"I love you jungkook"

It's been a while you have uttered the words that you have been dying to say. But never received any response from the guy standing before you till now. It took you a second to realize that you two had just been staring at each other for the past minute or so. Neither of you moved a muscle.

At some point, you could hear his own heartbeats and he could hear your nervous breaths. His face didn't give you very many answers to what he was about to say either, just a blank look of surprise. You took in a big gulp. Guess the fear of telling him got to you and you just blanked out for a second

Taking another step, consciously, while your mind is flying with thoughts. The rising emotions and the frightening silence makes you more and more tense as the time passes. You feel anxious, helpless, and somehow ashamed, even a feeling of absolute dread hit you as hard as the blazing thunder meet the ground in anger. Hundreds of things happening to you at once as you fidget and your stomach churns, heart pounds, and palms sweat.

For others, everything in the world is happening, but for both of you, when nothing is being said, and nothing seems to be, time seems to come to a halt. And
because of this you find yourself wrenched with the dreading silence and lack of his answer. The protruding silence between both of you is sending shivers down your spine, and you want to smash it into small tiny fragments. You want to hear him say something, something that will calm the contracting muscles in the pit of your stomach, or lessen the pressure rushing through your veins or maybe something that will help you to breath again normally.

Defeating by the silence that the man standing in front of you has been giving to you for the past ten minutes, you look down at your shoes while a lone tear leaves it's shell to sit on your rosy cheeks for nano seconds as it makes it's way to land on the wooden floor. You feel so helpless, so anxious and depressed that you just want to rip your heart apart and leave everything behind.

"Please...please say something" you beg as you don't dare to look into his eyes again, maybe you will never be able to do that in your life.

"Byul..you have said what you wanted now get out from my room" Atlast, you hear his voice, but his words..his words hit you more harder than the bullet will do. He sighs when you didn't move an inch, and steps back away from you. Letting the cold air brushes your broken form as you lifelessly lift your pounding head to look at him. Your eyes burning with heat to the point that all that you see is blurry and unclear. You shake your head stubbornly as you, again managed to move closer to find his warmth. You don't want to hear that. You didn't come here to hear this. You don't want to accept that. It can't be true.

No

Now all you wish is for to go back in time, where you was in your room, planning to say those cursed words.  That way, you won't know that you were once rejected.

"No, please.." right now you just want to sink yourself in his warmth. You don't want to hear any rejection. Not now when you have experienced all that anxiety in just one hour.

"Byul" he holds your wrists and steps back again. "Just go. Go to your room"  he says as he gently pushes you towards the exit.

"No, you can't do that. Please"

"Byul"

"Please give me one more chance. Please don't say this"

"Byul list-"

"No! I don't want to hear this. Please don't say anything"

"Byul will you fucking listen what I am saying?!" He roars with pure anger as he suddenly presses his slender fingers on the both sides of your arms as he stares at you with angered hooded eyes. The whites in his eyes turn a pure black, and as his iris glower heat. Symbols, lines and dots starting to form in his irises, placed in a sort of manner. His lethal stare feels so painful and piercing, as if his glare was enough to tear your heart apart with a blazing heat coming from him.

"Are you that dense!? Or do you don't want listen to anything!?" He grumbles again. "Didn't you get that in your fucking dense mind that I said to you to get out?"

"Jungkook...I.. I..." you manage to say in terror building in your body but all the words you try to make just slip out from your mind like water from the running tap and it feels like as if there's nothing to say anymore. You haven't seen him this angry. He never showed his anger in words rather he showed it with actions. And now you are lost at words.

"You what? Tell me byul!?"he grumbles as he furiously takes a step towards you "Tell me do you fucking even know what you are asking for? For all this time I was protecting you for nothing? Do you even care what I had put myself into for the past year just to keep you safe from all the monsters lurking infront of your door at night so they could get you into their bed and fuck the shit out of you!!?

"What!?'

"Yeah, what? You didn't know that!? I bet then you didn't even know how fuckable you are for them huh? Tell me you didn't even notice that why you are the only girl with a skin without any traces of bruises? I bet you never payed attention to the body of that friend of yours. You will be disgusted."

"I I didn't know.."

"Well then you need to improve your stalking game, sweety you aren't even good in that. You don't know shit about what goes in people minds. You don't know shit about me and the people which surrounds me. You say you want to stay with me?...tell me do you fucking know when they'll even sense my shadow on you what will happen to you?! What can happen to you byul!? That much desperate you are to die huh!? That much you got your head rotten with all your stupid love!?" He bellowed all the words in one breath while you just stare at him, lost.

What can you say now? You thought you knew him very well. You thought he hated you. And that he doesn't care for you. You thought....you..........uh....you thought so wrong of him all this time. At this point, you feel so out of place. You never knew that danger was literally hanging up to your head all this time. But then, you still love him, and you still want him. In spite of everything, all the dangers that may come to you and jungkook, you still want him by your side.

"S-so if I say I don't care about anything that will happen to me, then will you lov-love me back"? You ask as you hope for something that's never going to happen. Guess it was all your fantasy that you will get a chance to get the love you want from him. You don't know why you are being so stubborn but let's just say you want to let it all out now. You don't want any regrets after this.

"God, byul!" He cries in defeat. "For the love of lord, why is it so hard for your concrete mind to understand this!? Why you can't see who I am and where I am standing right now? Why the fuck those word will do even if I say them to your face? Will they change the reality? Tell me they will, and I will say them to you. I promise. But byul, all of this, it isn't your fantasy, these words can't change anything. You will still be that weak girl, and I will still have that cursed fate. But your dense mind is still stick to those cursed words?"

"I don't care, I'd die for you" You whisper as you find your voice lost like a bustling sound of air in the silence of night. You don't know why you aren't listening to him. You just want to say this again and again that you love him and nothing can change this. Not even death. You feel so embarrassed. You never say words like these to anyone. And with all the fucking honestly left in your body, if you ever hear words like these from someone else, You'd die puking out of cringe.

"What? what the fuck you said byul?" He pressed his fingers on your flesh more as he loses control over his own body. He really controlled himself so much but you are not helping him at all. You even made him more and more annoyed.

"You will die for me and then what? Then what byul?? Do you really want to live your life like that? For all the people who sacrificed their flesh for you to live. You will just die for nothing?"

"It's everything. If I get to be loved from you, it's everything for me." You say quickly as you search for his burning eyes staring right into yours with so much disappointment in them.

"You are making it so hard for me to not to slap the shit of you, byul." He hisses as he moves forward to hold the door open "I had have enough of your bullshit today. Just get the fuck out of here"

"You can't avoid this by kicking me out from this room. I swear I won't give up!" You spat back as you feel the anger rising in your body and dominating the anxiety from before.

"Do what you want. You aren't going to stay here forever because I will kick your annoying ass out of this place once I find about your brother, mark my words" right when as he utters those words, he shuts the door in your face not giving much time for you to proceed what he just said.

M-my brother?

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