Jungkook's pov

"What am i hearing?" Jimin, ponders while sitting down next to me in the cold wet night grass.

He is a friend I can confide in, somone I can trust with my private thoughts, and who I am sure can keep a secret. He is ZD's son. ZD, the owner of this place, the one who provide us with money and missions. The boss.

"What?" I ask as I look up at him. Pulling grass in the process. "About you and that girl....what was the name again??" He tries to recall. Deep frown on his forehead and a pout on his lump lips as he thinks more and more.

"Jungkook, what's her name?" At last he asks and I leave only a mere chuckle at this. "You don't even know her name and yet you are believing in those rumours, hyung?"

"I am not, I was just conforming" he says as a more bigger pout, if that's possible, appears on his face. "I am not like the rest you know? Right?" He asks as he passes me a sweet smile. Waiting for my answer, his head peeking from the side of my shoulders.

"Hyung...stop it. You are creeping me out" I gently pushed him aside and he only giggles at this. "Ok be serious, now tell me what's her name?"

I smile as I read her name in my mind. Byul. Hanbyul the dumbest star. I never saw someone so dumb and careless like her. Sometimes I think how she can managed to live here when she is so naive and like this. But maybe her luck is on her side that she escapes everytime. She is strange and sweet from the start. She thinks I don't know about her heart. Her love. Her eyes and her smile, they shine whenever she sees me. The cute little dimple on her left cheeks deepens when she smiles wider and wider.

I know she is waiting for me. But I am afraid that this wait will never have any end. She has to let me go and I have to let her go. I can't love someone so delicate and so special like her. I was never meant to love. I didn't know when I became a monster but now, I can't let her close to me. That's why whenever I am with her I had to act tough. But she is..she is so stubborn. She want to hear what I repeat every single day. I love her, yes I do. But she can't know this. She can't know how much I love her. How much I yearn for her. How much I want her and how much I want to see her.

Each night I lay down to sleep I feel a sadness knowing I will shut my eyes to her beauty. But I also feel elated because I know when I open them I will gaze upon her face again. Her laugh is like the sound of running water in a stream. I would bottle it if it were possible, just to keep it always with me. Her laugh brings me joy. And I want this happiness for her for eternity, but if she is with me, I don't know she will be able to live for a single day in this cruel world

I still remember the first day I met her. She was in a dark street, I still don't know why she decided to stay there when she could easily run away from that place which brought so much pain to her life.

It was cold in December. Cold, just like now. She was sitting on the porch of the door, sobbing silently. She had stained her dress with blood all over her and she was brutally abused. Before, I couldn't understand why I was there, why I listened to our boss and helped her. I just did. But now I know why. Because I was meant to be. I was meant to meet her and I was meant to protect her.

I knew that was not her real family and I firmly believed that she was somehow related to boss. There's no way he will ask someone like me to rescue a girl. There's has to something more to it. And I need to find that out.

Once I find out about everything, I am going to make her leave this place. I brought her to this place and I am the only one who will get her out of this horrendous place. She is not going to live here with these monsters who will never miss a chance to lay their hand on her.

I need to save her. Save her from them, save her from me. Even if it hurts like hell, even if I have to rip my heart apart, I'll do it. Because it's for her. Ever since she came her, everything I do is always for her.

"Yah! jungkook?!" Jimin shakes me when I wasn't replying him back. "Are you deaf? I have called you atleast ten times"

"Sorry hyung" I reply politely and get up from the grass. "So what's her name?" He asks again.

"Hanbyul, is her name. " I stop and look at him. "And what you heard about us being in a relation, is not true. And one more thing hyung, never mention it from now on."

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Phew!
Finally an update.