Byul's Pov

I swear I will kill him and then kill myself. How can he do this to me? Hanging me up like this? He knows about my brother being alive and he is searching for him and I didn't even know about this? I haven't seen him for about two days and I fucking don't know what to do with the information he gave to me. Kicks me out?

That's how he wanna play with me?

He thinks I will let him decide in my place? I will let him leave me and make me go away with my brother once he finds him?

He thinks I am that easy to give up? If I am ever going to meet my brother, he thinks that I  will forget about him and will live my life happily? Is my confession a joke to him? When I said I love him and I want to stay by his side no matter what, was all of this just a freaking joke to him?

If he thinks that way, then he is a jerk. Stupid freaking jerk.

And I hate that jerk

I get that he rejected me...and that's okay. But ever did I say that I will give up on him? No, I will not. Never

He said too many things to me the other day, but never did he say that he hates me. Because he simply doesn't. And if he is trying to hide this information from me then he has terribly failed. I have caught him already.

It's been two days since I didn't see him. It's common though, but still it fires me up everytime whenever his words comes to mind. He will kick me out once he finds my brother.

I didn't know that he was searching for my brother. I don't even remember anything about him. Just a little bit from when we were living with our father after that night. It was just three of us but it was still nice.

When my brother left me suddenly that night, I lost all the hope. I didn't want to live anymore. I used to cry every night even dad was there, by my side. But still it hurt every time whenever I recalled his face.

He used to call me with different nicknames, he never called me by my real name. My real name, what was it? I don't even know. I just know my name is byul now and it was given by uncle.

At first I used to think about my family a lot. Everything I did, I kept hearing their voices in my head. But now, it all just vanished as the time progressed. I don't remember them, I don't even miss them. Maybe that's because I was really small back then? Or maybe I learnt to live without them? Maybe I found home in someone else?

And that someone is jungkook?

What I will do if he actually succeeds in finding my brother? Wouldn't it be awkward for me.....and maybe for him? Will I ever accept him as my family?

How will I act? What if he will not like me? In a way, I think it will be better since he will leave me...leave me again like he did in the past. He left me alone when I needed him the most. It's better if he leaves me now too. Because I don't want to get attached to him again.

I have forgotten what family love feels like and I want to keep it this way. I don't want more new feelings. Because my heart is already suffering alot.

End Of byul's Pov

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Author's Pov

"Are you going to tell her now?" Jungkook asks as he park his car in the garage of their so called home.

It's beautiful that how lovers exchange their hearts. Jungkook gave his heart to byul but in exchange, he has her heart, pure and fragile.

He feels at relief thinking about byul that she will be save now, but his heart already feels heavy and congested. It feels like he has lost something so precious to him but he don't know what is it and there's this thing he can't get over is that she will be no longer here, in front of his eyes. He already feels lost and weak and it seems he has given all of his power and strength to her along with his heart.

Jungkook have always thought love will make him weaker and fragile, but he didn't know that he is no one to choose when, who and how he should love. It will happen. It will automatically happen and no one can do anything about it. Love is a trap and it only makes you weaker and weaker if you try to throw it away, but once you accept it. You will be the strongest person on earth and who knows in the universe?

If you have love then you will be happiest. So much happy that you will not able to find words to describe or ways to express it. You will only able to feel it in your heart.

But jungkook doesn't know it yet. He doesn't know what he is missing and what he has missed. And that's because he is a stupid boy. He does not know that he is already loving her with all his heart even if he is denying it. The walls he has made around his heart is already broken by her one gaze, one lovely gaze but he doesn't know.

And when that time comes, the time when she will be gone. When she will be not here, with him. He will go insane. His heart will die and it will hurt. It will hurt so much that he will feel it in every part of his body.

In that moment, his mind will only shout her name, his heart will only want her and his body..his body will only desire her warmth. And when it will happen, he will have no choice but to stay close to her. To love her and want her. To tell her how much she means to him and how much he wants to spend his every moment with her.
In that moment, he will have to accept what he has. He has to accept his love that God has given to him as a present and as a curse.

Yes, love is a curse. A curse that you don't want to break.

"Taehyung, I asked you something. You need to tell her or I will do it" jungkook says  impatiently as he glares the person sitting beside him in utter annoyance.

"No I will tell her. B-but I don't know how" taehyung says troubled. He still can't believe that byul is his sister. The sister he knew was a completely different person. She was so bright and vibrant. But byul...byul is completely opposite. Her name, her personality her everything is not like his sister. He wonders if she is even his sister?

"Why is her name is byul? Do you know who changed her name?" Taehyung asks after a while. Jungkook stares at him for a minute before he says "Her uncle changed it and if you ask why. Then it's not my place to tell you. She will tell you if that's necessary."

"What uncle? I never knew dad had any brother. He was the only child" taehyung says.

"We still not know much, taehyung. But he has some relations with your father as well as with our boss. Byul was living with him when I brought her here. And that pic...we found that pic of you and your sister in that place" jungkook explains as he pats taehyung's back. "Just do it, you will eventually know everything little by little if you talk to her"

Taehyung nods, feeling a bit uneasy as he exits the car and walks towards byul's room.

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