"Honey, can you make the bouquet from these lilies?" The grizzled hair woman asks politely as she removes the dirt from the fresh lilies and cut the stems.

"Sure!" I smile and collect the delicate flowers one by one for the bouquet. It's been a week I am here, working as a helper in a flower shop with a granny who lives next door to us. The shop is small but cozy and prettily decorated. Small things here and there, fresh scent of flowers mix with different flavors and dance with the air, spreading it's sweet smell all around the shop.

I feel refresh and happy here. The granny is just so cute and kind she is very sweet and polite. Although I suck at Japanese, she always trys to help me speak as much japanaese as I can. Taehyung also helped me to learn the basics and I have been doing fine for now, I guess.

I hopes our days will get better and better like this. I hope I will get to meet him again.

Even If I don't say it loud, I miss him. He never came after the first day and it's been two months we have been living here. I can't say if he misses me or not, but I do. I miss him so much that I feel I will go insane if I don't see him the next second.

I know he still meets with taehyung, I often ask him about jungkook but he always changes the topic. It's not like I want to interfere in his life or something like this, I just want to see him. To ask him if everything is okay? I want to spend some time with him. Even it's dangerous for us out there.....I just want him near me and nothing else, I don't know what's wrong with wishing all of this for myself?

Is it that hard? Why can't we do this?

Sometimes I feel like I am drowning in the same darkness again. Surrounded by oppressing silence, I feel invisilble weight of chains upon my hands, restraining me to reach that specific thing which can calm my heart and my soul. This darkness and this silence, it feels like it is piercing my soul and pouring the dark suffocating portion in every crack and leaving me helpless and depressed more and more as the night comes after the day and the day comes after night.

It's all too depressing without him. He is my hope and my light. I love him. How he has that much effect on me? It's even scaring me to think about it. I don't know how to stop it, it just keeps growing day after day and it never stops. My love for him, it never stops growing.

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Taehyung's Pov

"She is again sitting there. Aish..what do I do with her stubbornness." I sigh in frustration as I make my way towards her, sitting at the roof top in the middle of the night without any blanket to keep her shivering body warm.

"Why are you so stubborn byul? Atleast keep your body warm." I say as I cover her with a blanket and sit next to her. She passes me a small smile before looking at the sky again. "Why are you awake, go sleep" she says, still looking at the twinkling stars embellishing the night sky with their glow.

"I don't want to. What are you thinking?" I ask her, looking her side profile. A small pout on her face as she thinks. "What am I thinking?" She faces me and I nod. "I don't know. My mind feels blank" she says before resting her head in my lap. She closes her eyes and snuggles into me as much as she can. "Talk to me about anything."

"Hmm? what do you wanna talk about?" I ask as I caress her hair slowly. "Anything, just anything"

"How's your job going? Are you having fun?" I ask as I couldn't find any other thing to talk about..

"It's fun. But I don't wanna talk about this. Tell me something else" she says in a small voice as she hides her face from me. I chuckle at her, knowing exactly what she wants to talk about but I decided to play a little.

"Hmm? What? Something else?"

"Yeah."

"What should I tell you? Hmm..oh! I know something. I am going to buy a dog. I think it will be fun, I am gonna name him yeontan, what do you think about that?"

"Really? That's nice." She says as she plays with a hem of her shirt, opening her mouth before closing it again.

I observe her before grabbing her hands and making her sit down, facing me with her waxy and pale face with dark circles around her now sunken eyes. Her lips are dry and chapped. She looks so lifeless and thin.

What happened to her? Why didn't I notice this before? She was all good and healthy some days ago.

"Tell me what's going on with you? Why you are not taking care of yourself?" I ask her, glaring at her haggard state. She looks up at me, holding my hands in her small ones before squeezing them. A small tear suddenly rolls down her swallon eyes and I widen my eyes at her.

"Byul, you are making me worry now. Please say what's on your mind. You know I won't judge you" I caress her cold cheeks as I remove the tear from her cheeks.

"I miss him." She whimpers before hesitantly grabbing my arm and leaning onto me. "I miss him so much taehyung" she starts to tremble as a low sniffle comes from her mouth.

"Baby byul, stop it. You know I don't like when you cry" I wrapped my arms around her body, drawing circles to calm her down. "If he makes you cry like that then forget him. I won't allow him to be near you if he is causing you pain" She sobs harder and my heart hurts seeing her like this. She never broke down in front of others. I never saw her crying like this.

I don't like it a bit. I know even if I want her to forget him, she will never be able to do so. It is never easy to get rid of love..it is almost impossible.

All we can do is to wait, wait for them to come back and hold us again. Jungkook cannot do this right now and I won't ask him to do it either because it is concerned with my sister's life. He is being followed everywhere he goes, if they happened to get a mere hint about byul, then everything is over.

They will take her away from me, and I don't want that. So, for now, i will just wait. I will take care of her. I will do anything to make her feel better.

"Byul, I am always with you. Please be okay..I promise everything will be fine. Jungkook, he can't meet you now my angel. You need to understand this. Please don't do this to yourself. You are hurting yourself but you are hurting me more. Just wait, your brother will make everything right for you. I promise "

"I know, b-but I don't like this feeling. It's suffocating me. I just want to see him for once and I will be alright I swear." She look back into my eyes with her swallon one's.

"Okay I will see what I can do. But for now let's sleep hmm? It's very unhealthy to stay awake like this." I day as I make her stand up and leads her to her room, tugging her in the blankets I make my way to switched off the lamps.

"Can you stay here for a bit?" She asks me in a whisper and I sit down on the edge of the bed. Holding her hands in mine before caressing it a little. "I am here. Don't worry" I say before leaning towards and leaving a short peck on her forehead. "Just sleep hmm? I am here as long as you want"

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Finally.
It's been quite a long time right?
Well, I am really happy to announce you that I got admission to the first univeristy I took a test for. So, now I am free for a while.
Hope you like this chapter, I have been facing writer's block for over a month, maybe it's because of stress or something else. But I don't know when will I post the next chapter.🙃🙃