Eve POV

I can't sleep.

I fell asleep around eleven and woke up at one. Ever since I woke up I can't fall back asleep. I tried closing my eyes and forcing myself back to sleep but that didn't work.

I sit up and look to Harry who's sleeping peacefully. Doug is in the middle of us snoring loudly. That makes me smile.

I get out of bed and wrap a small blanket around my body. I head to the living room. Maybe some TV will make me fall asleep.

I place the remotes on the end table and lay down. The TV is low, but loud enough for me to hear it. The Big Bang Theory is on currently.

My eyes glance to the clock under the television. It's three a.m. now. I shrug to myself and run my hand through my hair. I have work tomorrow and have gotten about four hours of sleep so far.

I watch TV for about an hour before I fall asleep. The dream that starts to play in my mind is far from a dream and turns into a nightmare from something in my past relationship.

Harry POV

I wake up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom. I rub my eyes and look over to Eve's side of the bed and see she isn't there. My eyebrows furrow and I get out of bed.

I head to the living room and see Eve sleeping on the couch. Her eyebrows are knotted and I see sweat is on her forehead. Actual sweat is going down her forehead.

I shake her shoulders a little. "Eve, wake up." I say in a low voice. What makes me start to worry is her chest starts to rise and fall quickly. I start to shake her more harshly until I see her eyes open.

She starts coughing. Her hands touch her neck and my head tilts. "Did I wake you?" My girlfriend asks me. Her voice is low and hoarse sounding.

"No, I just saw you weren't in bed." I say. Her teeth graze over bottom lip. Her hazel eyes look at me and they turn glossy.

She moves back on the couch and I lay beside her. Her head presses against my chest and her arms hug me tightly. I have a feeling it was a dream about John abusing her. "Next time wake me up when you can't sleep, okay?" I say to Eve who has her head pressed against me.

"I didn't want to wake you and bother you," She mumbles against me.

"You won't be bothering me," I say while stroking her brown hair that is wavy. I kiss her cheek. "Let's go back to bed, yeah?" She nods against me.

We both get up from the couch and walk to our bedroom to get back to bed. Doug has moved to his bed on the floor that is in the middle of the room.

Eve lays down and brings the blankets to her shoulders. I lay down beside her and wrap my arms around Eve's body. Her head goes back to resting on my chest and I stroke her lower back. I kiss her cheek and feel her grip on me is tight. "I love you," I say to my girlfriend.

"I love you too," She replies back. I kiss the top of her head and hold Eve against me until she falls asleep.

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When the alarm for 6 o'clock rings, I turn it off before Eve wakes up from it. But, she was already awake.

I fell back asleep for a few hours, and I thought she did too.

"How long have you been awake?" I ask her.

"A few minutes," Eve murmurs. Her hazel eyes look tired. I run my thumb up and down her cheek and kiss her forehead.

"I'm going to take a shower," I say. She nods and pulls the blankets to her chest more.

I get out of bed and grab my towels that are hanging up. I walk to the bathroom and start my shower.

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When I return to our bedroom, Eve is still laying down. The blanket is to her shoulders and she just stares straight. She faces the side where her dresser is.

I put on my boxers then slip into bed beside her. "Do you want to stay home today?" I ask my girlfriend who looks tired and sad.

"I have to go to work," Eve says in a low voice. Her breaths are sharp and they sound like she's trying to calm herself down.

I get under the covers and pull her closer to my chest. "Stay home, Eve." I say in a low mumble.

"I can't keep taking off," She says. I kiss her cheek and hold her tightly. Her breaths are long, deep, and slightly shaky.

"Did you have another bad dream?" Eve nods causing my eyes to sting. I don't know what I can do to help her.

"Today, we're just going to relax, okay? We'll watch TV, eat whatever take out you want, and lay in bed. I'll have Anna pick up whatever you want to eat,"

"You have to go to work Harry," My girlfriend says. "Don't stay home because of me."

"You're more important to me than work," I say while holding her tightly. "And I don't know want you be alone, cause you have me."

"I love you," Eve says to me.

"I love you more," I mumble against her back. "If you want to talk to me about your dream, you can. Or if you just want me to get you anything just let me know."

Silence falls for a few moments. All you can hear is Eve's shaky breaths.

"The first dream, when I was on the couch, was John choking me until I passed out. The second one was uh," She pauses and grips onto my hand more tightly. "I was um, about two almost three months pregnant and John was beating me until I uh blacked out. Then when I woke up I no longer was pregnant," Eve explains briefly.

My girlfriend turns around and faces me. Her eyes are welled up and sad looking. "Do you have that second dream a lot?" I ask timidly. She nods and bites her lower pink lip.

"Then I wonder what the kid now would've looked like or acted like," Eve tells me.

"You wanted to keep it considering?" I ask.

"Yeah," Her voice turns lower. "I know it sounds stupid; wanting to keep a baby that was conceived out of rape. But I-I wasn't focused on John's part of the baby. I was focused on me, and how it's half me and it might not end up like John. And, I thought that was my only chance to have a baby. John didn't want kids and I didn't want them to be hit by him, so it was a win, win at the time. If I were to keep that baby I would've left, I wouldn't have stayed. I'm not that dumb,"

"You're not dumb don't say that," I tell Eve who looks away from me.

"Staying with him for two years doesn't make me dumb?" She asks. "I could've left but I didn't,"

"You were scared, Eve. Anyone in your position would have done the same thing you did and stay. He made you believe you were lower than him and you always did something wrong. When you're always told you're worthless and a piece of garbage, you'll believe it. Especially if it's from the person who claims they love you." I say causing her eyes to turn more droopy looking.

I pull Eve into my chest and stroke her hair. "I'm sorry for being a mess today," She mumbles against me.

"You're fine," I say. I kiss the top of her head. "Go back to sleep, okay? Try to get some rest."

"Okay," Eve holds onto me tighter.

I didn't know Eve was ever pregnant. And I didn't know John took that baby from her.

I honestly don't know how she always acts so strong and happy, considering her past. When I see Eve like this, I know all her walls are down and she just needs comfort. She's never once talked about herself like how she did a few minutes ago. Eve calling herself dumb makes me sad, because she's far from. I think she's one of the smartest people I know. I also know that's she's the strongest person I know.

I kiss her cheek. "I love you," I say against her.

"I love you too," Eve replies in a low, tired, mumble.

A://N

Most of this was written before last night , I finished this chapter this morning. Sorry I didn't update a lot like I promised , some things came up rip

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~Lauren