, just tell me when and where.

Eve: My room at 7:30pm, Sarah will still be gone with her parents.

Jax: Alright, see you then.

Thats it, tonight will be the night that I tell Jax how I feel. The reason for everything and the reason why I was so mean to him. I finally have the guts to be brave and tell him the truth.

Tonight I will tell Jax that I love him.

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