Every day since I was ten years old, I could never be fully happy. The only true friend that I ever had was Jax Hynn. He was sweet, but he had his flaws. Like everything good in life,  it comes to an end.

I could never imagine being hurt by someone that I loved and cared for. Ever since then, I knew what pain felt. I never wanted to experience that feeling again.

My parents worry about me all the time. They tell me to hang out more with my friends, I have always thought of the same thing. Why should I hang out with them, when they will leave me too?

After I came back that summer everyone knew something was wrong with me, but no one dared to ask. I guess they are all scared of what I might say to them.

I am now 18 years old, and a senior in high school. I can't wait to leave everyone behind. The memories that are buried deep here.

I got up and got ready for the first day of school. I did not feel like dressing up today, so I decided to wear something simple. I just wore ripped jeans, white tee shirt, and white converse.

For some reason I felt like if I went to school, something bad will happen. I decided to ignore it, I might just be nervous. As I walking out the front door, my older brother stopped me.

Our parents are out on a business trip to New York, leaving my brother in charge. My parents don't trust me alone, and since my brother won't start collage till next year he is staying with me.

He is a good big brother, like all he is and can be overprotective. It's not a bad thing, but after I told him what had happened with Jax and I, he never trusted me being around guys. I love him though, he is the only true friend that I have left in this world.

"Good morning sis. Off to school?" I just hummed in response, I really don't want to talk this morning.

"Yeah, but don't worry I am happy to go." I said with my best fake smile ever. He can see me right through me though. He just nodded and acted like nothing happened.

"See you after school. Please, try to talk to your friends." He looked at me with worry in his eyes. It stung my heart to know that I had hurt him, in anyway. I agreed, just for his sake.

I walked outside and drove to school. It felt nice to be out, and to see everything. Once I got to school, and parked my car. I was attacked by my friend Sarah. She was a bit shorter than me,  but we looked like sisters.

We both had brown hair, and eyes. The only difference was she was more of the girl to go out and have fun, while I stayed home. People liked her more than me, plus I distanced myself from everyone. Mostly guys, not that I would not like to have a guy friend again, I just don't know if I could trust them.

"How are you today?" I looked at Sarah, she was wearing almost the same thing. The only different was her shirt was blue, with flowers.

"I am fine today, just really want to get this day over with." She nodded, understanding. We walked side by side to school.

Sarah was the only one that knew was happened with me and Jax those years ago. I remember that night so, clear.

Flashback

I was just having fun with Jax like I always do. We were just playing and laughing, until Jax looked at me. He told me to come closer to him, and I did.

"Eve, can I ask you something?" He looked nervous, but I nodded my head.

"Do you like me?" I looked at him a little bit confused. I gave him a hug, and looked up at him.

"Of course I like you, you are my best friend."
He just sighed, and he looked straight at me.

"I mean- he was interrupted by his brother calling his name. I looked at him, and back at his brother, who came running at us.

"Can this wait Danny?" He looked over at his brother who was bent over.

"No, we have to leave now." I looked over at Jax, confused by what was going on.

"What's going on?" He took a deep breath, and he looked at me, he looked like he was about to cry.

"I am leaving today." He looked at me, and waited till I answered.

"Your leaving, but I thought you were going to stay with me. Please don't go!" I started to cry, I don't want to loose my only best friend. He wiped my tears away, and I could see he was crying too.

"Promise me that if I come back you will love me like I have always loved you." I don't know what to say at this point. I could not speak. What he did next shocked me the most.

He smashed his lips to mine, and when he pulled away he looked at me. Then like that he was gone.

End of flashback

I never knew why he did that. The pain that I felt that day was awful. I felt something I never wanted to feel again. I felt hurt, hurt that he left, hurt that he took my first kiss. I felt something from that kiss, but never knew what it meant.

I should not feel anything for this guy. I should not even be thinking about his guy, ever again. He hurt me more than anyone else could. I looked over at Sarah and saw how happy she was. She never lost her best friend.

She never felt sadness, and pain. How could she, she had the perfect life. She never cried because of a guy, or felt pain from someone else. She told me to let go of the past, but it's hard when the past seemed to be the best time of your life.

I took a deep breath, and entered the school. After going to home room, we went to our first block class. It was math, the worst subject ever to be invented. As I was getting my things settled the door opened.

It was our teacher, he stood in front of us. He looked around, and he started to speak.

"Today we have a new student. He came all this was from New York." Huh, that's were my parents are. I wonder if this person new them?
"I want all of you to meet Jax Hynn." I could not believe my ears. It's can't be...

Then he walks in the room. After 8 years of not seeing him, after 8 years of pain. There he was standing right in front of me. He looked at me and gave me a small smile. I could not blink, or breath.

It seemed like the whole world stopped right then. My head felt dizzy, and I want to make a run for it. Then I remembered something that he said before.

"Promise me that if I come back you will love me like I have always loved you."

I don't know if I can. As I was sitting there still paralyzed, I did not notice that he had walked, and sat right beside me. He looked over at me, and just said one sentence. That once sentence shook me to my core.

"Did you keep your promise?" I looked over at him, and he just smirked. Who is he, this is not my Jax.

Hello, thank you for reading chapter one, of 8 years of pain. I will try to get chapters in regularly. Please leave a comment and tell me what you think.