I open my eyes with the stinging pain in my butt. It was expected due to the fact that I have stayed in one position all night because of someone's metal head on my lap.

I look down at him and to my horror he is staring right into my eyes. I stay still, looking back at his eyes while I proceed how to react? Am I screwed?

"What?" He asks annoyed and I frown my eyebrows.  "What what?"

"Why are you staring at me?"

"You were staring at me first"

He opens his mouth but closes right away when he can't make words to argue. He sits up from my lap and ruffles his hair aggressively.

"Ahh, get out from here and make coffee for me" his slender fingers trap his forehead as he hangs his head low.

"Do you remember what did you do yesterday night?" I ask as I bring my swallowed face in front of his annoyed face.

"I said get out!!" He shouts and pushes me against the hard floor, I silently chuckle and stand up from the floor "So you remember, hah!" taping my butt to lessen the pain, I bring my legs towards the kitchen and start to make coffee for his hangover.

Even if I hate him or even If I am hating him right now too, I can't deny the fact that he is pure and precious from his heart. He is rude, cruel and act like a monster. But deep down in his heart, he is like a small baby boy.

I have always imagine him like that, inspite of seeing his poker and emotionless face for almost all the time, I have always imagine him smiling brightly under the bright sun.

I hate bright shiny things. But somehow, he made me like one thing that's bright and shiny. And that's his smile. His smile when he thinks about his family, his mother, his sisters and his past life.

He smiles for only one reason and that's his sister.

I never hated him over the edge, even he had done wrost things to me. And that's becasue I know his story and I am sure if he knew mine, he would never dare to lay a finger on me. He would never ever questioned about my character and my past. He would never dare to look directly in my eyes with his hated ones.

Peeking through the door frame, I enter in his room when I didn't find him anywhere.  Probably be in his bathroom. I placed the coffee with tablets and his breakfast on his mini table and turn to leave his room. I hear a click from behind me, and I turn my head to look at him.

His fresh scented cologne fills my nostrils and I started to carve for a long refreshing shower. I feel so much dirty and sticky standing in front of him. I smile and turn away, ready to leave and jump into my room swirling the towel in my hand, but my imagination broken down into pieces when I felt the warmth of his hands on my shoulders.

I swirl around to face him, only to see him smirking evilly at me.
"You're are leaving already? I thought you had an extra duty today? Uh, what was it huh?" He smirks and i clear my throat and look up at him. "I am assigned to clean the senior's rooms for today." He nods, waiting for my next words which should be exactly be the same as he is expecting me to say.

"I will clean your room, but... But first, I have to take a bath really fast. Please?" I plead and he shakes his head, pushing me more into his room, he takes a seat on his chair and starts eating. "Clean this room before I finish my breakfast" he states, eyes still on his food. I roll my eyes and groan out of frustration. Why everything is tough for me? I can't even bath to relax.

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After cleaning taehyung's room, I entered in my room, striped away from my clothes and entered in the shower. Relaxed my tensed up muscles in lukewarm water, I allowed my mind to wander wherever it wants to go.

And that's how i spend my almost one hour shower, thinking and fantasizing stuff and other. Most of it related to zack, and the minimal amount of my time was spend in thinking how would I be if that night never came in our lives.

It is such a long time that I don't even know the faces and the calming voices of my family. I only remember that night. When everything turned down, when everything was ruined.

I don't remember what happened after that. Where is my mother and my brother. Except my father, I know where is he, where he lives. He lives among the skies, he is with me day and night. I don't remember his face, but I remember his warmth. His love and his care. His smell and his presence. I know it all.