Hayden

I wasn't the worst dancer, but sometime fate gives you a bad dance partner. If you get lucky, things end if fits of laughter. Otherwise, it's tears and pain.

Watching Ocean as she moved around the kitchen, I just wanted to try. I had no idea how she would react. Someday she would realize.

Had I chosen this song on purpose? Absolutely.

The result was better than I expected. She took it! She danced with me and even laughed a little when I was singing along. I could not have hoped for a better outcome.

Once the song, Ocean turned back to cleaning up the mess left from earlier. I was extremely disappointed to how short the song was. I could have chosen a longer one, but I didn't.

Ocean had finally had enough after bumping into me for the tenth time. She glared at me and pointed at the stairs.

"What no." I wasn't going to bed.

She stare intensified. She stood firm and crossed her arms. even with her glasses sliding down her nose, her eye was drilling into my soul. 

"No." I held firm.

She simply shook her head and gave me a look that made me feel like a misbehaving child.

"Fine but you're coming with me." I grinned there's no way for her to win now.

She shook her head.

"Then I'm not going." I smirked at her. "So, are you coming?"

She shook her head again.

"Too bad." I grabbed her by the waist and threw her over my shoulder.

She was so light. When she instantly went limp, my soul left my body. I quickly pulled her off and checked to make sure she was ok. She pushed me away with a smirk. She pushed her glasses back up her nose at the same time. 

Damn, she's a good actor.

"Come 'on please?" Left with no other options, I used my last defense, the puppy eye.

It earned me an eyeroll.

I pouted harder. Another eye roll. And a nod.

Yes!

Hayden 1, Ocean 0.

I took her hand and led her upstairs, turning off the lights on the way.

Once back in my room closed the door behind me. I watched as she went to sit on the couch.

Laying down, she didn't even look back at me.

Feeling my heart drop, I laid down on my bed.

Did she really not like me that much. Was I overthinking everything? Had none of the close moments meant anything to her?

Thoughts swirled my head for I don't even know how long.

I felt the bed dip slightly and I glanced at Ocean who was now sitting next to me. I couldn't see her face but the way she just seemed to stare at me felt odd. The small amount of light in the room reflected slightly off her glasses. Now that I thought about it, i kind of perfered her with glasses. Her eyes seemed larger and softer. The way she scrunched her nose when they started to slide down. It was all so her.

Realizing I had been staring at her I cleared my throat and asked "Sorry, am I being too loud?" 

The question popped out startling her. She jumped off the bed to her feet.

I pushed myself up. "Sorry I didn't mean to scare you."

She shrugged and began walking to the couch again.

I launched myself over my bed and grabbed her arm.

She turned back to look at me expectantly.

"I-If you want to, you know," I stuttered, "sleep here, you can."

She tilted her head slightly.

"I mean there's more then enough room, I wont touch you." I should have stopped talking then. I should shut up.

"I mean if you don't want to that's fine. Like its totally cool, you do your thing." Shut Up me.

"Sorry."

Ocean slowly sat back down. What now?

I'm panicking, my heart started to race. I had no idea what to do.

She laid down next to me, pulling her hand free from mine. She pulled the blanket over her. And there we lay. I pulled my hand back under the covers. 

I heard the clicking sound of her glasses against the bedside table and smiled softly to myself.

Time to take the risk. I reached out my hand to what I guessed was bout a foot from her and lay still staring at the ceiling. Don't fuck this up, was all that ran through my head

A small hand found mine and my breath caught in my chest. I couldn't look over at her. My stomach was doing cartwheels. I just lay there.

Ocean pulled her hand from mine, and I glanced over at her, she pushed herself up watching me. I could almost feel her gaze. When she gently touch my cheek I tried to remain still. To my surprise, her hand was cold.

"Ocean?" my voice wavered slightly. fear suddenly filled me. She instantly withdrew her hand.

"Ocean, do you hate me?" I felt tears sting my eyes as I spoke.

The silence was eerie.

I opened my mouth to apologize for my words. The words were on the tip of my tongue. I watched as her silhouette slowly shook its head.

I closed my eyes to hold back the tears. "I'm sorry if I've been a bit much lately, I've just really started to enjoy your company and I can't tell if you feel the same and..." I let my words hang in the air as I took a shaky breath. "This past month has been one of the best." I took another deep breath. I knew things might get awkward, but I was tired of faking that I disliked her. "I just was to be your friend at least." I swallowed hard. "Or more."

The silence sat heavy on my chest as I watched Ocean. Her expression remained neutral.

"You know the day I saw the cuts on your arms, all I could think was how I can't lose you. I don't want to lose you. " I felt the words slip out. The room grew more tense as I spoke.

More threatened to spill but I pursed my lips too keep them inside. I closed my eyes as a tear threatened to slip.

"Look I'm sorry I shouldn't have said ..."

Soft lips on mine. It was short and sweet but left me gasping for air. Her face was only inches from my own. I closed the gap again, letting her lips sit against mine. I pulled back to break the kiss, but she pulled me back slowly.

I pulled her close deepening the kiss slightly.

Finally, she pulled away, resting her forehead against mine.

I felt the exhaustion finally hit me along with reality and I cradled her in my arms.

"Goodnight Angel." I rested my head down on my pillow as she curled close to me.

She was mine.