Kabanata 19
Survival

Celestia Rogue

THE SEALED LEAK, trully is terrifying. Kahit na hirap na hirap ako sa paggalaw ay ginamit ko ang abilidad ko upang magtago sa mga papalapit na halimaw.

If I will die, I might just die fighting then. Pero kailangan ko munang gumaling mula sa mga sugat na natamo.

I will find a way to get out of here and remove my seal.

"I won't be Celestia if I don't do that right?"

I weakly chuckled.

Iika ika akong naglakad, tiniis ang sobrang lamig hanggang makakita ng isang kweba. Pinakiramdaman ko ito at napangiti nang maramdamang walang halimaw doon.

Kaya naman ay dahan dahan akong pumasok habang pinakikiramdaman padin ang paligid.

Gutom na gutom na ako at hinang hina. Isang lingo na din akong hindi kumakain at umiinom ngunit wala lamang iyon dahil sanay na ako.

Maliit lamang ang kweba ngunit sapat na para pagtaguan ko.

Nanginginig ako ngunit napagdesisyunang maghanap ng mga magagamit upang makagawa ng apoy.

Mabuti nalamang ay may mga kahoy sa loob ng kweba, maaaring tinangay ng hangin papasok. I gathered all the sticks and woods as much as I can. I started making fire even though I am weak, that doesn't mean I would let myself die easily.

I want to atleast die from a monster I couldn't defeat here. That's much more great way to die than dying of hunger and few wounds. 

I don't want to die because of my weakness, I want to die fighting. Even if I may not be able to get out from here, I still won't let myself die because of my weak state right now.

Masakit ang buong katawan ko pero patuloy lamang ako sa pag ikot ng stick hanggang sa makagawa ng apoy. 

Mahina akong napangiti doon saka niyakap ang sarili at napapikit. 

Napaubo pa ako habang mainit ang pakiramdam. Napamura nalamang ako saaking isipan nang mapagtantong nilalagnat ako.

"Mama..."

Lumuluhang bulong ko habang bumibigat ang talukap ng mga mata at itinulog nalamang ang masamang pakiramdam. 

Nang magising ako ay bagama't masama ang pakiramdam ay pinilit kong tumayo para subukang humanap ng makakakain.

Mataas na ang araw, maingat ang mga galaw ko at  mabilis na nagtatago kapag may nararamdamang halimaw mula sa malayo.

Fortunately, I have a very sharp senses so even though I am weak right now, I am able to avoid the dangers.

Masama ang pakiramdam ko at hinang hina. Sa araw na iyon ay naghanap lamang ako ng mga kahoy ay maaaring makakain.

"Finally.."

I said as I caught a rabbit in my trap.

"Ahh!"

I groaned when I stepped on cold sharp stones. Dumugo ang paa kong mababakas sa niyebeng aking naaapakan.

"Calm down Celestia, you were tortured to death, but you're still alive so this is nothing."

I managed to find some woods and went back to cave so I could make a fire and carve  a weapon. I also found sharp stones I could make use of. 

Pinunit ko ang ibaba ng damit ko at binendahan ang aking paa.

Mabilis ang ginawa kong pagkain sa nahuli nang maluto ko iyon. I already checked it and it might seem different from a normal rabbit in mytheia, it is not poisonus and it's quiet edible.

I used the snow and melted it as my water, wala akong ibang choice.

The next day, I found some plants and roots I could eat. After years of studying poisonus plants and herbs, I can easily distinguish which is edible and which is not. I also made something I could boil the water with. 

I made some traps to fish after making a hole in the frozen river and got some when I came back to the place at dusk. Tinignan ko munang maigi kung delikado ba ito at mabuti nalamang ay wala namang lason.

"This is delicious."

Lumuluhang sabi ko habang kinakain iyon matapos kong ihawin.

As my fever went down, I also made a simple bow and arrow as well as a dagger made of a sharp stone since the place is full of it.

That's how I survived for a week. Even though I still don't feel well, I am slowly recovering.

I just have to avoid the monsters I can feel that is coming from afar, so I won't die.

They are mostly E and D rank in this area since I'm still near the entrance of the leak. But since I am not fully recovered, I won't be able to fight them yet.

A month came passed by, and the climate of this place is no joke. I almost died many times but because of my ability and because I'm used to this kind of dangerous situations.

I managed to survive.

Nagsara na din ang karamihan sa mga sugat ko maging ang nasa muka ko na mukang mag iiwan ng peklat.

But that doesn't really bother me. All I think about right now is to survive.

That's why I didn't leave the cave near the entrance yet. I trained harder and did my best to survive this hell.

I want to go back and I will find a way after I fully recover.

"I wonder how's my mother doing? she must be really worried about me.."

Naikuyom ko ang kamao roon.

"Fuck those nobles."

I hissed as I hug myself infront of the fire place. Once I am all healed, I will try to leave the entrance and find another way that might get me out of this place.

"I hope mom is doing well, marami sila sa village, kahit wala ako ay may mag aalaga sakaniya."

Pagkausap ko sa sarili at marahas na napabuntong hininga.

But what has been bothering me is, if me, someone who has no mana, managed to survive here for a month by staying near the entrance. How about papa? he's really strong, so is it possible that....

"No, I shouldn't get my hopes up."

Mariin kong naikuyom ang mga kamao ko.

Napahikab ako kakaisip saka ipinikit na ang mata para matulog.

AGAD NA NAPABANGON ako pagkagising ko sa kweba at nagtago nang maramdamang may papasok. Madilim padin ang paligid ngunit satingin ko ay mag uumaga na.

Napahawak muna ako patalim na ginawa ko mula sa bato saka kinuha ang pana at itinutok kung saan naroroon ang nilalang habang nagtatago.

Strangely, monsters avoids this cave, as if they couldn't see this.

So how is some kind of creature is able to get inside?

Kung ano o sino man ito ay kailangan kong maging handa. All I can say is it is not a theian, but also not the usual monster.

So the moment the creature started getting near where I am, I imidiately shoot it with an arrow.

"Ahh!"

I heard.

Nangunot ang noo ko roon saka sinindihan ang ginawa kong torch at natigilan sa nakita.

"A malnourished rooster? ang panget namang tandang nito."

Sabi ko.

"Embicile!"

Sigaw nitong ikinalaki ng mga mata ko saka agad na napaiwas sakaniya.

"What the heck!"

Sabi ko.

"Anong panget ka diyan?!"

Sigaw niya saakin sa buong buong boses na hindi naman bagay sakaniya.

"I clearly hit you!"

Gulat kong sabi.

"I know, you're kind of impressive on that part."

Tango tangong sabi ng malnourished at kalbong tandang.

"So what are you?"

I asked.

"Can't you see? I am an immortal rooster, a very handsome one."

He giggled, hindi maipinta ang muka ko doon.

"Sira ulo pala to eh."

Irap ko, binalingan ako nito ng masamang tingin.

"Are you my enemy?"

I asked then pointed him my weapon.

"Pointing your weapon at me is pointless."

Kunot noong sabi niya.

"If you're my enemy, I could just tie you up, cut a feet or two and have an unlimited food since you regenerate."

Ngisi kong nagpatigil sakaniya't napaatras.

"What?! Are you crazy?! how dare you talk to a magnificent high being like me that way!"

Napayakap sa sariling sabi ng panget na tandang.

"I'm asking you if you're my enemy."

Taas kilay kong saad habang nababakas padin ang ngisi sa labi at nakatutok ang patalim sakaniya. 

Nanlaki ang mata ng pangit na tandang at napanganga pa.

"I-I-I'm not! I'm not an enemy!"

He struggled, napairap lamang ako.

"Then you should get out."

Nakahalukipkip na saad ko.

"And why should I?"

He said.

"Because chickens poop everywhere and I don't want that to my cave, so go somewhere else."

I frowned making him gasp.

"You! How dare you compare me to a normal chicken! I am an immortal rooster!"

Reklamo niya.

"Wala akong pakielam kung hindi ka naman  letchon."

Irap ko.

"How rude!"

He gasped making me grin then looked at the fire on my torch.

"I-I-I have a purpose being here okay!"

Umaatras na sambit niyang nagpataas sa isang kilay ko.

"What purpose?"

I asked.

"My name is Leonard."

He introduced himself.

"So?"

Taas kilay kong sabi, akmang tutukain ako nito pero nakaiwas ako.

"I've been watching you for a month now since you seem weird compare to other theians who got in here. And you smell like some annoying great being, I know..."

Sambit niyang nagpakunot noo saakin.

"But why can't I feel you back then? but I felt when you were entering the cave?"

I asked.

"Because I am watching from a far through an animal."

He said.

"What do you mean?"

Muli kong tanong.

"I can tame animals and control them, even beasts. I can even control monsters if I were in my original form which is unfortunately, I couldn't transform back into."

He frowned.

"That sucks."

Kibit balikat ko, blangko ako nitong tinignan.

"That's it? aren't you impressed?"

Inis ang tonong tamong ng panget na tandang na to.

"I would be impressed if you can roast yourself in this fire I am making."

Matamis na ngiti ko sakaniya.

"Please stop looking at me like I am your food!"

He shouted making me laugh. I don't really feel like he's up to something. But that doesn't mean I should let my guard down.

"You don't look that edible, I just find it strange that I'm talking to a talking rooster.  Now, tell me the reason, why you're here?"

Muli kong tanong.

"I saw that you can get near that cave when other theians who were eciled here, can't. That's why I got curious who you are."

He stated.

"Why am I not suppose to get in this cave?"

I asked.

"This cave were casted a very strong barrier against monsters and other creatures. I can still remember how he's full of wounds just like you and the others when he casted the barrier in this cave to protect himself from the monsters while he's recovering. The man has the same color of hair and eyes like you do and he has a strong wind magic , he even managed to see through me."

Natigilan ako doon sa sinabi niya't natulala.

"After he left this place, aside from me, no one has ever managed to get in the cave. That's why I got curious about you."

He continued.

"T-That man, w-what is his name?"

I asked.

"Hmm..from what I remember, that fool is Claude, Xavier Claude Rogue."

He confirmed, nanlaki ang mata kong hibawakan siya sa leeg.

"Please tell me what happened to him! is he dead?"

I asked desperately.

"What? why? let go of me first!"

He frowned, agad ko siyang binitawan.

"That man is my father, please tell me what happened to him, please..."

I pleaded, he sighed.

"Yoir father? so that's why you were able to get in. The man insisted to have a journey to the ends of this world and find a way to go back to his family. He's always blabbering about that woman he loves, Marissa and their daughter which is I think is you. He's probably dead by now if not by the monsters, is by old age. Since that was more than 2000 years ago already."

He stated making me froze.

"T-Two thousand years? my father were only exiled here more than 11 years ago!"

Gulat kong saad.

"Well each worlds has different time zones. This world probably has way more faster time zone than in mytheia. I've been here for like twenty thousand years and still couldn't gain my original form."

He frowned, hindi padin ako makapagsalita.

"So he really is already dead..."

Malungkot kong saad.

"That's probably what's gonna happen to me."

I sighed.

"Well that's the fate of theians who were exiled here. If I were you, I will stay in this cave till it's your time."

He answered.

"That's lame."

I hissed, sinamaan ako nito ng tingin na inirapan ko lang.

"So if 11 years in mytheia is equivalent to more 2000 years here. I probably just got in here for hours? even though it's already been a month here."

Paninigurado kong nagpatango sakaniya.

"Yeah, maybe.."

He answered, napatango tango ako doon.

AFTER TWO MONTHS, I started my journey. I don't want to just hide in that cave. I want to find where did my father died atleast incase I won't be able to get out of this place.

I walked and walked and walked for more months, managing to find traces of my father, as I avoided the monsters I couldn't defeat.

I made weapons, medicines and even a blanket and clothes from some furry beasts I managed to defeat.

The monsters here were immortal. They will regenerate for hours after they die even if you pulvorize them.

That is what makes this place more terrifying. And the climate is no joke, it even rains sharp crystals I had to hide.

There are also plenty of poisonus lands, it almost killed me if I were not knowledgeable in poisons.

"Why are you still following me?"

Tanong ko kay Leonard.

"I'm not following you, I'm tagging along since I also have somewhere to go, I will go on different path anyways."

He hissed, nailing nalamang ako saka pumwesto sa isang lugar.

"Is this one of those places my father left a barrier?"

I asked Leonard.

"Oo, nararamdaman ko."

Sagot niyang nagpatango saakin.

"Great! then we could stay here."

Tango tangong sambit ko saka pumasok sa parteng iyon ng kagubatan at gumawa ng apoy.

"Leonard."

I called his name while I'm covering myself with a blanket.

"What is your life like before you got in here?"

I asked, natigilan siya doon.

"I died once, hundred years ago in mytheia's time."

He said, napalingon ako sakaniya.

"Yeah, you told me that you died before."

I answered.

"In my past life, I am doing what I am born to do, protecting what I had to protect. And I can say that I had a happy life, I am content with what I have. Even now is no different from before, except this pathetic form. I am really handsome before you know?"

Pagmamayabang pa nitong nagpairap saakin.

"So how did you die and got reborn as a rooster?"

I asked, iland sandali pa siyang hindi makapagsalita.

"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to, I'm just bored that's why I'm asking."

Kibit balikat ko.

"It's okay, it's not like you will be able to tell anyone, anyways."

Sambit nito.

"It's the same time, when the leaks started appearing in Mytheia. I was killed, we were all killed by the man we trusted."

Umpisa niya..

"My eldest brother lost his wife and his son due to their crimes. After that, he lost his mind and started planing against us. He killed us and then he claimed the throne, all for himself."

Malungkot niyang saad.

"I'm sorry.."

I said.

"No, it's fine, matagal naman na iyon."

Iling iling na sabi niya.

"Do you think your siblings also got reincarnated?"

I asked.

"I wish they did, and I wish they are already making a move to save everyone, specially those two."

He stated while looking up. Just what is he on his past life? Is he a royalty? he did mentioned a throne thingy earlier.

"Tomorrow I will have to go on a different path."

He said, napalingon ako sa gawi niya.

"Saan ka nga pala pupunta?"

Tanong ko.

"I felt something that might help me connect to one of my brothers again. Iyon ang balak kong puntahan. I felt like one of my brothers are being awakened and his core is sent into this world. Kailangan kong balikan kung saan ko iyon itinago para maibalik ang mga ala ala niya."

Kwento niya saakin, napatango tango ako doon. 

"You should watch out for the monsters on your way there."

Sambit ko.

"Ilang libong taon na ako sa mundong ito, hindi ako magagalaw ng mga halimaw na iyan."

Tawa niya.

"Ang pangit mong tumawa, edi alam mo lang, mag iingat sila sayo."

Umirap ako sakaniya.

"Pareho lang tayong panget."

Reklamo niyang nagpatawa saakin.

"Puro peklat lang ang muka at katawan ko, pero atleast hindi ako kalbo."

Sabi ko, tinuka pa ako nitong nagpatawa saakin.

"I'm glad that there will no longer annoying rooster around, but I wish you to have a safe journey."

Sambit ko.

"You should too, don't die easily."

He said making me smile.

THE NEXT DAY, when I woke up, Leonard is already gone. There will be no annoying ugly bald rooster around. 

I just hope he would be safe, muka kasing isang ihip nalang ay matutumba na iyon eh.

 I spent another three months of my journey, alone. Ilang beses na akong muntikang mamatay sa lugar na ito. I even encountered really strong monsters that I almost failed to escape even if they are far away from me.

Marami na din akong mapanganib na lugar na napuntahan. Actually all of the places in here are really deadly. Maswerte na akong tumagal ng ganito.

"What if, I won't see what tomorrow is?"

I whispered as I look at the beautiful sky. Iyon lang naman ang maganda sa lugar na ito.

I managed to see traces of my father and even some of his things that he left.

I am still in the D-class area of this world even though I've been travelling for months. That's how I managed to survive even though I have no mana and the monsters here are very powerful.

Sunod kong napuntahan ay isa nanamang gubat. The trees here is making me insane, since they talk creepily, so I had to plug my ears as I went inside. 

Masukal at mapanganib ang kagubatang ito na puno ng mga halimaw. Kaya naman ay maingat ang bawat galaw ko.

I am in the middle of hunting while hiding behind a tree as I point my arrow on the target, when something suddenly pushed me. 

Dahilan upang tumama ang tuhod ko sa mga halamang matalas ang mga dahon.

"Shit."

I glared at the tree that I figured out that pushed me as it giggles loudly. Tumulo ang dugo ko at nagkasugat sigat ang binti ang tuhod ko.

Agad akong umalis sa halamanang iyon at natigilan nang maramdaman ang mga papalapit.

"Damn, they smelled my blood."

I frowned.

Agad akong nagtatakbo ngunit gumalaw ang sanga ng punong nadaanan ko para patidin ako.

Ngunit agad akong nakatalon.

But the moment I jumped, I am already surrounded by monsters.

They are class D monsters.

"Oh hell no."

I frowned as I started dodging their attacks and fighting them with my weapons.

I slashed each of them with my sword as I jumped and dodged their attacks. Tumalon ako ng mataas saka binitawan ang espada at mabilis na pinagtitira sila ng pana.

Nang maramdaman ko ang nasa likod ay agad kong pinulot ang espada ko at sinaksak ito sakaniyang dibdib.

"Damn, they are too many."

I mumbled.

I were hit by Adrenaline rush as I fought with bunch of blood lusting monsters. Bagama't duguan at pagod na pagod ay patuloy lamang ako sa pakikipaglaban hanggang sa maubos ko sila.

"I'm used to this...I can do this..."

I said as I weakly crawled into the ground because of all my injuries. Naramdaman ko ang mga papalapit kaya sinubukan kong tumayo at tumakbo habang hawak hawak ang sandata.

A very strong monster is about to appear and all I can do now is feel helpless and run. Muli akong pinatid ng sanga ng puno, ngunit pinilit kong tumayo at tumakbo.

 I feel pathetic and I hate how my life sucks right now.

"What's the point?"

Natawa ako doon saka tumigil sa pagtakbo. All I do is run and never ending fight with these bastards.

"I will die anyway, what's the point of running?"

Natatawang sambit ko habang lumuluha saka humarap at sinalubong at katakot takot na tingin ng halimaw. It has giant claws, monstrous body and only one giant, red eye. Kinuha ko ang espadang ginawa ko at naghanda ng lumaban.

The monster started attacking me with it's claws but I managed to roll and dodged it. Nadaplisan pa ako nito sa braso ngunit wala lamang saakin iyon.

Hinang hina na ako at alam kong wala akong kalaban laban sa halimaw na ito.

Ngunit hanggang sa huli kong paghinga, gusto kong lumaban. Ayokong mamatay ng walang ginagawa, ayokong mamatay dahil mahina ako. 

Malakas lang talaga ang kalaban ko.

I climbed the tree and jumped to the other one each time it attacks me with it's giant claws. Tumalon ako sa nakababang sanga ng pinakamataas na puno.

Napigtas pa ang kwintas na ibinigay saakin ni Aziel, mabuti nalamang at nasalo ko agad iyon at mahigpit na hinawakan upang hindi ko mahulog.

Alam kong iiwas ang sangang kinalalagyan ko, oras na atakihin ako ng halimaw.

Iyon nga ang ginawa ng puno na itininaas ang nakababang sanga kung saan ako nakakapit sa oras na atakihin ng halimaw.

Nang nasa taas na ako ay malapad akong napangisi habang nakatingin sa halimaw sa ibaba na hinahanap ako. That monster's weakness is it's eye. Ikinwento saakin iyon ni Leonard nang makatakas kami sa katulad nito noon. 

I slashed my arm causing it to bleed. Napatingin sa banda ko ang halimaw na ikinangisi ko lalo at ipinosisyon ang aking espada saka tumalon.

And the moment jumped, I felt my body numb. Mahina akong natawa nang makita ang nagdurugong tiyan. My stomach were pierced by the monster's claws.

Napaubo ako ng dugo at napangisi nang makitang nakatarak ang espada ko sa gitna ng mata ng halimaw.

"B-Bulls eye."

Pabirong sabi ko pa saka napaubo muli ng dugo. The monster growled in pain. Dahil sa gulo niya ay tumilapon ako kung saan. 

My body feels cold and numb as I look at the beautiful sky while smiling. My life really sucks, I fought for it till death, but the life I lived is not even worth fighting for.

"I-It's making m-me want to l-laugh."

I said weakly then chuckled.

Mytheia is the world where I live in. A world where what really matters only is power to survive.

A world that revolves in magic, a trully wonderfull looking place. But every beauty has a dark side on it. A rotten fruit that is placed with the fresh ones will turn everything rotten.

Funny cause when I was little, I used to admire and love how magical this world is. I'm a fool for believing that I am lucky to be born on such an amazing place.

"P-Pa-pa, n-nilalamig a-ako..."

Bulong ko habang namamanhid ang buo kong katawan.

Tear fell from my eyes with a sincere smile plastered on my face as the memories of my life flashed in my head.

Were just a normal family back then. Were a happy family living a simple life. My father is an excellent guardian and I have a kind and caring mom. I've always thought how lucky I am, I even have a friend to play with even if I am just a commoner.

I still couldn't understand that the world works like that before. I don't know why do people have to harm the weak? I still don't understand that time what's the point showing off how strong they are by harming us.

Strong devours the weak, there would always be a predator and a prey. I think it's absurd and cowardly, I hated how unfair the world is.

I remembered before my father got executed I had a dream about him going with two people towards the light.

Hindi ko alam sa mga panahong iyon na hindi pala iyon isang simpleng panaginip lamang.

My father is a very honorable guardian. That's why I didn't understand why did the knights took him. Why did the people look at him as if he is a criminal.

Napakarami kong tanong saaking isipan sa mga oras na iyon. Hindi ko matanggap na ako ang dahilan kung bakit kailangan siyang kunin saamin.

I hate how I do not know anything, I don't understand why do they have to kill my father so what if I am a human?

I blamed myself when I found out, I blamed myself for being the reason why my father had to die.

Now I am about to die in the place my father lost his life. I wonder if this is how he died too, what is he thinking those times? How does he feel?

Is he thinking about us?

In my last moments, important moments of my life continued flashing in my mind. I started remembering the people I cherish and even the promise Aziel made when we were kids before we parted.

"Hanapin mo ako ha?"

Naluluhang sabi kong nagpatango sakaniya.

"Pangako."

Sabi niya saka muling yumakap saakin. 

Iyon ang pangakong pinanghawakan ko ng ilang taon. Hindi ko alam kung ano ng nangyari saaking matalik na kaibigan ngunit hanggang ngayon ay hindi padin niya ako nahahanap.

I looked at the necklace Aziel gave me that time in my hands. Hindi ko alam kung bakit natutunaw iyon ngayon.

Is it because I'm about to die?

"E-ev-ven in m-m-my last b-b-breath..."

He didn't fulfill his promise...

My mother told me that I am a blessing from the two great gods. 

That time I thought, maybe it wouldn't be too bad, since the goddess of life made papa's wish come true and gave me life, maybe she will protect us?

I'm also a fool for believing that, the gods only protects theian's with power, theians who gives offerings to the temple, the gods only protects the rich, the talented and the strong while neglecting us, the commoners.

"Paglaki ko mama, magiging malakas ako, poprotektahan po kita gaya ng ipinangako ko kay tatay."

Sabi ko habang nakahiga sa hita ng aking ina sa maliit at masikip na silid.

"Gusto kong lumaki kang masaya Celestia."

It's one of the hardest point in our life... Where there is no hope, hirap kaming makabangon ng kami lamang.

When I was a child I thought this world is amazing.

Turns out that it is only wonderful to those who have privilege. Araw araw ay may namamatay at nasasaktang katulad naming walang mahika para lamang mapatunayang mas malakas sila saamin.

Araw araw ay pinipilit naming mabuhay kahit napakahirap. Araw araw ay lumalaban kami para lamang may makain.

The world is trully unfair, this world feels like only those who are stronger has the very right to live.

I just want a peaceful life with my family. I just want to help my mom, why did I ended up being in this situation? I did everything to survive, why would the gods bless me with this life, if it is this horrible?

Araw araw pakiramdam ko ay nakalubog sa hukay ang isang paa ko, hinihintay na tuluyan akong mahulog roon.

"I didn't even see mom for the last time, I didn't even reunite with Aziel..."

I mumbled while lying on the ground waiting for my death. Napaubo muli ako ng dugo at mapait na napangiti.

Nanlalamig at manhid na ang katawan sa sakit.

Memories are rushing into my mind while I am in the verge of death. Ilang minuto nalang ang binibilang bago ako malagutan ng hininga.

All I want is to cherish everything in my mind before I die.

I guess this will be the only end for a commoner like me. We have no right as long as there is this rotten hierarchy ruling this fucking world.

I hate it.

'Oh fuck you all, isaksak niyo sa ngala-ngala niyo mga tanginang kapangyarihang yan, mabusog sana kayo hanggang sa magsisabog kayo'

I wish I could shout that to the whole world.

"Fucking hierarchy."

I chuckled weakly.

I just want me and my mom to live peacefully, I just want to save her.

I want to see my friends, I want to see the villagers, my mom, Aziel and that man.

"I didn't even thank him for everything..."

I mumbled sadly while remembering that guardian. I want to say thank you atleast, and apologize to him.

"I'm sorry, I won't be able to fulfill my promise, Draco."

I whispered weakly.

I didn't even get to confess how I feel about him. 

"I-I love you, D-Drash-shit, you b-bastard..."

Ngiting bulong ko't hinang hina. I know he wouldn't accept it anyways. Hindi ko din alam kung bakit ngayon ko lang napagtanto kung kailan mamamatay na ako.

I don't know how did I fall for that asshole, but I hope he wouldn't have that annoying sad look in his eyes anymore.

Hindi ko alam kung nag iilusyon lang ba ako kaya nakikita ko siya ngayon. Matamis ko siyang nginitian saka tumingin sa langit.

Atleast the last thing I will see is this beautiful sky above me. Tumulo ang masaganang luha sa mga mata ko.

They say that once you die, your wish will be granted. Before, I wanted to wish for this world to be ruined.

Right now, all I want is for my mother to live a healthy, happy and long life. I wish for the villagers to live, I wish they wouldn't starve. I wish for Seah to be the happiest.

I wish Draco to be able to smile freely, I wish Aziel will remember me, and if he do, I want him to smile as he look back at the happy memories we've shared.

Napatingin ako sa kwintas na hawak, tuluyan ng natunaw ang pendant nito. Muli akong tumingin sa magandang kalangitan habang bumibigat ang talukap ng mga matang napapikit.

A faint smile formed into my lips.

I'm tired, I can finally rest.

A/n: The end whahahahah jk 😂😂 medyo gumanda na pakiramdam ko saka sinipag akong magsulat kaya may update ngayon. 😁 thank you po sa support!!😘😘